The support means the world to me, and thanks to your kind contributions I was able to go and visit my boy in Britain. I'll try and mock up a proper recap blog—though I am notoriously terrible at doing those, I don't think I've ever managed a proper recap blog for any of the various conventions I've gone to over the years. I guess there wasI Don't Even Have The Energy To Creatively Title Shit Anymore · 11:08am Aug 27th, 2014
I'm really sorry guys
But I really think I've reached the end of my rope here
I don't understand why I feel like shit about easily prevented issues or why I overreact to slightest shit
I wish I had drive to create real work instead of this trite nonsense
I wish I wasn't a disappointment to essentially everyone I come in contact with
I wish my particular mash-up brand of megalomania/low self esteem didn't have to affect you all
I'm sorry I have to annoy you again with all this bullshit, but you are pretty much the only people that have a modicum of care in your bodies for me. My home life is shit right now, I can't afford therapy, 4chan is an obvious no-go, and the people I usually talk to about my issues have stopped talking to me for whatever reasons they have.
For new followers who are late to the pity party, I'm sorry you have to deal with this
and even though it's lame as all hell
I love you guys
and I don't want you to forget it
because you all took time to make me feel nice on one level or another, from a simple shitpost to years of dedicated following
watching me turn from some stupid shitposting teenager to a stupid depressed teenager
you guys mean a lot
and I really wish I still had strength for all of you
but wishes are all just idealistic whines so
Have another apology
I'm sorry I couldn't be who I thought you wanted me to be
You have not disappointed us.
You are one awesome motherfucking individual.
You can get through this.
Eh, you're still one cool son of a gun.
*low whisper* pss~t! Regi~
I think you should think that I think you're awesome, because I really think you're awesome!
*faces back to front of class before teacher notices*
calm down, this is a fucking my little pony fanfiction
get a hobby or something
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Disappointment my arse. If you're a disappointment, Regi, then I'm the second incarnation of Adolph Hitler and Herman Goering's bastard love child.
Refi, you're a fucking great entertainer.
Your stories can make me laugh and even cry.
You have a great ability in writing.
You're not a disappointment.
You're an awesome guy that everyone here loves.
Here's hoping things get better for you.
Meh. I still think if you just packed up, left, and resolved not to think about whatever toxic people you'd be leaving behind, you'd do fine.
Just remember, you promised not to drink the magic bleach! We'll be disappointed if you do.
Two things:
You're way more productive than I* am.
You have a lot more ideas than I* have.
*Both of these are still true if you replace "I" with "A whole fucking lot of people on this site".
You wouldn't have 1725 followers if you weren't doing something right.
Need a chat? You have my skype...
I just suck at starting conversations is all.
~Skeeter The Lurker
you are what we wanted you to be
I feel really bad for you and I wish there was something I could do to help.
The only thing we (or I, dunno about the rest of the people here) expect you to be is fuckin' amazing. You haven't failed at that yet.
2405903 thanks
that was me trying to give some reassurance actually
4chan is an obvious no-go Is this why we haven't seen much of you lately?
Regardless, I really hope things get sorted out for you Regi.
I know things can get bad, but if it's any consolation, know that you haven't disappointed all of us.
Not me at least.
Stay strong Regi.
I only have one response.
*hugs tightly* It's depression, I don't think there is anything I can say that will be of any help. But I and among with many others can and will be there for you
I have never once been disappointed in you, Regi.
All you do is entertain.
You've written over 120 stories
All your having is a bit of writers block
Here is a three step cure
Go get a nice dinner
Go watch some tv
Get some sleep
You'll fell better in the morning
For the record, I've never been disappointed.
Now that we joined the Civilized World and have ObamaCare, you can get affordable mental healthcare. Please take advantage of it.
It'll be alright. As long as you love me, I'll still love you.
Don't worry, Regi. You're my special disappointment. I'm just chivin' you. Love you! Kissie Kissie!
Everything you write is wonderful and never let any of the bullshit get to you. Believe it or not some parts of the internet actually give a fuck about others and this site is a testament to that. Hang on in and seek help if you want it.
Regi don't be so hard on yourself,
I may be a fairly new follower but I say you havn't disappointed anyone here.
We are just glad that you shared your stories and writing skills with us.
Disappointed? Reg, I can't recall any time when you've disappointed me.
Oh honey, you're, like, consistently the least disappointing thing on the internet.
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Check Skype, dear. I'll be here for you when possible.
Regidar, I'm rarely disappointed, but you're particularly not-disappointing. I've had many a moment of mirth with your work, and indeed several incidences of insight. If you need a rest dear chap, then let us reread your standing works for a while, and damn the consequences.
Have you ever considered walking around the world!?
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Really now Regi?
REALLY NOW REGI?!?!?!!
Trust me, dude. You've done thousands times anything I've ever hoped to do on this site.
In my opinion, (which for some reason actually counts very little
) your "nonsense" would only be nonsense if people didn't enjoy it. Newsflash!! Many people enjoy it... many is actually the understatement of the decade, but whatever. And it's not "bullshit". You're our friend, so if you're unhappy, it matters to us. You matter to us. And we don't want you to forget, either, that we love you too, and you also mean a lot to us.
Wishes aren't just idealistic whines... they're hopes, and dreams, and every person has wishes. But wishes can only come true if you make them come true. (I only realized last year that fairies aren't real.
) And we don't want you to be anything but you. We don't have expectations of who you are. Just be yourself, and all will be well.
(Sorry I'm so late, by the way... though you probably don't even remember who I am. Not many people do.
)
ya you suck
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That's not fucking writers' block, not even close. Have you ever heard about the term 'depression' before? If not, kindly get the fuck out of this blog. Also, are you more interested in his stories than rather on his mental state? If so, kindly get the FUCK out of this blog too.
Geez, people like you seem to be a hit on the back of someone's head.
Moving on.
Regi, you have my skype, talk to me.
Even though you know I've dumped a lot of shit on you a while back, I can receive it back, so do it. I'm here for ya, bro, so please do it.
Hell, if I don't reply in skype, you have my number, so do it I don't care if I'm sleeping.
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So, how much you need for therapy and what's the best way to send you money.
2407596 People don't understand. All I see in the comment section is people offering comfort, Skype, affection. As a person who grew up in a household containing a family that constantly consider him a failure and a disappointment and was very audible with it even at a young age, I know what I'd want to be getting in times of emotional strife, more strife.
There comes a time when you're so replete with it, it drains and never can come back. But is still there in the most subtle ways. A tough hide for a mental state. Grey, is all I could describe it as. Think of your core not being hollow, but simply grey. Not white, nor black, a mixture of both of these colors.
2407596 look man I'm not a people person and I'm not very smart
I can admit that after re reading the blog and my comment that what I said was In fact, awful
I might not know him well but I still have human values
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Reg I know how you feel
I have had depression problems
'HAD'
Life sucks sometimes but there are good times too
I will take any shit you wanna dump on me
Regi, my friend, you are not a bad person.
You'll grow out of it, man. Teen angst supercedes depressive tendencies, albeit the two can be comorbid. I call it "tangst." Sounds like a sex move on UrbanDictionary....huh...
Monthly "Regidar is depressed and fishes for compliments" blog. Nothing to see here, everyone, go back to clopping...and if you weren't clopping, what the fuck is wrong with you? You gay or something?
2405575 Th-thanks
I feel your faith may be somewhat unfounded
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Thank you, you guys.
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A fair amount of people have decent reason to hate me and everything I stand for
but I've got you guys and that's enough
2405651 I don't have a lot of places (if any) to go
2405693 Production doesn't equal quality. As a lot of people have pointed out, I lack substance.
2405694 I can take you up on it sometime.
2405788 Well, as I stated, a lot of the people I usually go to
a) got tired of my bullshit
b) are not available
c) a mix of both
And almost every one of my friends IRL does not connect with emotion
2405813 And sometimes, that's even more terrifying than not being who you wanted me to be
2405838 It's alright
Please don't feel bad, unless someone's a dick they don't deserve to feel bad because of me
so either go sodomize a puppy or chin up
I want nice people happy dammit
2405921 I've actually been anoning there a ton. I figured unless it was absolutely required, I'd let the trip rest.
God forbid I turn back into Ruby.
2405942 Thank you, Normal.
I'm glad you didn't leave.
2405966 Well, I think the writer's block is a side effect of the depression, personally.
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My point still stands.
You still have more substance than the majority of writers here. You're not a fadfic sheep writer. You don't just make side stories of other people's stories, you don't just take other people's OC just for convenience. You don't write self-insert wish-fulfillment crap that only amounts to "Look how awesome I think I
amwould beI could be if I wished hard enough!"It doesn't matter that you're not as great as you wish you were; no one ever is. Being all you ever wanted to be is the worst thing in the world, because it means there is nowhere left to go. I wouldn't want that.
Substance comes from the heart, fueled by hardships understood and internalized. You had those. I do think you are intelligent enough to understand them.
You have substance. Maybe you have a hard time giving it form in your writing, maybe you just think you have a hard time giving it form in your writing. Either way it's there, and one day it'll show as bright as the fucking sun.
So stop whining you sexy asshole. I can't fap to crying little bitches. Lol JK I love you.
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Tht's because you're overthinking things, life is simple than a lot of people want it to be, do you like writing? then keep on writing, writer's block and other problems come from the writer limiting themselves, do what you like and I can guarantee that it will be fine.
Ah men, I wish work hasn't been stealing my time and energy lately, or else I'd be online shooting the shit with ya till the wee hours
Just hang in there dude!
You'll re-find your muse sooner or later, I just know it!
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Please do.
I may not have the most solid of schedules, or quickest of response times, but I'll reply. You can count on it.
Even if it's just to rant/vent/rave, just hit me up and start talking.
~Skeeter The Lurker
All teenagers are whiny brats. We all went through this!