past regrets

by Talacapo 0903p

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Rainbow Dash and Sorian are already Scootaloo's new parents, but who exactly is her biological mother?

For five years, Firefly lived in torment when she had to leave Scootaloo in an alley, but she had no other choice. If she didn't, her daughter would suffer as she suffered from a violent, alcoholic husband. Will Firefly be able to redeem her past? Can Scootaloo forgive her birth mother for abandoning her? Can Rainbow Dash and Sorian forgive her and allow her to see her daughter after abandoning her five years ago?

Before reading this story read the previous two to understand this
https://www.fimfiction.net/story/86073/the-separation-of-mother-and-daughter

https://www.fimfiction.net/story/69029/my-little-scootaloo

chapter 1:

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A pegasus mare yellow fur and purple mane and green eyes and a cutie mark of stars walked through the streets of Cloudsdale. It was already night and, returning home from an exhausting day of work. His gaze focused on an alley that brought back a sad memory. A night where she can't forgive herself for what she's done.

She could still see herself as a reflection of herself carrying a rolled up blanket, her tears fell on the blanket, in that blanket there was a pegasus baby only a few weeks old, its fur was orange with a purple mane, the baby was asleep.

When Firefly saw that in an alley there was a box, she went to the alley hugged the baby and kissed her on the forehead and slowly put the baby in the box making sure she didn't wake up, put down the toy monkey and wrote a note that says the following.

"Whoever finds this, please take care of my daughter. I could have taken care of her if it wasn't for reasons I'd rather not say. Her name is Scootaloo. When she comes of age, I want you to tell her that her mother loves her very much and if so I would have raised her myself. Tell her I'm so sorry and I hope she forgives me."

As she wrote the note, her tears falling on the paper, she placed the note next to the baby. "I'm so sorry, I hope that one day you can forgive me," she said sobbing as she walked away from that place, she shuddered when she heard her baby's cries so she quickly walked away fearing that someone would see her when the baby began to cry

When her own reflection vanished like a ghost, Firefly looked sadly at that alley, she could still perfectly remember that tragic night, it was something that could not be forgiven her, since that night she had abandoned her daughter in that place and since that night She has lived regretful and sad just by remembering the events of that night.

"Oh Scootaloo, my baby, my sweet baby. I'm so sorry I left you, I hope you can forgive me wherever you are", she said sadly her tears began to fall, she dried her tears and continued on her way away from that place.

When she arrived at her house she saw that the newspaper was in the entrance of her house. He took it as he walked into his house, sat on the sofa and opened the newspaper, he was surprised to see what it said on the first page it said.

"Finally, after two trials, Rainbow Dash and Soarin have full custody of their daughter, Scootaloo." This surprised Firefly to wonder if it was really Scootaloo, as she continued to read the newspaper.

"after her father, White Fang, had temporary custody of Scootaloo after the first trial, which in the second trial after someone made an anonymous claim against White Fang that he was unfit to be a father, during the trial it was discovered that White Fang had beaten up Scootaloo when Scootaloo was found to have a bruise on her face, White Fang immediately lost custody and was handed over to Rainbow Dash and Sorian."

When Firefly saw a picture in the newspaper of an orange Pegasus filly with purple hair and purple eyes, she immediately knew who she was.

She was glad to hear that Scootaloo was safe and sound, but was saddened when she found out that her ex-husband had found Scootaloo and hurt her too.

She guessed that Rainbow Dash had originally found Scootaloo in the alley and saw the note that had left in the box next to Scootaloo.

What made Firefly happy isn't just knowing that his ex-husband was in jail.

It's because scootaloo was safe and sound with rainbow dash and sorian when he saw the news Firefly smiled and at the same time his eyes began to water again. her daughter was safe and sound and she had a family that loved her and would take care of her. Something she couldn't do.

"I have to do it, I have to see Scootaloo, she deserves to know the truth, she deserves to know why I left her in that alley",she said as she got up from the sofa and went to her room. her as she lay on her bed she thought to herself

"My little Scootaloo, I hope you can forgive me for leaving you,",She thought to herself as she slowly closed her eyes with the feeling that she would finally be able to see her daughter again after 5 years.

Meanwhile with rainbow dash: hours before

"Finally" Rainbow Dash said looking happily at Scootaloo. Soarin at the same time was glad to know that he was going to be a father along with rainbow dash

"Finally, that stud who called himself Scootaloo's father will pay for what he did" Sorian said as they headed home together.

"You're right Soarin, that stallion will never hurt Scootaloo again" said rainbow dash.
When they got home they both had a question "who exactly is Scootaloo's biological mother?" They decided to put that question aside and start their new life as Scootaloo's parents.

As Rainbow Dash and Soarin went to the living room. Scootaloo asked "do you think my birth mother loves me?",

This question surprised Rainbow Dash deep down she knew this question would come sooner or later, looking at Scootaloo.

"I'm sure she loves you, Scootaloo," Rainbow said looking happily at Scootaloo, even though she knew Scootaloo wasn't sure about everything.

"Are you sure, mom?" Scootaloo asked looking seriously at Rainbow "why if that's the case why did my biological mother abandon me?" Scootaloo asked Rainbow Dash
"I know why she would have done it, do you know why I think so?" Rainbow Dash told Scootaloo

"why?" Scootaloo asked

"Because your birth mother left you to protect you," Rainbow said looking at Scootaloo.
"Protect me from who?" Scootaloo asked.

"From your biological father, Scootaloo," Rainbow replied, looking seriously at Scootaloo.

"Why do you say that?" Scootaloo asked.

"Because if that stud who claimed to be your father was actually telling the truth, he knew that your birth mother abandoned you to protect you and prevent your birth father from finding you," Rainbow replied looking happily at Scootaloo as she turned around. happy.

"But why did I want to prevent my biological father from finding me?" Scootaloo asked, still not sure why.

"Because I didn't want you to suffer like your birth mother was probably already suffering," Rainbow Dash replied.
"Because apparently that stud was a violent alcoholic and your birth mother wanted to keep him from hurting you" Rainbow Dash said looking at Scootaloo.


"But let's forget it, I'm sure your biological mother, wherever she is, will be very happy to know that you are safe," Rainbow said seeing that Scootaloo was happy.

"I hope so, mommy, I hope so" Scootaloo finally said hugging his mother with the happiness of a new life.

Rainbow returned her daughter's hug and Soarin, moved by the scene, also joined the hug.

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Starting a new day, Firefly woke up with only one motivation, to see his daughter, Scootaloo again, he knew he had to tell her the truth. "Okay, I'm going to go get the newspaper, especially the picture of Scootaloo," Firefly said as she took the saddlebag from him. As he took the newspaper clipping and put it in his saddlebags, he left his house glimpsing a beautiful day in Cloudsdale "Well first I have to find Rainbow Dash, I just hope Rainbow Dash doesn't get mad at me when I tell her I'm Scootaloo's birth mother", She thought sadly knowing that would probably happen.

meanwhile with Rainbow Dash and Soarin

"All set" Rainbow Dash said as she left her house with Soarin by her side "Be good squirt, derpy must come take care of you" Rainbow Dash said saying goodbye to her daughter as she gave her a goodbye hug . "Bye mommy, I'll see you after school," Scootaloo said goodbye to Rainbow Dash.

"Do you really think Scootaloo's birth mother still loves her?" Sorian asked as he flew to Rainbow Dash's side. "I'm pretty sure she still loves her," Rainbow Dash replied looking at Sorian."And why are you so sure?" Sorian asked Rainbow Dash, "I know because her birth mother did the only thing she could do to protect Scootaloo and keep her birth father from finding her." Rainbow Dash answered.

While both were heading to the academy, they both saw a pegasus mare with yellow fur and purple mane heading to the academy "um, I wonder who she is, I've never seen her" Rainbow Dash said looking at the mysterious mare.

"Perhaps he is a newcomer looking to enroll in the academy," Soarin said as they continued on their way to the academy.

Meanwhile with Firefly

Firefly glimpsed the academy "finally, I just hope Rainbow Dash or Sorian have arrived", Firefly thought as she landed in one of the academy's entrances "does she have something miss?" Asked one of the guards who was sitting at a firefly stand, he approached and answered with a nod.

"Yes, my name is Firefly, do you know if Rainbow Dash is here? I need to talk to her" asked Firefly with a small smile "I'm sorry ma'am, she hasn't arrived yet, but if you like you can wait for her to arrive", replied the guard . Hearing Firefly reply with a nod, she waited there minutes later. Firefly looked up when he saw that Rainbow Dash had arrived.

"Hello, Golden Guard", said Rainbow greeting the guard "good morning, Miss Dash" Golden Guard returned the greeting "Um, Miss Dash, someone named Firefly who wants to speak with you" she said pointing to the mare that was behind her she his "Um hello, do you want to talk to me?" Rainbow asked the pegasus mare.

"Well I don't know how to start, you don't know me but I saw in the newspaper that you became Scootaloo's mother" Firefly said looking at rainbow.

"Yeah, what's up with that?" Rainbow asked curiously.

"I know this would be hard to believe but..." Firefly's voice cut off suddenly "but what?" Rainbow asked as she looked at Firefly.

"I'm Scootaloo's biological mother", Firefly answered, both Rainbow and Sorian remained silent.

meanwhile at rainbow dash's house

"Wow Derpy, your muffins are delicious", Scootaloo said congratulating Derpy on the delicious muffins she made.

"Thanks, they're Dinky's favorites too", Derpy said as they ate lunch. looking at the clock he saw that it was time to take Scootaloo to school

"It's time to go to school, Scootaloo" said Derpy going for Scootaloo's saddlebags "Yes, I'm coming", Scootaloo said accompanying Derpy while she put the saddlebags "ok let's go find Dinky and together we'll go to school, ok? agreement?
"Okay," Scootaloo said as they both walked out of the house.

meanwhile with rainbow dash

"W-what?" She didn't expect Scootaloo's birth mother to show up like this out of the blue. She at first wanted to punch her for abandoning Scootaloo in that alley, but she decided against it.

"Please don't think badly of me for showing up like this after 5 years," Firefly said with concern.

"If you're telling the truth, is that stud who tried to take Scootaloo really his biological father?" Rainbow asked with some curiosity as they both sat down on a nearby bench.

"But why? Why did you leave her in that alley?" Rainbow Dash curiously asked why Firefly left Scootaloo in that alley.

"I did it to protect her," Firefly answered truthfully. "from her father, right?" Rainbow asked Firefly's answer.

"Yes, his name was White Fang, he was an abusive and violent alcoholic, he also mistreated me," said Fyrefly, sadly remembering the suffering he had to live.

"When I found out she was pregnant at first I was glad. I thought he would change and try to kick her habit", Firefly said with some anger, remembering her life of suffering with White Fang.

"But it didn't, he just got worse and he got more violent," Firefly said.

"I was afraid he would do the same thing to Scootaloo after he was born. He wanted to file for a divorce, but if he did, White would get custody of Scootaloo," Firefly said as she began to sob.

"But why didn't you run off with Scootaloo?" Rainbow asked as she tried to comfort Firefly.

"Because I had nowhere to go besides if they found me, I would be jailed and White would get custody of Scootaloo," Firefly replied as she calmed down slowly.

"When Scootaloo was born, I couldn't think of anything else but how adorable she was, I just didn't want her to suffer a life of mistreatment from a father an alcoholic," Firefly said.

"But what happened to make you abandon Scootaloo?" Rainbow Dash asked.

"Well, it was the same night you found Scootaloo. I was tucking Scootaloo in while she slept, so I went downstairs to the living room and saw that White, as usual, was reading the paper. Then I heard that Scootaloo had started crying By this time, White was fed up with Scootaloo's crying, so he got up from the couch and went to Scootaloo's room, he knew what he was going to do was not right."

Firefly said as he continued to tell his story.

"I followed him to Scootaloo's room, I could hear White scream as Scootaloo cried louder, when I saw that he was about to hit Scootaloo, that's when I yelled at him to throw Scootaloo and if he wanted to hit someone to hit me me," said Firefly remembering her terrible past.

"It was there that he left Scootaloo in her crib and instead of hitting me he just grabbed his saddlebag and went to one of the many taverns in Cloudsdale, while I was trying to calm Scootaloo down, that's when a fear came into my mind." Firefly said as tears began to fall from her eyes.

"So I took Scootaloo, didn't know what to do, I just didn't want her to suffer the mistreatment what I suffered she didn't deserve, she deserved to be happy and even if she gave her happiness her father. It would only cause her sadness and suffering, when I saw that there was a box in an alley, I went there, I slowly put Scootaloo there along with the monkey doll that I bought her that and she loved along with the note that you found", Firefly said remembering sadly that night and his past. As Rainbow listened to her story, tears began to fall from her eyes. Rainbow never thought that Firefly had suffered so much and that she didn't want Scootaloo to suffer too.

"But why didn't you put Scootaloo in an orphanage instead of an alley?" Rainbow Dash asked.

"To prevent White from finding Scootaloo," Firefly replied.

"All these years I didn't look for Scootaloo for fear that my ex-husband would follow me and take Scootaloo," Firefly said.

"But when I found out that White managed to get custody of Scootaloo temporarily, I was disappointed. I thought what I had done was useless since I had found Scootaloo, but when I found out at the second trial that White Fang had been sent to prison after they found bruises on Scootaloo's face," Firefly said.

"That's when I knew someone had found Scootaloo before White. That's when I found out that it was you, you found her and took care of her and I will always thank you for doing so."

Firefly said thanking Rainbow Dash for taking care of her. Scootaloo all these years.

"You don't have to thank me, Firefly. I just did the right thing. When that stud showed up, I knew you abandoned Scootaloo to protect her from the abuse you had to go through," Rainbow Dash said.

"I just couldn't believe it, Scootaloo was safe and that he also had a family that loved her and would take care of her, something that I couldn't do" said Firefly happily

"That's when I decided to start my search, I wanted to see Scootaloo again, I wanted her to know the truth, I wanted her to know why I left her 5 years ago," Firefly enthused.

"Of course, Firefly I understand that you abandoned her to protect her, I understand that you loved her, that's why you didn't want her to go through the same suffering you were experiencing" Rainbow Dash said comforting Firefly

"Th-does that mean?" said firefly

"Yes firefly, I forgive you I understand that you suffered a lot, you had to leave Scootaloo so that she wouldn't suffer the same as you were suffering" Rainbow said as she hugged fyrefly. "I'll let you see her and I'm sure she'll be very happy to know that her birth mother still loves her," Rainbow Dash said.

"Thank you Rainbow, thank you very much," Firefly said thanking Raimbow Dash.

"You're welcome" Rainbow replied.

"If you want you can enter the academy and then we can go to my house" Rainbow suggested to Firefly

she nodded and he accompanied her to the academy now with the feeling that she would really see her daughter again.

chapter 3 part 1 revelation:

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As Rainbow Dash, Soarin and Firefly left the academy and flew home, as Firefly followed them, a question came to her mind "Do you really think Scootaloo will forgive me?" Firefly asked as Rainbow and Sorian turned around.

"Of course she'll forgive you, Firefly, when you explain why you left her, she'll understand," Soarin said as he looked at Firefly. "Why are you so sure, soarin?" Firefly asked with a doubtful tone.

"Because Scootaloo once asked if her birth mother really loved her, she meant you," Rainbow replied to Firefly's question. "In fact?" Firefly asked with some astonishment.

"Yes, Firefly, it was yesterday, when we got home from the trial, I told her yes, you still loved her and in the end she was right," Rainbow Dash replied. "You loved Scootaloo so much that you didn't want her to suffer in the same way that you suffered for her, that's why you left her, it was to protect her from his father.

"Firefly" Rainbow said as Firefly raised her head and looked into her eyes "Scootaloo will forgive you and accept you, she will understand that the reason you abandoned her was to protect her" Rainbow Dash said as she comforted Firefly.

"You're right Rainbow, I should get over my past actions and see what I have now, I'm going to see Scootaloo, I'm going to see my daughter again after five years," Firefly replied happily and a little worried. her calling Scootaloo her daughter.

"Calm down Firefly, you don't have to worry about calling Scootaloo your daughter even though I took care of her for 5 years, she is still your daughter and she always will be," Rainbow said calming Firefly's worries.

"Thank you Rainbow," Firefly said as the three of them continued on their way.

Meanwhile at Rainbow Dash's house

"Weird, mom was supposed to be home by now," Scootaloo said when he saw that his mom hadn't even gotten a Daring Doo comic.

Hearing the sound of the door opening Scootaloo got up to greet her mother, she was received by a hug from both Sorian and Rainbow while Firefly watched everything, who had a happy face to be able to see her daughter again after a long time.

"Hi mommy! Hi Soarin", Scootaloo said greeting her parents "hi squirt, how was your day?" Rainbow asked as she hugged her daughter "everything was fine mom", Scootaloo answered her question looking at Rainbow Dash looking at Firefly "umm mom, who is she?" Scootaloo asked seeing Firefly behind Rainbow.

"Oh, this is Firefly. I met her when she came to the academy, she told me that she had something important to tell you, Scootaloo," Rainbow said as she entered her house with Firefly, who also entered the house.

"Okay, I'll leave you guys alone so you can talk quietly," Rainbow Dash said as she left the room to give Scootaloo and Firefly some privacy. "Okay mommy," Scootaloo replied as she and Firefly sat down on the couch. "So what do you want to talk to me about?" Scootaloo asked curiously as she looked Firefly in her eyes.

"Okay Scootaloo, I know you've lived with Rainbow Dash all your life and that she's been a mother to you, even though they're not of the same blood" Firefly said as she kept looking at Scootaloo "yes that's true" she answered Scootaloo "And recently a stud tried to take you away saying he was your father," Firefly said seeing Scootaloo's surprised face.

"H-how do you know that?" Scootaloo said surprised when Firefly mentioned that stallion "Scootaloo, this is something I have lived with for years that I have never been able to forgive myself, is that I am your biological mother Scootaloo" said Firefly when saying it, a silence invaded the environment.

"W-what?" Scootaloo said totally surprised. I never imagined this would happen. I never thought "Why should I believe you? Some stud tried to take me saying he was my father and now you say you are my birth mother." Scootaloo said still not believing what Firefly told her, "I know you can doubt my Scootaloo if you don't believe me, this will make you change your mind", Firefly said while taking a photo where she was lying on a hospital bed while in her arms was an colour orange pegasus baby with purple mane.



Seeing the photo, Scootaloo could no longer deny that the baby in the photo was her, her mind could no longer deny it, that's when she realized that Firefly was telling the truth, she realized that Firefly was her biological mother.

chapter 3 part 2 a sad past

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"Now what do you think, Scootaloo?" Firefly asked calmly seeing how surprised and silent Scootaloo was "b-but why? Why did you leave me?" Scootaloo asked as he tried not to yell at Firefly "I did it to protect you Scootaloo" Firefly said while Scootaloo was still confused.

"Protect me? But from whom?" Scootaloo asked as her confusion still continued "from your father, Scootaloo, the stud that took you by force was actually your biological father" Firefly replied as Scootaloo slowly began to understand "are you saying that stud was really my father ?

Scootaloo asked when she saw Firefly nod her head "yes Scootaloo his name was White Fang he was alcoholic and violent he was the reason I left you five years ago Scootaloo" Firefly said while Scootaloo was still confused. "What did he do to make you leave me?" Scootaloo asked still not understanding the reason why his biological mother abandoned her.

"You see, Scootaloo, your father was an alcoholic and violent. I suffered from his violence for a long time. When I found out I was pregnant, I thought he would change and try to kick his habit, but it only got worse." Firefly said with a sad tone.

"I was afraid that he would do the same to you after you were born, I was afraid that you would suffer just like me, I didn't want that, I wanted you to be happy but I knew that even if it gave you happiness, but your father would take that happiness away from you."

"I did not dare to divorce him, because I knew that they were going to give him custody and you would have to live with him, I did not want that to happen because otherwise you were going to suffer with him all your life." Firefly said, seeing that Scootaloo was beginning to get the hang of things.

“When you were born I saw how beautiful and adorable you were, Scootaloo, you didn't deserve to suffer like me, you deserved to be happy, when I took you home the time I was with you I was happy to have you in my arms until that fateful night came when I lost him everything," Firelfy said as his ears flattened as he recalled that tragic night again.

"What happened that night, mom?" Scootaloo said looking at Firefly's happy face when Scootaloo called 'mom'.

"At first it was a normal night after dinner. I took you to your room to sleep once I tucked you in your crib and you were fast asleep, I left your room and went to the living room and as always your father was sitting on the sofa looking at the newspaper and then you started crying I knew you woke up this time your father couldn't take it and got up from the sofa and was to your room"

“I knew that what he was going to do was not good, so I followed him, I saw that he had entered your room, I could hear him screaming telling you to shut up, while you cried harder when you saw him leave. to hit you, that's when I yelled at him to let go, and if he wanted to hit someone he should do it to me"

"That's when he let you go. I really thought he was going to hit me, but he didn't. He just left the room, took his saddlebag and went to a tavern in Cloudsdale while I tried to calm you down so you could go back to sleep, it was that when a fear entered my mind, the fear of not being able to be home because of work and not being able to stop your father from hurting you, I let that one consume me completely and force me to leave you, I didn't want to do it, I didn't want to leave you, but I was blinded and consumed by the fear that wouldn't let me think.

"I had no choice Scootaloo, I couldn't let your father hurt you like he hurt me for years, someone as adorable as you deserved to be happy, you didn't deserve to suffer," said Firefly as she tried not to cry in front of her daughter, but she couldn't help but sob when her memories flashed back to that tragic night.

“Since that night there hasn't been a day that forgive myself for abandoning you all these years. I lived with that regret, with that memory that I can never forget, but I just want you to understand that Scootaloo has always loved you since the day you were born and has held you in my arms, even when I couldn't be there for you."

Firefly said as Scootaloo started to understand clearly as he hugged Firefly to comfort her.

"I, I understand, I know you didn't want me to suffer, fear was what forced you to leave me, the fear that you wouldn't be able to prevent dad from hurting me," she said as she hugged me. her mother at the same time Firefly did the same, both were calm hugging each other "I'm so sorry I left you Scootaloo I know what I did was to protect you but at the same time it was fear that forced me to leave you", said Firefly while her tears fell on the Scootaloo's mane.

"I forgive you mom, it was all to protect me, you didn't do it out of fear, you did it because you loved me", said Scootaloo as she separated from Firefly "It's true Scootaloo, I always loved you from the day I held you in my arms, even when I couldn't be there for you," Firefly said seeing the smile on her daughter's face.

"But now you have a family that loves you very much, I'm not going to force you to choose, Rainbow was the one who took care of you and I love you for 5 years and she was a mother to you," she said. Firefly seeing that Scootaloo was also looking at her without realizing that Rainbow Dash was with them.

"Scootaloo doesn't need to have to choose," Rainbow Dash said as she walked into the living room looking happily at Firefly and Scootaloo. "What do you mean by that mom?" Scootaloo asked Rainbow, "I mean you can go visit your mom and even hang out with her if you want, she deserves to be with you and you deserve to be with her too and she deserves to be with you and your Firefly can come visit her." Whenever you want your presence will always be welcome, so what do you think? Rainbow Dash said as she sat on the sofa.

"Of course Rainbow will be happy to be with Scootaloo!", Firefly replied happily, accepting Rainbow's kind proposal "Well, and Scootaloo, what do you think? They both deserve to be together and make up for lost time", she asked . Rainbow while her gaze was fixed on Scootaloo

"Sure I do, but what days could I go with mom?" Scootaloo asked Rainbow "umm weekends from Friday to Saturday and Sunday, is that okay with you, squirt" Rainbow dash asked while waiting Scootaloo's response.

"Yes, I think it's a good idea" answered Scootaloo

"And your Firefly? Sounds good to you" Rainbow Dash asked Firefly. "Sure, I think it's very good" Firefly replied accepting Rainbow's proposal "if you want, Firefly you can stay with us today", Rainbow said to Firefly "thank you, thank you very much", Firefly said thanking Rainbow's invitation "well, what? are we going to have a snack?

Rainbow Dash suggested when she saw that both Firefly and Scootaloo nodded as the three of them got up and headed for the kitchen. Firefly couldn't think of anything else to make this day even better than she already was, she was finally able to redeem her past and in return, Scootaloo forgave her and accepted her into her life.