What do you do... · 1:14am Apr 7th, 2014
When you give someone everything you had, and yet receive nothing in return.
Some of you might remember this blog, in which I explained the story of how I met the first woman I fell in love with, and the debacle surrounding it. Well, that whole deal has finally come to a conclusion.
Without going into details, I'll simply say. It's not going to happen.
Does it suck? Absolutely. Seeing the circumstances around how it ended makes me feel worse, as I am confident that what she is doing is going to end up hurting her in the end.
But what hurts the most is knowing that I did everything I possibly could, everything in my power to try and win her over, only for it to go to waste.
So what in the hell are you supposed to do when something like that happens?
You move on.
I've done a lot of learning this first year of college. Learning about the "real" world if that's what you want to call it. And you know what? Sometimes it sucks. But that's okay, because the experiences that you struggle through are there for a reason, to build and shape you into a better person. The person that you were meant to be. And just because something doesn't go the way you thought it would go, or how you wanted it to happen, doesn't mean that it wasn't what was supposed to happen. I may have lost what I thought to be the girl of my dreams, but over time I gained in her one of the best friends I could ever ask for.
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But yeah. Maybe it didn't turn out how I wanted. But you know what? I'm happy. At least happier than I've been, seeing as this was by far the hardest year of my life with all that I've been through in the past seven or eight or whatever months. And who knows what's going to come of it in the future.
I guess that's really all I want to say about that. I'm happier than I've been all year, and I'm moving on. Maybe I'll actually be back on here regularly too. Who knows.
I love you guys. Thanks for putting up with me. You make me thankful.
This is a slightly drunk TSB signing off for now. For updates to follow maaaaaybe soon. Who knows. I seem to say that a lot.
Thanks again guys. It's good to know that there are always people that will stick around for me.
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I salute you good sir. And that's just life; fuck her. Look after your own happiness before you share it with significant other! That's what I did and my girlfriend, myself are into year and half relationship.
Best of lucks!
1986977 I always try to put other's happiness before my own. And she's happy. So that means I can be too.
I'm happy for you. As someone who's been through college (and similar relationship woes) I can tell you that you're right. They way I've always phrased it is that, when going through this stuff, you will do "the most growing-up-per-minute you'll ever have" and I'm really glad that you're growing and maturing as a person from these experiences. As f*cking terrible as this kind of drama/pain/nonsense is, it's also something that everyone goes through, and it's incredibly personal.
So I'm glad that you're pulling lessons out of this, and deciding to make changes to your outlook on life, and growing up from your experiences. I'm not saying that I agree with all of your conclusions (but maybe I do!) but that doesn't matter because I'm not you. You are you. And the changes you decide to make to yourself/your life are the process of you growing up, and remaining "your own person."
So... yeah. Keep on rockin'