Letting It Out
A few days went by and finally Twilight was released from the hospital. All of her friends had offered in one way or another to help her. She'd declined all the offers though. She wanted to be alone for a little while. She even sent Spike to stay with Fluttershy (who was more than glad to welcome the baby dragon into her home.) The walk home was miserable. She'd kept her horn bandaged up to prevent people from seeing the crack in it. It made her feel embarrassed, even though it wasn't her fault.
When she returned home she thought she would be relieved. Maybe even a little happy at returning to all her books. Instead she felt nothing. Looking around her home she realized she just didn't care about anything. She didn't feel like doing anything. She didn't feel like studying, reading or writing; and performing magic was out of the question. She was told she may still be able to perform simple spells for a time but it wasn't worth the risk of that head-splitting pain she'd experienced last time.
For the next three days Twilight never left the library. In fact she spent most of her time in her bed. Sometimes she would pace around the house, thinking about her situation. She tried to not do that too often or she would just end up angering or upsetting herself. She didn't eat and drank only the occasional glass of water. Each of her friends had come knocking on her door over the last three days but she'd ignored them every time. She wasn't quite ready to see anyone. Deep down Twilight knew this was unhealthy and the opposite of what she should be doing but the unicorn couldn't help it. Every time she saw her broken horn she felt fragile and as though she'd lost so much more. In reality she had. She identified herself with her magic, had spent a lifetime studying it. Then in the blink of an eye it was gone. It was the most awful feeling in the world and Twilight wished it would just disappear.
On the afternoon of the third day though there came a gentle knocking on the door. There was only one pony she knew who knocked liked that. Even though the kindest of all ponies, literally, was knocking at her door Twilight couldn't be bothered to answer it. Much to her surprise though the knocking didn't subside. It would come back every few minutes, much to Twilight's annoyance. I guess I can't hide out in here forever. she thought to herself as she decided to answer the door. When Twilight did answer the door, Fluttershy (Twilight was right in her assumption of who was at the door.) was shocked at what she saw.
The purple unicorn had large bags under her eyes, this told Fluttershy that her friend hadn't been sleeping very well. Twilight's mane was unkempt. Her usual brilliant lavender coat had lost it's shine and much to Fluttershy's dismay Twilight's eyes seemed to hide only pain behind them. It broke the pegasus' heart to see her friend like this.
"Um, hi Twilight...I hope I'm not bothering you...I just haven't seen you in a few days and thought maybe we could, um, catch up. If you don't mind that is...Could I maybe, um, come in, please?" Fluttersy was careful with her words, unsure of Twilight's mental state.
"Oh. Sure, Fluttershy. Come on in."
Twilight waved the Pegasus inside. They both took a seat at the dining room table. The unicorn rested her chin on her forelegs looking up at her guest. She showed no intention of starting small talk so Fluttershy tried instead. Much to her dismay every attempt at beginning a conversation was either shrugged off or she was given one worded response's. The yellow mare desperately thought of something to say when the silence was broken by the gargling of Twilight's stomach.
"Oh my, Twilight. When was the last time you ate?" Fluttershy asked, a little relieved this had given her an excuse to say something.
"I think the last time I ate something was at the hospital." She replied in a monotone.
Fluttershy grew more concerned. Had her friend really not realized how long ago that was? "That was three days ago Twilight!"
"Has it really been that long already?" She seemed unconcerned with that news.
"We need to get some food in you!"
True to her name, Fluttershy fluttered about Twilight's kitchen. She was preparing a simple yet nutritious salad for her friend. She hummed a soft lullaby and Twilight couldn't help but notice the care her guest put into her cooking. She took her time to dice all the vegetables so they looked nice. She even arranged the salad so it was visually appealing in the bowl! Fluttershy placed the dish before her hungry friend. She blinked, giving Twilight an expectant look. Not wanting to disappoint Twilight gingerly began eating the salad. Much to her surprise she actually felt much better when she'd finished. She looked up at her friend as she licked her lips. She recalled what Fluttershy had said after saving Twilight and her friends from the Manticore. Sometimes we all just need to be shown a little kindness... Twilight thought to herself. It was true, Fluttershy's little kindness had went a long way.
"Thank you, Fluttershy." Twilight's voice had real emotion now. Her eyes softened as she looked at her friend and gave her a smile. The first smile she'd managed to form since receiving her tragic news.
"Oh, um, it was nothing Twilight. Just a salad..." Fluttersy's cheeks reddened a little, embarrassed at such a reaction over a salad.
"But it meant a lot to me. Thank you."
A few moments of silence passed and Fluttershy couldn't help but glance up at Twilight's horn. Twilight, of course, noticed and suddenly wished she'd kept it bandaged up. She knew Fluttershy wouldn't mock her, the pegasus better than anyone knew the pain words could inflict. Twilight, however, wasn't expecting her friend to ask what she did.
"Does it hurt, Twilight?" Fluttershy wasn't asking for the sake of asking, she wasn't trying to make small talk. She was genuinely concerned for Twilight.
Twilight didn't even have to ask what her friend meant. "Uh, no. It really hurt at first though. I'm just glad the pain is gone, but doing magic is out of the question. I don't want to risk even a little of that pain returning. I don't think I could handle it..." Her words trailed off as in her mind she relived the events of three days ago.
"I'm very sorry Twilight. That must be difficult." Fluttershy knew she wouldn't be able to understand what Twilight was going through, but she could definitely try and be supportive. She still hadn't stopped to think that in just a few short months from now she may never have the chance to support Twilight again.
"My magic is all I had." Twilght's voice cracked.
"Huh?" The pegasus' wasn't trying to be rude. With Twilight's current state she just hadn't expected the unicorn to start opening up like that.
"Ever since I was a filly my magic is all I ever had." Twilight continued. Her eyes grew moist as she spoke. "I've spent my entire life studying magic. Perfecting what I knew. I've always been eager to learn more. Heck my Element of Harmony is magic. And then in the blink of an eye it's gone. How unfair is that...?" Twilight's voice took a dark tone at the end.
"I know, Tw-" Fluttershy didn't have a chance to finish.
The unicorn looked up towards her guest. "This is happening to me because I tried to learn more." The sadness seemed to melt into bitterness. Twilight thought back to everything she'd done for Equestria. "I saved Princess Luna with the Elements of Harmony! I stopped Discord from sending Equestria into chaos! I stopped Queen Chrysalis from destroying Canterlot and I stopped Sombra from enslaving the Crystal Empire again!" Twilight was shouting now. "And for everything I've done I get to die!? It's not fair!
Twilight looked up to see Fluttershy's heart broken expression. Now it was her anger that melted away and she broke down. She'd been holding it in for three days and she couldn't take it any more. The lavender mare just let the tears fall freely. They stained the fur on her cheeks as the slid down only to shatter on the ground with the impact. She'd always tried to be a good pony. She'd never hurt anypony and now she had to die and she didn't understand what she'd done to deserve this.
Fluttershy reacted instantly. She made her way to Twilight. She wrapped her forelegs around the sobbing mare and held her head close against her chest. She hummed softly and kept whispering to Twilight that everything would be okay. Twilight knew this was a lie, but she was grateful for it. Hearing it come from Fluttershy she almost believed it. Twilight was unsure how long she spent sobbing into Fluttershy. She only stopped when she'd felt cried out and her eyes refused to produce any more tears.She'd been there to leave a large wet spot on the pegasus' fur.
Twilight looked up to her friend and between sobs managed to speak. "Th-there's so many things I've never been able to do or experience. There's so many books I still want to read. Still so-so many things I wanted to learn. I-I'm going to die having never been kissed, or gone on a first date. I've never even been able to confess to the pony that I have a crush on! I-I-I wasted my en-entire life r-reading and now I finally have fr-friends and I'm not ready to leave them. I'm not ready to leave you Fluttershy, or the others. I'm not!"
Fluttershy used her hoof to stroke Twilight's cheek softly. Every since they'd become friends Twilight had always believed in her. Twilight had always been there for her and it was Fluttershy's turn to be strong for Twilight. No matter what. Out of all of her friends Twilight is the one who'd always been by her side and never doubted her. Even when the others thought maybe Fluttershy would get in the way Twilight was first to stay otherwise. She leaned her forehead against the purple unicorns head, being careful not to accidentally hit her horn. She whispered soothingly to Twilight. Truth be told Fluttershy wasn't ready for Twilight to leave either.
"I'm here for you Twilight, and I will be so long as you need me. Right up until the...End." Fluttershy choked over the last word. She was holding her own tears back. She couldn't stand to cry right now, not in front of Twilight the way she was now. "And you still have time to do those things Twilight. I'll help you. Just tell me the stallion you have a crush on. We can go see him together. I'm, um, not very good at that stuff but I'll do my best. I haven't done any of those things either."
If you only knew, Fluttershy... was all Twilight could think to herself. The irony of those words almost made her want to laugh. Almost. She wiped her eyes and glanced up at Fluttershy. She was thinking of how to respond. She felt like such a baby, and so selfish. She didn't have to make Fluttershy feel bad over this, did she? Just because she was suffering it didn't mean she had to bring her friends down as well. Twilight just wasn't sure she could put on a brave face for the next few months.
She didn't have much time left. She thought back on all the opportunities she'd had to tell Fluttershy she loved her. Over the time they'd been friends she'd come to admire the pegasus' kindness. She found her shyness adorable and endearing. She'd never seen Fluttershy as weak like some other ponies, but instead saw the strength inside of her. Twilight had always told herself she would muster the courage to do it next time. Now there wasn't any time left though. There may not be a next time and she couldn't afford to wait any longer. She took a deep breath and raised her head up. She pressed her lips against Fluttershy's in a soft yet powerful kiss.
Twilight did panic a little at first but when Fluttershy returned the kiss she knew everything would be okay. She raised her forelegs around the pegasus' neck and brought her in for a deeper kiss. It was the first time she was happy to be feeling anything in the last three days. It made her heart speed up and made her stomach feel as though it were full of butterflies. During that moment she actually believed she might be happy again, even if only for a little while, before the end. Eventually, however, it came time to pull away. Twilight was panting softly. She'd been so reluctant to pull her lips away. Not only because of how good it had felt but also because she was not sure she was quite ready to deal with the possible repercussions. Fluttershy was looking down at her, still holding the unicorn against her chest. Her cheeks were red and she was clearly embarrassed. The yellow mare was using parts of her pink locks to hide her face.
"You're the one...I have a..." Twilight didn't even bother to finish that sentence. She wasn't even sure why she'd said it. From her actions it was obvious. "I'm sorry Fluttershy, what's happening shouldn't give me an excuse to just -"
"No, Twilight it's, um, okay...I know it's selfish but when I heard the news I was worried I might never get a chance to tell you...It's just, um, I, um..." Fluttershy stopped talking. She had to calm down or else she would just put "um" after every word. She took a calming breath before going on. "I've always been so impressed with you. You've always been so confident and strong and talented. You were everything that I wish I could be. You were so beautiful too, and always so kind. I couldn't help but start to fall for you...I hope you, um, don't mind..."
Twilight's eyes became moist again and she wasn't even sure why. The purple mare wasn't sure what this meant for her and Fluttershy. She wasn't sure if Fluttershy would want to truly be with her due to the circumstances. All she knew is that at some point her crush had evolved and she was now in love with the beautiful pegasus who had come here just to comfort her. She wasn't quite ready to say it aloud yet. All she could do was hope for the best. She'd finally managed to get thoughts of her broken horn out of her head.
She may not be able to mend her horn, but she could definitely bring hers and Fluttershy's lips together again.
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good chapter but uh isnt it manticore? o is it actually the right way to say it in past tense? manticorn?
Well I expected Twi to lash out with the ending of the last chapter. But this is adorable... Yay!
dat cover picture
I like this. It reminds me a little of my own TwiShy story, but it's got its obvious differences.
They seem to be in-character, as you pointed out in the Author's Note, so don't worry about that. The only problem I'd mention would have to be about commas, or lack thereof. Eg:
It should have a comma after 'name,' as when you read it in your head, you pause. To get on a more technical level, it's a dependent clause that requires a comma.
, so I'm looking forward to seeing how this goes! 
There wasn't much else in the way of errors, (except for the occasional wrong tense or something similar) so there isn't much to worry about on that.
I personally adore TwiShy and tragedy in the same story
*Thumbs up and favorite*
Damnit Twilight, did you eat Fluttershy's Cutie Mark?
2039609 You are much welcome sire
2040469 You appear to be made out of stone
Not bad at all sir! but maybe you should include something about Twilight's parents, and Shining coming to see her, unless you plan to do that later.
(Joke) Alt. Title: Darkness Fever (It's Imprisons Me)
Only the featured box can cure me!
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No you are right, I gotta go fix that hehe.
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Twilight will have time to lash out in the future, I was looking more for comfort at that specific moment.
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A friend of mine said the same thing. I always seem to do too many or too little. I'm going to go through it and try and fix it up a little. Thanks for the input, I always appreciate the help.
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God, I hope not.
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Of course! That's just planned for a little later though.
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I uh...I sure did...I better go fix that one, like, right away....
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Hehe, someone actually caught that!
Now, with all of that out of the way I just noticed this made it to the featured box, so I just wanted to take a second and thank everyone who took a moment to read this!
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>tragedy tag
Congrats on making the front page!
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Thank you, kind reader!
Ok I have 2 things to say... Ill put them far apart because they are very different...
and she was no in love with the
shouldn't it be now
also:
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and now for the part of me that just wont let it go (aka my philosophy on the story so far):
I agree with the point that Unicorn horns don't break, the magic in the unicorn stop the horn from breaking
so in order to cause a horn to break you would have to kill the unicorn or overload its magic. This can be seen
in the effect that happens when a unicorn is about to die from an external source, example: When a unicorn was
going to die from a poison that it had inhaled the unicorn in question had its magic overload and flood the toxin
from its body, this proceded to cause the horn to split and magic to become very difficult.
Credit for that example: http://www.fimfiction.net/story/1571/the-end-of-ponies (shortskirtsandexplosions)
Now to discuss dark magic (This is just my take on it):
Dark magic is a darker form of the common magic found in Equestria that has been altered in order to make it...
"more powerful", this magic was created during the first age in order to allow for fighting against the common
magic. Because of its traits the Dark Magic would corrupt and make the normal magic useless. Contrary to what
I put in the quotes Dark Magic actually isn't more powerful it is just better at being used against normal Magic.
This is proven in examples where a shield made of Magic when put up against a spell also cast using Magic,
if the Magic spell is not strong enough to destroy the shield it will still weaken it and do damage, so it is possible
to beat down the shield with weaker spells. Now lets assume the shield was cast with Dark Magic, if it was a lesser
Dark Magic shield it has the benefit that is the Magic cast against it can't overwhelm it, it will still stand at full strength.
It cannot simply be beaten down by magic, it has to be completely overwhelmed by a more powerful spell. A more
advanced Dark Magic spell will actually feed off of the Magic and make itself more powerful.
Example time: In the Crystal Empire, Twilight tries to grab the door with Magic to no avail, because telekinesis is a
lesser form of Magic it is not powerful enough to halt the Dark Magic door, and since Dark Magic has the property
of... shall we call it "Magic Retardancy", the spell cant even hold the door to slow it down.
Example: it is further demonstrated when Twilight tries to teleport out of a Dark Magic field, the field doesn't necessarily
have to be more powerful than her spells, it is just made out of their counter and is therefore able to stop them anyway.
And for what my mind has made up to describe the circumstances in this story:
Dark Magic in a unicorn as is described by this story causes negative affects, this is because of the fact that the Unicorn
will naturally produce Magic, when mixed together Dark Magic and Magic will cancel each other out and cause what I
am going to call Magical Corruption, this is a form of magical burnout that probably built up in Twilight's body and caused
her horn to crack by blocking the flow of magic to it. It would be like mixing rubber in with a wire if you assume Magic is
like electricity in this way.
That means he likes it ^ He doesn't do that if he doesn't.
Best. Flutterlight. Ever.
read both chapters whilest listening to DeVotchka how it ends. epic
mkay, putting this on my to read list, but when I saw the picture I couldn't help but think:
I HAVE SPECIAL EYES!!!!
I was gonna skip over this, but then I noticed it was TwiShy...
Congratulations on the feature! I'll read this now, and give you my thoughts on it.
Alright, definitely interested in this one, seems promising, though I'll be very sad when Twi...
Nevermind that for now, I'll just point out a few errors I noticed.
I know I noticed a few others, but they seem to have disappeared when I went back to look for them...
Oh well. Great story though!
A good concept, but I kept getting this vibe from it.
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This was a wonderful comment, and I'm glad you enjoyed what I wrote. I must say I agree with your philosophy and it surprisingly all made sense to me. Thanks for taking the time to write such a nice comment.
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Awwww, thank you!
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Epic, indeed!
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That video...Made me laugh my ass off!
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<3
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Thanks, I'm always glad to see I got a comment from you! I went and fixed those errors you mentioned by the way, I've been fixing them periodically all day. Phew, you shoulda see the one this morning...I put screaming without the S....That got a little awkward...Hehe, glad you didn't decide to skip this one over. But of course, Twishy is best.
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I know, but now that everything has been sort of set I can slow it down now, relax and have things play out at a nice pace. Thanks for the read.
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Yes, TwiShy is best.
dude, the feels....
maybe it's just me, but reading this all i could think of (besides the incredible amounts of feels)
was this
not so much the content in the speech. more the whole, letting out the emotions after holding it in for so long concept
(though it is a LITTLE relevant; both of them breaking down in a heartfelt speech about everything they did, and for all of it, they just get a boot up the rear)
but that's just me
really good chapter all in all, loving the story and the writing. you manage to keep the characers in character
this is why i like NOT reading the genre tags, this way i didn't see the twilightXfluttershy coming until it did (makes everything a surprise)
though i do make a point to read the ratings tags.....those are imperitive
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I'm really glad you enjoyed it, and I always appreciate a reader who takes the time to comment and tell me what they think.
I really want to read this, but the romance tag scares me. Tell me this is FlutterTwi, so I can read this to the utmost enjoyment levels (of over 9000!!!!!).
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It is FlutterTwi
2045241 good. The reading shall commence soon. (I would've read it anyways, though...)
Those feels....
I just..... wow.
However, this fic seemed rather rushed, and Fluttershy seemed like the last pony to go somewhere she may be in danger, so I didn't really enjoy that. But your TwiShy ship narration was great! I will read more.
I don't care how rushed this is, I felt a tear trying to sneak out of my eye socket.
That is all. This is going places.
EDIT: Finished the chapter. You actually did that. I must say author... I am very
ashameddisappointed in you. I'm gonna go read alicorn again... at least there I don't see authors make ponies lesbian...2045959
I know generally Fluttershy wouldn't go somewhere there may be danger, but on the other hand she knew her friend needed support. We've seen Fluttershy willing to confront danger when she needed to or her friend needed her or were depending on her. Thanks for the narration compliment, that's really what I tried to improve for this fic. Glad you enjoyed it, thanks for the read.
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Why thank you, kind commenter.
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Thanks, that is actually far more formal than "tons" I took your advice and changed it to "several".
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To each his own, I appreciate your comment none-the-less and hope you enjoy Alicorn.
2046861 How can I enjoy it when ive re-read it like 50 times but its in unconfirmed hiatus. "NOT DEAD" the author says. Last time he said that was a few months ago... >:( He got me hooked on Alicorn Rainbow Dash and now im pissed off that its a subject thats rarely explored.
Wow, I was excited to see another TwiShy story, but I caught so caught up in the tragedy, I forgot for a moment about the romance!
Okay! Let's see where this goes
Huh...a TwiShy story?
Let's give it a go!
EDIT: I love this!
good story so far,keep it going!
That TwiShy at the end of the chapter seemed rather abrupt. She goes from lamenting her imminent demise to making out with her friend in about one minute at most. I know almost nothing about romance, but I do know it doesn't work that way. Despite the limited timetable, a relationship that is rushed into that quickly is doomed to fail just as quickly as it started.
"I hope you don't mind."
No, Twilight just kissed you. Of course she'd have a problem with you falling in love with you.
This looks like it is going to punch us in a lot of different feels. When will Shining Armor and Cadance find out about her... horn-blackmagic-cancer-thing? I can't help but feel like that would be one of the most painful ones to see.
This looks really interesting. Favorited.
Fluttershy might be a bit too shy at the end. Good other than that.
Still, if I were you I'd go back and redo the first chapter. The content deserves almost twice the word count that it got. I almost gave up, assuming the rest would be the same. I'm glad I didn't.
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Thanks!
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I kind of want it to be a good mix of both. I want to show that even in the darkest of circumstances you can find love.
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Thanks!
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I shall!
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I suppose, I feel like it definitely would have been better than contemplating her death.
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Thanks, glad you enjoyed it. I'm still fleshing that scene out in my mind. Between making it emotional and making sure every character stays in character it's pretty difficult hehe. Either way, it may still be a little ways off, but not too far!
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Hmm, you really think the first chapter would benefit that much from being redone? I kind of wanted to just establish the sickness and Twishy, and from here on out things are definitely slowing down. Anyway, glad you didn't stop reading.
2050273 I honestly do. Instead of accomplishing your goal, you made something that seems a bit rushed. Celestia's emotions were underdeveloped, there was little to no mention of the TwiShy, and her friends were a bit too passive. All in all, it could do with at least one more scene and massive expansion if the second half. Even if its just little things.
The way I see it, characters have quirks. For Fluttershy and Pinkie Pie, I tend to have them notice eyes. For Twilight, I imagine she would draw in the details of her surroundings befor she noticed anything else. Maybe even a stray comment about the poor lighting or itchy sheets. Little things often humanize then characters (not the furry way, the emotional one).
Sorry for the rant, but I think it needed to be said. I'm going to assume you're like me, in that you enjoy having people comment on your work.
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Yeah, I love comments. It helps let me know what I'm doing right and what I'm doing wrong. Alright, then! Before I start chapter 3 I'll take a look at the first chapter and fix it up a bit. Thanks for the advice.
2050502 It might help if you try to split your time between the two. I often find that not matter how well you edit a story, the later parts always make you change the rest. Either way, I'm glad I got to make a difference. (Also, if you'd like to see what I mean by the "little quirk" things, go read the first chapter if Lost Kindness. It's under my stories. I think that it works quite well in the end of that chapter, and it might give you a better description than I can.)
I think in the end Twilight is going to accept it.
Ok, when Twilight and fluttershy kissed at the end, I hate romance so I was like
but, it was really, really good!
This story has so many feels. I adore TwiShy, and this story has an "enjoy life to its fullest before you go" feel to it. I know it has the tragedy tag so I'm not looking forward to the end, but I am eager to see Fluttershy making Twilight as happy as possible before then. Watched, faved, and followed.
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I guess we'll have to wait and see.
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Thanks, I'm glad you liked it!
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I really believe that love is the strongest emotion. I want to show that even in the darkest of despairs love can bring a person out. Even though because of the tag we all know how this is going to end, I want to show that it doesn't have to be always depressing. I guess I'm just silly that way. Anyway, I'm glad you enjoyed it so much, and thanks for the fave and all that.
Nice reference to Dragonshy episode. You have a keen eye.
This story is so much yes. I felt for Twilight when she lamented all out, because I'm a bookworm too, and I think Twilight's words was very in-character.
Also, TwiShy yay! There just aren't enough of them. In my opinion, they are perfect for each other, because both of them are introverted, somewhat quiet and contemplative, very gentle and kind-hearted. They also complement each other in that Twilight can bring Fluttershy out of her shell, while Fluttershy can cool down Twilight's head when she overheats.