Realizations: Cycle 2

by Jaycren

First published

We have heard the first half of the song. What of the answer? Does the other share in the one's feelings or have we yet to reach an accord.

Partnership requires two to sing. What of the answering song? What are the feelings of the other that the one longs such for? How will all things resolve? Will all sing their song forever? And what of those that exist in the background, what songs are they about to sing. For all those touched by the song will eventually sing their own.

Edited By: Notjohnharker

Part of the Fate Woven Timeline

Crazy Love - Discord: Clarity (Edited)

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Discord sat among the chaos of his dimension. His thoughts turning to a certain butter yellow coated, pink haired mare. Sensing his want, a window opened to allow the Lord of Chaos to observe his dearest friend. When the Storm King had attacked he had both not been at the Friendship Festival, and had then intentionally stayed away. He shuddered to think of what the Storm king might've done with Chaos magic added to what the satyr had already stolen.

He had stayed away so the girls could stand a chance. However, all of the enemies of Equestria that should’ve taken advantage given the circumstances... well, found themselves.... otherwise occupied. Chrysalis discovered that she was only able to say those most terrifying words, "I'm from the government,I'm here to help" and could only appear as an ERS agent. Tirek found it impossible to move when the floor of his cell turned into broccoli flavored yogurt. Sombra found himself trapped in smoke form, inside a Hooka, inside a vape shop, in Manehatten. He had returned them all to the states they were in when he found them afterwards, per Fluttershy’s anticipated wishes.

Still, he had not once gone to the side of his more timid friend, and she had done wonderfully. She had been brave, friendship had triumphed, but still he stayed away. It wasn't because of guilt at not coming sooner or any nonsense, instead it was because the last time he felt this way he had been betrayed, hurt and then lost himself. He had lost everything.

I Cry Deep Inside My Mind

Where the Hurt stays for all time

This fear of causing Pain

Never worth all of the time

Hearts stop right before we crash

I've always known how this ends

As time ticks till I break your heart

and I turn this world again

Cause you've been a piece of me

I didn't know I need

Holding you close to me

Still run and I can't think why

If this love ends tragically

Where does that Leave Me?

If This is my Insanity

Why have I such Clarity?

It was Tuesday he knew, he watched as she made the tea, he had not gone in the weeks after the Storm King. He had no idea what to say, how to explain. Gah! Why was this so complicated? Normally he liked confusion, it was fun to watch and cause. This though, it hurt to stay away, it might hurt more if she turned him down. Could he remain her friend once he had spoken the words out loud? Could he be with her if he was only allowed to be her friend? Was that all it was?

Why is my Love a Tragedy

Could you be the Remedy

If my love's insanity

Why does this feel clear to me

Go on and I make Mistakes

and you still call me your friend

That goes down to my soul

and makes me forget it all makes sense

Don't Say not to Leave

Cause we both know that I'll stay

If you call then I'll Go to You

And I'll be right there for you

Cause You are this piece I need

That I didn't know

Behaving Chaotically

It's alright and I'm Not sure Why

They call our Love tragedy

But You are my Remedy

This Love is Insanity

But it is my Clarity

But it's My only Clarity

This is the best Insanity

You'll Always be my remedy

It's all so Clear to Me

“I would never abandon my friend. If she wants to stay just friends then that is what we will be. If she wishes for more... well then she can have that too. I will always be her friend and confidant, ever ready to assist in any way I can. As a friend or something more, I will never abandon her. So that bitch broke my heart- so what! I found someone that won't ever hurt me ! someone that will always be first and foremost my friend! I truly see now, my problem before was I saw the body, the face, not the heart. Now in her I can have both, kind and beautiful in all ways inside and out. If I have to spend the rest of her days only being a friend, helping feed her animals and slop them out then I will have considered that time well spent- no time with her is wasted. Whatever I can do to make her life easier and her happy is my greatest accomplishment. I am never going back to being that spoiled, self entitled, whiny little shit I was. Time to nut up or shut up."

This Love's not Tragedy

It will always be Our Remedy

Yes Our Love's Insanity

But Also Our Clarity

Our Love is for Eternity

She will always be my Remedy

This Love will be Insanity

Guided by our clarity

She had become and always would be the center point of his world, and maybe he was wrong in feeling that. Maybe this could never work? He didn't care about past interests that had hurt him, caged him, betrayed him. He had been a monster still when she found him, what they and his pain had made him. But she had changed him , she had been the first to take a chance on a “dangerous creature”. She had beaten him at his own games not once, not twice, but three times!!!!! When was he ever going to find a mare like that again? Answer: half past never and fat chance!!!!!

He pulled himself out of his chair, closing the viewing port, he slicked back his hair. He had a mare to see about Tuesday tea. After all, he was bringing the cucumber sandwiches- wouldn’t do to be late. He had even gotten their pointy hats on just right. With a snap of his fingers the Lord of Chaos dashed off to where the one he had always unknowingly waited for waited for him.



Unnoticed by Discord, an Ivory white Alicorn watched the scene. She smiled, then was gone, knowing that when chaos and kindness come together, Love is always the result.

Bulkhemian Rhapsody - Bulk: As Long As You Love Me (Edited)

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Bulk laid down on Adagio's bed shirtless, the orange haired woman snuggled up to him. Per her request he wrapped his one arm around her so she could rest her head on his chest. She wore his t-shirt, hanging down to about mid-thigh, creating the simultaneous effect of her as a temptress and an innocent playing dress up. The two of them laid quietly. Nothing was said, and nothing needed to be said.

For the first time in a month Adagio breathed calmly in her sleep, her nightmares silent. Bulk however, just held her, watching this beautiful woman sleep. His fitness regimen had long since lessened his need of sleep and he smiled watching her hit REM as she drew closer to him. He lay back and listened to her breathing, but thoughts came unbidden.
Was that hippocampus really her 'natural' form? What exactly had caused a hero of another world to banish this young woman to a place he knew it was likely that she would starve? Bulk didn't share the princess's view on this Starswirl, no one deserved to starve to death. After all without magic how would they have eaten? Did he know that the mirror would convert them to something that would survive in this world? Those forms her and her sisters had generated had looked extremely aquatic, what if they had not been able to breathe in this world? What had the sirens done to deserve a slow and painful death ? Also from what Princess Twilight had said the Sirens were extinct on the other side of the portal, how had that come to be? His mind and conscience troubled, he looked down upon her and thought.

All this worry has long been on my mind
What happened to come to this end
My friends say that I am crazy and it's in my mind
Questioning all of their Claims
And why I have have to ask for your story
I can't get this out of my head
Don't care what they say about your history
You've always been true with me
I Don't Care what you are
How far you've run
What you did
I will always Love you
They cast you out
Thought you gone
Whatever you've done
I will always love you

Bulk closed his eyes, but his brain kept going. He couldn't help it, there was a reason in a school with a girl that could do quantum physics calculations in her head and another that was a social architect, he was only two points off their tied GPA. He knew from his academics that history was written by the victor. So, why were there only three Sirens left and all female? Even in a world of magic, a bigger breeding population was needed, and the three didn't display different enough visible genetic markers to be anything other than family. That didn't sit well with the well muscled young man, things didn't add up.

Again he looked down at Dagi, she looked so peaceful. He had investigated her and her sisters, prior to the battle of the bands the three girls had only been around for about three months before Sunset had come through the portal. Another thing that didn't make sense, if all that was left in their world was myths and legends about the Sirens, that spoke of a considerable amount of time. How then could they each have come out so close together? He sighed. His expertise was in pushing physical limitations past what anyone thought was possible. If this was a question of biology or how living systems worked he'd be well on his way to finding the answer but physics had always been beyond him. It was just not where his talents led.

He felt Dagi shift restlessly and he held her tighter, sure enough she settled against him and feel further into her sleep cycle. She even drooled a little on his chest before settling down again. He smiled again at the adorableness. But it did speak of a particular muscle memory, Bulk was now sure of it. Sirens where insanely social creatures to have this response, the other girls must have trained themselves out of it. Dagi he bet for some reason couldn't. She was too used to cuddling with someone while she slept so with the social isolation her anxiety must have been extreme. What kind of hero did this to a preteen girl? One who evidently came from a world where such girls were sexually active, ‘what hell did you come from?’ he thought stroking her hair. Holding her close, he knew, it was time to nut up or shut up, if anyone else was going to try and harm his Dagi or either of her family members than they would have a very angry Bulk to deal with.

All of the things that you have said and done
Tells me what your story could be
Can't really blame you for what you've done
Just seems you were scared to me
I don't care what you where
About where your from
What you did
I'll always love you
You had no choice
To do what you did
I won't judge your past
I'll always be with you

His conclusion -at some juncture in the history of Equestria, the species known as the Sirens must have begun feeding on negative energy. This adaptation then encouraged them to make sure there was a constant supply motivating them to cause such feelings and therefore putting them at odds with the powers that be. So predictably, those in power solved the problem of the Sirens with Genocide. The survivors decided to fight but, in an effort to be merciful, the last three where pushed into another dimension where they would live out the rest of their lives unable to harm anyone.

I'LL keep you safe so that everyone knows
I'll go to all your shows
Just look into my eyes
What you were and what you've been running from it's not here,
They cannot touch you
I will always protect you my Dagi

Adagio shifted in her sleep, raising her head, she groggily looked at him, then mumbled, "I love you too, you sing nice, trying to sleep, you go to sleep too." Upon this declaration she plopped her head down on his chest and added yet more drool, then burped, farted and settled back to sleep. He smiled, kissed the top of her head and finally fell contentedly asleep himself.

Apple Whiskey: Spike - Self Esteem (Edited)

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Spike left the Boutique with the worst case of friend-zoned blueball syndrome in all history. He kicked a rock and watched it skip along the ground. Why!? He was literally surrounded with mares. He knew for a fact that several of the younger mares in town found him attractive... but no- he had to crush on and pursue the one mare he couldn't even get a handy from! GAH!!!!!

Worse, his time off not working as Twilight’s assistant he solely dedicated to helping Rarity with any projects she wanted. He would forego sleep, rest, food, fun, anything, and everything he might otherwise have wanted to do just so he could be close to her. He had even helped her get laid on more than one occasion!!!!! The sexually frustrated hormonal little teenage dragon walked onward reflecting on his 'relationship' with the alabaster mare.

(Imitating Rarity). Blah blah, blah Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah

I cut her off for the tenth time today

Even practiced just walk away

When she asked for help

I lost my nerve

I broke my back

Helping her work

I know I'm getting used

Buts its okay though cause

It's just me that's hurt

I know there's no hope for me

That's okay cause of

My level Self-esteem.

Ponies parted as he stalked forward,none of his usual friends daring come close. He noticed a flare of red hair in the background- Applebloom, a victim of should've when he had the chance; instead he had been too busy wasting his time chasing and lusting after a mare he was never going to have. He couldn’t blame AB for giving him space, thunderhead walking as he was. Still, would have been nice to have her comfort or concern-he could have used a win, any female attention would have been welcome what with his track record being strictly losses.

I have plans to make things right

I wait to long

I don't want to fight

This situation has me so low

If this keeps up I just really might blow

Even masturbation wasn't much of a relief seeing as if Twilight caught him or sometimes even suspected he got grounded. Not exactly fair considering her exploits- but he was young and dragon passions could be dangerous without proper precautions and self control- neither of which she wanted to discuss, teach, or make accommodation for him.

Nope, he was continually surrounded by the most beautiful, perfect, strongest, women on the planet and he had to stay the assistant- the little brother, the tag-a-long, gofer/ errand boy not allowed to have impulses- more a tool than a being- catering to wants more then having his own. Hell, he had saved the crystal empire twice- no three times! Helped make peace with the Changelings, prevented Garble from becoming Dragon Lord, gave the scepter to Ember, who let's face it was going to be an amazing leader, and stood alongside all of the main 6 even when they were at their lowest and yet wasn’t even allowed crank one off to a lingerie catalog without risk of grounding. Save the world- sure, unite past enemies multiple times- go for it! Almost get killed on the regular- damn straight, take a private moment to ease the growing pain and fire that is eating me day and night- Hell No! That’s gross, unnatural, wrong, bad dragon- you’re grounded- enjoy your torture.

Every time he tried for a relationship, one of them would ruin it by interfering. Tarturus! The only thing worse than working for Rarity and helping Rarity in her romantic pursuits is Rarity taking interest in his love life- in all the ways he’d rather she didn’t. He should really know not to take relationship advice from a mare that keeps discarding men- once they’ve served their use in bed. Once she’d gotten her fill of them it wasn’t uncommon for her to turn to him for comfort, usually drunk, stinking of sex, she’d curl up close to cuddle, rub against him, and have him hold her. Gah!!!!!!

She keeps saying

I'm what she wants in a guy

Gotta wonder then

Why I'm still only her friend

Then she's saying

All that I want to believe

I have to wonder how much more

She can need

Well I guess I should man

The buck up

But I really wish she could see

Me that way

The more you suffer

The more you can

Show you care

Right!? HAH

Worse, his dragon senses told him when a mare was digging on him and the only time Rarity’s smell indicated that towards him was when another mare showed interest. Just, enough to give him hope, to ensure he kept on paying attention and hopping after her- then he was right back to “Just a Friend Spike”, now with Kung-fu grip for those really hard tasks, cause Celestia knows he has absolutely no stallion-hood.

Again he scented Bloom on the air-intoxicating... Celestia damn! There was a reason he had to avoid her when she was fertile. He really didn't want to hurt her, physically or emotionally. She was his best friend; he knew how she felt about him. Part of him wanted to take advantage- a part that slowly was getting stronger. Every day he went without relief, everyday he had to deal with the non-stop frustration that voice got louder, he took a breath. It would be fine. He would just go sit on the Apple's back porch the wind and calmness always soothed his mind.

Who she'll date, just for a bit

She bucks them more then she'll

Ever admit

Late some nights she'll creep up my door

She got dumped again and needs

Someone warm

I know I should say go

But that's kinda hard

When she's crying so hard

I feel so Dumb

I am such a dweeb

No, I'm just a Dragon

With no Self-esteem

There was his sanctuary, he could smell the sweet scent of Apples, the swaying of the trees, the pollen on the wind. He could feel the anger and the tension leaving him. Just a few more steps.

She keeps saying

She wants a dude

Just like me

But then she tells me

How I'm only her friend

She keeps saying all that I should get what I need

Then she keeps them

Only my friends

Well I guess I should get some for myself

I don't think I can just walk away

She'll make me suffer

If I ever really dared,

Right!? Yeah!?

He walked up to the back porch, a little bit of quiet to ease his beating heart and to put the voice back where it belonged, where he could ignore it. He only needed a moment of peace, to not be surrounded by mares for a bit.

It was the perfect time of day, the back porch would be empty, AJ and Mac would be out working the farm, Granny would be in her sewing room, Applebloom would be out and about.... Wait, that scent! He watched as Applebloom finished her Heartsong and he knew he should go, but the voice spoke, "Applebloom, we need to talk."

Sweetie Bot - Button Mash: Not Gonna Die (intro) (Edited)

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"I love you Button Mash, Don't let this put out your fire."

Button Mash, watched as Sweetie Belle began to rot away, the artificial Alicorna he had been failing on, eating her skin, her eyes, her muscles, her bones, before turning on her nervous system. He watched as her nerves were converted into purely Alicorna, watched as the same thing happened to her Alicorna system. Watched something he created turn the most wonderful mare ever into crystalline shards. He slumped to his knees, his grief stricken Heartsong torn from his lips.

Sweetie please, speak to me

Please don't leave me to this misery

Oh Death, you won't have her

Please not Sweetie, hear my final plea

Death

Please

Death

Please

Dead

Button cried, his tears fell, but then he looked. The Alicorna, it was stable. Somehow Sweetie had stabilized it herself. His breathing came faster, his tears started anew, what was he going to do?

Then a coldness settled over him. His tears stopped. The world wanted to take his Sweetie from him? Unacceptable. It would not happen. He would not allow it. He was Button Mash, the smartest of his generation, educated by Twilight Sparkle, protege of Time Turner. The son of Love Tap; former head of Celestia's elite, his father was #13, the nameless criminal Earth pony that had sent the Canterlot nobles screaming in fear by removing their connection to any magic for a time. He was not going to let his beloved die in this way, he would see the world burned first.


Why have we stopped here?

Because he is important.


This confounds me

Fighting on so silently

Her thoughts shallow

Bringing up Such Complexity

On the rise

She can fight

I can feel her Heartbeat


C'mon, boy you can do this, you are in the seat of your power, you're the god here. What hold death has that you cannot break it on your whim here?

You care to much for this one, could he be your....

You say those next words out loud or to anyone else, I don't care about what plans we have made I will personally find a way to wipe reality clean of your kind. And I will never forget.

.............


He looked around his lab, then he knew. This was his place, it was her's as well, time to ‘nut up or shut up’. Using his holographic mana interface he called up the mystic works he was going to need, then grabbing a VR helmet he had been tweaking he fitted it to Sweetie's Alicorna infused brain. Button used the interface to project the circle that he was writing directly over Sweetie's form.

A mechanical arm arose, upon it a syringe, ready to withdraw his blood. Button quickly double checked everything, he hadn't had time to put any safety measures into this circle. When his life's blood hit it, Sweetie would hopefully tap into the twin forces of her mental Self Identity and her Self Determination and she would remake herself, using that which was around her. His blood would give her a bit of his energy to start the process and link her sympathetically to his whole lab, then she should be able to continue on her own. If not she would tear his soul from his body as she remade herself. Either way she lived, death lost, and he won.


Are you crying? Why do you weep for him?

I'm just so proud of him. At last he is growing into an Adult. To risk so much for his love, To risk such for victory. He is no longer the cry baby others said he was. We can go now. He has proven himself, and I pity whomever would seek to take those he cares for from him.


This is how she feels, not gonna be stolen

This is how I feel when I've given up Crying

She'll arise I may die

He raised his front hoof, the syringe inserted itself and took the exact amount of fluid, then injected it directly into his circle. He felt the pull on his essence immediately as the process began.

she will hear my hearts beat

I can see these shadows gathering to fight

WON'T GIVE HER UP!!!!!

The process continued to drain him, bringing him closer and closer to death. Inventions and materials throughout the lab were being drawn into the vortex that had encompassed Sweetie. He watched, as his eyesight dimmed, as she remade the entirety of who and what she was biomechanically instead of merely biologically.

To him she was more beautiful than he could have ever imagined. Button had not saved her life instead he had enabled her to remake herself. He could die now completely content Sweetie would live, that was enough. As Button breathed his last, a golden light poured out of his body, healing all of the damage to his essence, the remainder poured into Sweetie, speeding the process to an end.

Button fell to the floor, completely exhausted. He smiled hearing his beloved gasp, he saw her arch her back as she returned to awareness. Then he realized, she was not aware of what had happened, she thought herself dead. He tried to rise, to rush to her. Sweetie’s skin hadn't finished imprinting. As she arose she glanced at her reflection in the nearest glass surface, watching in horror as her skin grew over her biomechanical form. She panicked and before he could reach her she had turned and ran out into the end of Celestia's day.

"Sweetie, come back!" He cried, desperate to explain, to tell her that she had saved herself. That all he did was give her the means. She was the one that was stronger than Death, stronger then the rules of magic and reality. She had defied them all! He loved her more then ever and could do nothing as her new form allowed her to speed off faster than anyone could catch her. Tired, Button sank to the ground, his exhaustion, finally catching up to him

Apple Tart - Babs Seed: Heartbeat Song (Edited)

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Babs Seed stepped off the train into the Ponyville station, feelings and memories of a certain orange, purple maned ostrich driving her to distraction. She shook her head, she hadn't even contacted her cousin Applebloom- she had just hopped a train and two hours later got off here.

She was finally moving forward with what she wanted; she had joined a juvenile league roller derby team, and was also beginning a career as an amateur mixed martial artist. Still, that ostrich drove her to fixation. She needed to see her. She needed to resolve what this was. She needed to know if the ostrich felt the same way.

This is my Hoofbeat Song

How do I say it

Been her’s all along

How do I say it

Up Up, Up, Up, All Night Long

Stayed Up All Night Long

She was losing sleep, losing focus, all around her she saw the ostrich. Purple maned mares, especially ones with an orange coat had been catching her eye more and more. Her heart would begin to hurt when she realized that they were not her ostrich. Thoughts of her rival made her heart pound. A flush coming to her face, she dreamed of that moment when they laid on the grass after they fought. She wished that they had gone farther than just a snuggle. Again such thoughts brought a blush to her face as she walked off the train platform.

She headed towards town, if she knew the ostrich, she would be running, training for one of the local dance, parkour, or martial arts competitions. Just as Babs was pushing herself to what she wanted, she knew the ostrich was doing the same. Both had been living up to their promise to the other, to be the rival the other needed.

You, what the Buck have you done?

You're different from where I come from

And I'M so used to being numb

Now these feelings coming on so strong

Anticipating all the fun

Like a sprinter, about to run

I can hear it pounding

Hoofbeats loud inside me

Haven't heard it before this time

It was then she saw the ostrich, moving through the town. Babs saw her gracefully use an earth pony technique to scale Sugarcube Corner. In an instant Babs found herself running along the ground, mirroring the ostrich's path, clearing anything in her way, taking a tact out of the ostrich's own book she channeled her Earth Pony Magic to push off, not just the ground, but all other surfaces, giving the impression she was gliding.

Babs smirked, the ostrich was not the only one that could learn to do things a different way. Babs had studied the way Pegasi used their magic and adapted it for herself, just as the ostrich had studied Earth Pony magic.

This is my Hoofbeat Song

You're gonna hear it

Been yours all along

And I just couldn't say it

Up, Up, Up, Up going strong

Up, Up, Going strong

This is my Hoofbeat Song

And I'm gonna say it

Turned me on

Not gonna fake it

Up Up Up Up going strong

Up Up going strong

I wasn't gonna give my heart out

But I wish I had known what I know now

I would've never left this town

My hoofs touching your hips

And your kiss on my lips

I've wanted that for so long

She followed closely and she realized that Scootaloo wasn't an ostrich any longer. She had found her way to fly, she had found her way to surpass even her mentor Rainbow Dash. She had ascended to the heights of angels. Babs heart grew warm, but no longer was it a distraction, now it was a source of strength. She was in love with Scootaloo. It was time to Pony Up or Shut Up. It was time to admit this not just to Scootaloo but herself. She kept pace with her Valkyrie, matching her speed and skill on the ground as her beloved claimed the sky. This was what she had desired, this is where she belonged.

This is our Hoofbeat Song

We're gonna play it

Been this way we just couldn't say it

Up Up Up Up going strong

Up Up going strong

This is our Hoofbeat Song

We already play it

Turned this up

We know not to fake it

Up Up Up Up going strong

Up Up going strong

On that day I wished I'd reached for you

I don't believe I ever lived without you

Scoots, you create a life so brand new

Let's not waste more Time

Babs watched as her one, the one that was the her other half, landed her form, perfect as always. She watched the muscles on Scoots body-so lean and strong. Babs knew now what to call what she was feeling. She knew its name now. She was in love. She was in love with the most beautiful mare she had ever seen.

Why had she wasted time? Why had she agonized for a second on saying her feelings out loud? She had been a coward, now it was time to rectify that.

We have or Hoofbeat Song

We alone can hear it

Turned us on

We're gonna make it

Up Up Up Up going strong

Up Up going strong

This is our Hoofbeat Song

We alone sing it

Been all along

Only gotta sing it

Up Up Up Up going strong

Up Up going strong

Babs took a breath, she needed to steady herself. In her moment of quiet she heard Scoots Heartsong, it was completely about her. Babs Smile widened. The mare she loved felt the same way. Yippee!

Scootaloo had yet to turn around, had yet to acknowledge her presence. Babs knew she hadn't been noticed, otherwise Scootaloo would have greeted her warmly. Babs smile turned into something a little more flirtatious. She quietly crept up behind the object of her affection and then said very calmly.

"Hey, that a blush I see are you just happy to see me?"

Rough Diamonds: Feather Weight - Uptown Girl

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Feather sat in the locker room, his head under a towel. His mind went back to the incident that had just occurred. The young colt had just successfully defeated all opponents that had come before him. He had known that there was one more, one more that he was looking forward to seeing in the ring. Both as a friend and as an opponent. He had paused to get a drink and wink at Diamond, he loved to tease her. He new that he had no chance, still it was fun to make her blush.

Uptown Mare
She's Been Living amidst her Privileged World
I know she'll never want me as her guy
I don't have to ask her why
I'll never try for that Uptown Mare
She moves among the high bred crew
As long as I can be helpful as I can
I'll stay next to her, her Downtown Man
That's all I am

Feather never heard a bell, he just saw Diamond's eyes widen and her shout "Feather look out!"

He'd spun to the left, this was an opponent he knew well, after all. The referee had moved to intervene but Feather had glared him off. Rumble was the one that had decided to do this, Featherweight, at the time, had no problem indulging. As kids, Rumble had always been more than a little bit of a bully. As he and Feather had grown older they had bonded. Especially as Feather got into boxing, finding that like journalism, he had a gift for it. Both he and Rumble ended up in the same weight class, so they spared often. He remembered feeling betrayed that Rumble was doing this, Feather had thought they were past this. Feather had blocked Rumble's sloppy left jab returning it with a devastating right cross of his own. Rumble hadn't even tried to block or dodge. He had taken Feather's the blow square across the face. Feather had gasped, this was wrong, Rumble had always fought better than this, put on a better showing. What was going on?

She always knows what she wants, by design
It's my dream that she might be mine
She'll see I'm not just some Thug
That I'm In Love with that Uptown Mare

The Feather had spotted the signs, Rumble stank of alcohol. Feather had needed to end it quick, a quick jab to the solar plexus to knock the wind out of his friend and a Haymaker clinched the round with a KO. As Rumble was taken from the ring Feather had signaled his brother. Bulk had come over, his eyes questioning, Feather had waved his hand for silence and then asked.

"Bulk can you get Rumble to the Locker Room, he really doesn't need anyone to see him right now. Something's wrong, bring the Headache kit. We're gonna need it"

Sighing, Bulk sadly had watched as a young man he saw as another little brother had been carried to the locker room. He'd nodded his head. Rumble at least deserved a chance to explain. He'd get it. They'd all deal with the fall out afterwards.

You know I've seen her use those High Class Boys
She gets tired of them and seems so bored
She turns down all those presents High Class Mares are supposed to enjoy.
I wish I had a chance.

Feather thought back to the conversation he'd had with Rumble. After the 'Headache' meds had cleared the the red coated pegasus' head, Feather had waited. It had not been a long wait.

"Oh God Feather, please tell me I didn't do what I think I did."

"If you mean Rumble, don't tell you that you tried to hit me from behind, before the bell rang, and then fought like absolute Bantha Poodo, then sure I won't tell you. I'd like to know why, though."

"Honestly, when I got dumped by Scoots it messed me up awful. I know it wasn't my fault and I just had the bad luck to be the last guy before she figured she prefered mares, but still. Well, I bummed around and ended up having a one night stand with Silver. Thought it was something serious too. But I acted like it wasn't because what's a Mare like that gonna see in a guy like me. I'm nothing. Well turns out it was something to her too and now she won't come near me. She's seeing some Rich Teen Stallion, I wasted my chance with the most beautiful and intelligent mare I ever seen because I was stupid. Today was the anniversary of that hook up. So I did another stupid thing and got drunk, which by the way I'm never doing again. Not going to becoming a Drunk like my old man, especially since apparently I have his liquid temper."

"But why'd you come at me like that? I'm not after Silver, I barely even like her. We tolerate each other's existence because Diamond needs the both of us for her plans to work. If not for Diamond I doubt I even could stand to be around her."

Rumble had looked at Feather, completely dumbfounded. Glancing at Bulk, Feather's older brother had scoffed and said.

"Yeah, Rumble I had that reaction too."

Feather had stared at his brother, "Reaction to what?"

Rumble's eyes had narrowed, his jaws had set. Reaching over he had boxed Feather across the top of his head

"Damn Feather, and I thought I was an Idiot. You realize that Diamond has wanted you for years? Don't make the same mistake I did. Go get the girl and hold onto her. You two where making such eyes at each other that in my drunken haze I jealously struck out, much to my regret. Now I wish I was sober and back in the ring to beat the stupid out of you. Go get her dude, don't let a good Mare get away because you were to idiotic to even try, I at least got one perfect night with mine."

Rumble had left after that, Feather wasn't sure but he might have seen Silver glance his way before returning to her data and spreadsheets.

Uptown Mare
I'll never be able to get her what she deserves
But maybe If I've got a chance
I can show her what kind of Guy I am
And then she'll see
That when She's walking
I want her as Mine
And that when she talks
She's always on my mind
She's gonna see I'm not just a Thug
Just Because I'm in love
With that Uptown Mare

Feather shook himself from his memories. By now everyone had probably left. But it was time to Nut up or Shut up as his Uncle Tallahassee often said. He knew Diamond would be waiting, he knew that she would have certain words to say to him. Well, he had certain words to say to her too.

She hates that High Bred World
As long as she wants me as her Guy
I will be her Downton Guy
That's What I've always been
Uptown Mare
She's My Uptown Mare
I am so in Love with that
Uptown Mare
My Uptown Mare

Throwing on his clothes, his hair still damp from his shower, he strode out into the gym and sure enough there she was. Turning to him, she immediately opened her mouth to scold him for his recklessness. He never gave her the chance. He crossed to her and pulled her tight, shutting her up with the most passionate kiss he could give her. He and Diamond had used to many words, to many excuses as it was. She melted into him, kissing him back the young couple stayed that way as Luna's night stretched on, just two kids in love.

Two separate pairs of eyes watched, each unaware of the other, one set belonging to Silver and one set belonging to Rumble, sighing for chances lost, they left the young Special Someponies to their night. Each wishing for what their two best friends had.

Star Crossed - Time Turner: I'm With You

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Turner searched through his workshop, he was searching for something. Something lost among the rows of clocks and gears, forgotten amongst the devices that cluttered his home.

I'm frantic in my mind
I'm all alone in the dark
Why can't I Find what I already found
My heads spins around
I hear something but there's no sound


Why Can't I get through? DOCTOR!!!!!


He feels it, just at the edge of his perception. Gripping his head as pain lances through his mind, Turner staggers into his work table, scattering the gizmos and trinkets.

"But that isn't my name is it?" He asks the empty shop.

What is this deep inside me?
Why do I feel so far from my Home?
Inside something is beginning to rise
Trying to Break free of my mind
There was someone by my side
She was taken from me
I need to know who she is
She is my home
She is my Home

Another pulse of pain arcs through his mind, he grabs a sylndrical object in his thrashing. Pushing a button on its side a vibration issues forth. Instantly the pain ceases. He is close to finding it, to finding the answer to it all.

In the back of his shop, at the bottom of a pile of junk, a pocket watch begins to shine.


Why, Lina, it's so good to finally meet you!

Who are You? Why can't I get to my Doctor?


Another voice talking th e first, the pain begins to rise, but a blast of sound from his..... screwdriver?..... banishes it back to the recesses of his mind. A pane of glass in his head is beginning g to break and the stallion known as time turner needs to know what is behind it. He heres the laughter of children and the voice of an angel. The cmplicated historu of old friends, whose difference were never irreconcilable, no matter what either of them thought.

"I am....." He begins, but stops, his mind is clouded, but something calls.

The hands of the pocket watch at the back of the shop begin to move.

I'm looking for that place
I need to see her face
Is this all I've ever known
Cause Nothing's ever right
And it all seems so wrong
I need to find my home
Isn't it time to come find me
I need her to take me home
None of this is right
Seeking deep inside my mind
She needs to come take my hand
Lead me back to the love we knew
I Don't know who she is
But I want to be with her
To Be with her


Just call me Missy, dear Lina and I am the oldest friend of your husband

Oldest Friend? Care to explain where you've been? OUR CHILDREN WERE TAKEN FROM US!!!!!

Not to belittle your need for the answer to that perfectly rational question Lina but, how did you get to that knife at my throat so quick? And where were you keeping it?

I'm a Pegasus, we were bred for war, and as a mailmare I have to be quick. As for where I kept it?
A mare has to have some secrets.

I sit wrong that I'm incredibly turned on right now?


The ticking of the world around him seeks to overwhelm him as the glass wall in the back of his head continues to fracture. A terrible pressure that not even his sonic screwdriver can eleviate. He knows that if he can just say his name, that which he should never forgotten, this will all cease.

I am the .......

The pocket watch begins to chime.

Oh, why do I feel so confused
This thing inside my mind
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
This power inside
Seeks to break its way free
Why won't she come hold my hand
Tell me who I am
I need to know who she is
She will lead me home
lead me home
Lead Me home
Guide me by the Hand
Take me Far from here
I call to how you are
You are both my Home
Both My Home
I'm Going Home
Going Home

Turner faces the wall of glass in his head, he stares into it. He is done being afraid, done seeking something he can't find.

"What is it Button, always says? Time to Nut Up Or Shut Up?" he chuckles "A but more vulgar than I like, but the young stallion hit the head on the nail on that one. Time to face this."

The Pocket Watch goes silent.


Please, Ms Lina. She is here to help

Don't you get smart with me! You haven't been around to visit either! Honestly I treat you and the Lonely Pegasi like family, give you muffins, and the both of you let my kids be taken!

Liba, dear. He went and got me. I was several realities away. I never got to be an Auntie, and your the only female, he's ever been with that I even remotely think is worthy of him. Besides, I,,,,,,, Huh?

EXTERMINA....

Wow, I didn't know that you actually could get a Dalek to eat it's own armor. She really seems to have the lot of them on the run. I had no idea that cybermen and daleks could run or scream like that.
By the way, forget me always, what do they keep calling her.

The Beautiful End


He watched as the fractures spiderwebbed across the glass, observed the golden light leaking through. He finally knew his name. Knew who he was seeking, he could hear her, shouting for him. Lina, sounded both impatient and angry, the stallion smiled, she had every right to be. It wasn't very gentlemanly to keep a lady waiting. Well, he had best get to her before she wiped them all out. When she got like that it was the only time the Doctor ever felt sorry for the daleks.

"Huh, That's my name. Don't worry, I'm the Doctor. Has A nice ring, doesn;t it?"

The Glass wall shattered, as all of his memories returned to him, striding forward in anger the Doctor went forth to reclaim his family, and Celestia help all those that stood in his way, for surely no one else would.

Just a quick update

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I am not sure if anyone still has this in their library. But if you do, I wish to thank you for your support.

As of today, I am no longer updating on Fimfiction.

To be clear, this is entirely to simplify my life. All of my stories will be copied over to AO3 under Jaycren. They will also be given some basic edits and editions to spruce them up. I have grown as a writer after all.

I am not deleting my account and can still be reached here. I will still be reading and commenting on it all.
I may focus more on blogging on this site. It is better than AO3 in that aspect.

Best Wishes
Jaycren

All Hail The House Of Ren!!!!!