Chapter 19 - Aftermath
“The knight protector is breathing again.”
“Has anyone seen Shatter Wing?”
“Stay away from the fires, there is nothing we can do for the forest.”
“Keep digging, I can sense her majesty’s magic somewhere in the rubble.”
“Careful, the ground is still unstable. There might still be some tremors.”
“Word just came back from Canterlot. They’re preparing to dispatch immediate assistance via long distance teleportation.”
“Come on Twilight! Say something - help us out here.” The voice broke in a strangled sob. “You better be alright.”
“I found a piece of her armor!”
The words came to her as if from across a great gulf. They were broken and disconnected. Twilight tried to pull them together - to connect the pieces of the pattern, but her mind was not functioning properly. Mentally she reached out and found that her link to the sun remained. The flow of magic had been reduced to a trickle and at any moment it threatened to die out.
She tried not to imagine the panic the inhabitants on the other side of the world were experiencing. Before she had become the princess of Equestria, seeing the sun suddenly dim would have stopped her heart in terror. She still remembered the blind panic she had felt when Nightmare Moon had prevented the sun from rising. It had only been because Princess Celestia had needed her and because of the other ponies depending on her knowledge that she had been able to pull it together.
A heavy weight was pressing against her as if she was at the bottom of an enormous pony pile. She tried to breath but found her chest constricted as dirt fell into her mouth. Twilight realized that the smell of soil filled her nostrils. She was buried alive.
Panic coursed through her veins as her legs tried to kick wildly. She realized that one of her rear legs was partially free, but moving it replaced the panic with agony. Something was wrong with the leg. Twilight needed to calm down. She needed to try and remember what had happened.
The battle.
She had defeated the nightmare, but had not destroyed it. Now that she knew what to look for, she could sense it lingering in that back corner of her mind. The amalgamated monster in the Everfree was not just a nightmare. It was aware and had been biding its time for years. However, she had shattered its physical manifestation, and knew that it would take time for it to recover.
Everything was dark, and Twilight struggled to remind herself that she was no longer fighting the nightmare. That small sub-dimension of pain was no more.
She had once read a book entitled ‘This book will save your life.’ It had covered basic survival techniques to deal with a number of situations. Twilight could not remember any chapter about being crushed by hundreds of pounds of stone and dirt, but in most situations one of the first things to do was to take personal inventory.
Twilight stretched out her magic to feel out her own body. She was terrified of how little magic she had remaining, and wondered what would happen when the well ran dry. Her sun would either die in a whimper or a bang, and she wondered what would then happen to her. Since becoming an alicorn it had become increasingly difficult to tell difference between herself and her magic. Slowly the energy began to flow out across her hide as she began to prod and poke, looking for areas that were sensitive.
The first thing she discovered was that her entire body had been transformed into a giant bruise, along with more scrapes and cuts than she could count in her current mental state. A rather large and deep cut ran down along her side where the nightmare had shot across. To her immense relief, she sensed none of the horrible taint that infected Spike’s unhealable injury. Twilight paused when her magic passed over her wings. One of them was twisted at an odd angle and she expected it was broken.
There were patches where her armor had melted, fusing to her skin. Those areas did not seem to be in any pain, and she was worried it was due to nerve damage.
Finally she ran her magic across the leg that had brought her so much agony. She rapidly confirmed that there was something wrong with the limb. It almost seemed as if her leg had an extra joint, bending strangely above the knee. There also seemed to be something hard and jagged jutting out of her leg.
Twilight nearly retched when she realized that the hard protrusion was bone. She wondered if she would walk again. However, as painful as it was, none of her injuries seemed fatal. That was one good thing she supposed.
All the injuries were far less than a murderer like her deserved. No redemption could exist for the pony that had killed Princess Celestia. If every moment of the rest of her eternal life was torture, it would not be enough. She was the ultimate betrayer. She would need to live on and suffer. What little of her soul still had any value belonged to her Equestria.
At that moment Twilight wished she had gotten around to testing her theory on whether or not she needed to breathe. At the moment there did not appear to be any air available to her, so she certainly hoped it was no longer necessary.
However, when she realized that she was not breathing, the panic returned. Her hearts began thundering at a terrible pace as she tried to will them to slow down - to use less oxygen. Twilight tried to scream for help, but found more dirt pouring into her mouth and down her throat. She could not even cough. Her magic pushed vainly against the stone and rock trying, but there was simply too little power available to answer her call.
She wondered if Equestria would die with its ruler trapped in a grave of her own making.
Stone shifted and she felt some of the weight decreasing. Twilight pulsed her magic in an attempt to let anypony who was looking for her know where she was. The voices became clearer and it seemed they ignited into a furor of activity. Despite the nightmarish agony, she kicked her free leg again. She needed to do everything possible to get free.
Suddenly a force enveloped her body and yanked her up out through the dirt and broken stone. As soon as her muzzle was free and in open air she tried to scream in agony only to cough out the dirt that had begun to fill her airways. Her broken leg was dangling uselessly, and each time it swayed in the air sent flames through her body.
“Princess!”
“Twi - Thank goodness. Give her some room everypony. Get the medics over here.”
Through the fog of her torment, Twilight could only focus on one thing.
“Why?” she coughed as she spit out more dirt. “Why is it so dark?”
“What do you mean Twilight. The unicorns are - Your... Your eyes...”
Twilight attempted to crane her head and look around. She could sense the presence of dozens of unicorns around her and could feel them all casting powerful light spells. The lumination they were emitting was almost tangible, yet she was still swimming in a sea of darkness.
“I understand... No matter. I can make do without sight.” It had been a small price to pay for the information she had gained. It was a small punishment for the sins she had commited. “Tell me, Rainbow Dash, what happened?”
The alicorn pulled herself free of the magic supporting her and encased her mangled leg in a telekinetic bubble. The magical force extended to the ground allowing her to stand under her own power. She ignored the gasping of the ponies around her; she needed to be strong for all of them.
“Twilight you need to - alright, fine. After the barrier went up we started feeling seismic tremors and vast amounts of energy began pouring out. It was insane. Large portions of the Everfree Forest are aflame. Right now we are the center of a huge crater. The palace is gone.”
“Spike, what about Spike? I thought I heard something-”
“Spike’s fine. At one point his wound burst open and for a short while his heart had stopped. He’s doing better now, but is still unconscious. I didn’t see anything hit him, so I’m not sure what’s wrong. We’ve had some wounded, but no casualties.”
Twilight felt a pony move underneath her wings to help offer her support. She knew - even without her sight - that it was her friend.
“I’m glad that nopony was hurt too badly.”
“Twilight, what about the creature? What happened to it?”
“It’s gone for now. That’s all anypony needs to know. I now know everything I need to know to deal with it for good. As soon as I return to Canterlot, I should be able to finish it off.”
“You’re not in any condition to-”
“Don’t worry. I won’t even need to directly confront it. I just need to regain my strength to cast a certain spell. Trust me on this one Dash.”
It was tortuous, but they slowly made their way out of the crater that marked where the palace of the twin sisters once stood. Rainbow Dash was by her side, guiding her up the treacherous slope the entire time. However, Twilight turned away all other offers of assistance.
They finally reached the top where Twilight had been told a chariot and an entire flight of pegasi were waiting to escort her back to Canterlot. Her ability to sense magic was muddled from the background noise of her fight. However, she could smell the heavy discharge of magic being performed and realized that a number of unicorns had just teleported the still unconscious Spike. If he was stable enough to be teleported, his condition could not be too dire. She was not sure how she herself would fare under the strain of such magic.
The medics on call seem to take her injuries as a personal affront. However, other than the application of pressure to her wounds, not much could be done until they reached proper medical facilities. Twilight absently overheard a heated discussion on if she should instead be taken to Ponyville because of the town’s proximity. If she had been more put together she might have found it amusing how nopony tried to consult with her.
It was strange not being able to see.
Through her mental haze, she began to return to the battle and it was then that she knew true pain. If the creature had spoken the truth, she had killed Princess Celestia. For some reason she knew that one fact to be true. Maybe the details were different, but Twilight was convinced of that one fact. As the chariot took off, flanked by two other chariots occupied by unicorns, Twilight hunched over where she was sitting and began to sob.
At some point they had landed in Canterlot and she could hear a swarm of doctors trying to rush her off for surgery on her leg. Because of the condition her sun was in, she would need to forgo anesthetic, no matter what anypony insisted. However, before she was carried off to an operating theater, she needed to have one last exchange with her most loyal friend.
“Dash. We need to increase patrols. I don’t want anypony being hurt by the night again.”
“Twilight. You know that we don’t have the hoofpower for that. But, we can talk about this later when you’re feeling better.”
“Draw up plans to relocate Canterlot’s guards. I will take care of Canterlot’s defense. Just do it Dash.”
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Twilight paced back and forth in her study as she remembered what the doctors had told her.
“At first we didn’t notice the physical damage, but it seems that the retina’s have been completely burned away. If you were a regular pony, we would have to say that you would never see again. But given your unique physiology, there is a chance that the damage may regenerate. However, there are steps that we can take to improve the chance of recovery. First of all -”
The rest had been boring medical details. At one point she had caught ponies talking about emotional detachment but she ignored what they had to say.
She would miss reading books, but Twilight had realized that she did not need eyes to see. Her magic now stretched out in every direction feeling everything around her. She had used magic to ‘feel things out’ before, but had never taken it to the degree she was now operating on. It was like an entirely new sense that she had overlooked her entire life.
The Blind Princess was anything but helpless.
Reading had been one of the first things she had attempted. Unfortunately, ink on paper was not thick enough for her to feel its presence. Many of the fine details she was used to were absent, but she could easily sense the shapes and positions of everything around her. It was strange to feel the texture of so many things at once.
She gripped her book shelves in telekinesis and ripped them from the walls, shattering them across the floor. She did not deserve to read.
She was missing some important detail. The nightmare had been so different than the time it had killed Celestia, as if it was two entirely different creatures. She wondered if it was the effect of nearly a half century of pain and suffering. Perhaps Little Pinkie’s death had been a tipping point. There was no doubt in her mind that the thing she had fought the previous night was a physical manifestation from her own mind. Even now, she could feel it greedily leaching power from her sun as it was gaining the strength to reform.
It would have been better, she thought, if Celestia’s killer had been a different Twilight. For a while she had held onto delusions that Twilights from all over the future were lurking. Each Twilight from a different darker potential future that would never be. Her confrontation at the palace had shattered those delusions. The fight had been in her own pseudo-psycho plane.
By trying to take all of Equestria’s pain for herself, it seems that she had changed the nature of the beast. However, it had made a crucial mistake in revealing itself. Twilight now knew how to fight it. The nightmare would die before the night was over.
Twilight paused in front of her balcony. She knew that if she had true sight she would see the slight almost-reflection of herself in the glint of her glass windows. Her leg was in a cast - it would heal; her superior physiology would see to that. Her right wing had been dislocated and now was in a sling; her flying lessons would need to be put on hold. Patches of her fur were missing where the skin had been burned away - already that was healing.
Most noticeable however, would be the piece of cloth wrapped around her head. Feeling it with her magic, she could easily mistake it for a blindfold. If her eyes would ever heal, they could not be exposed to the slightest bit of light.
Her magic pulsed and the window blew outwards, and she crushed the glow orbs that provided the room with light. She no longer had need of light. Twilight turned around and tore a portrait from the wall.
She stopped next to her desk, and levitated a small souvenir from her stay in the hospital. It was such a primitive medical instrument. She dragged the scalpel across her forehead drawing a thin line of blood. The pain brought her focus. Pony neuromedical science was nowhere near as advanced enough to accomplish her wish. However, the tool would still function as a suitable focus for her spell.
Suddenly, Twilight was somewhere else. The psycho-material plane of her mind stretched out before her as a barren wasteland. On the distant horizon a coming storm raged. In the world of her own mind she could still see. Briefly she conjured into existence her favorite novel. But as she looked at it, the words shifted and changed. She could not remember exactly how the story was supposed to go. With disgust she allowed it to return to the vapor of her imagination.
Twilight looked around and realized something was wrong. Her mind was not a wasteland. Everything shifted and she was in Ponyville. Now more than ever it was important to hold onto the visualization. The normally busy streets were empty of Twilights. Her entire being was waiting in suspense.
She was infected with a tumor, and it was time to operate. Ideally, Twilight would deal with her issues like a normal pony. Perhaps years of therapy could destroy those places in which the creature hid. Unfortunately, she did not have the time to deal with the thing in a healthy normal fashion. If she allowed the monster to reform, then ponies could be hurt. If the nightmare existed in all of her pain, she would just need to remove those memories of pain.
Twilight galloped straight into the Everfree forest, carrying her scalpel at her side like a mighty sword.
She saw shadows moving to intercept her and Twilight blasted them away with concentrated beams of light. Nothing would stand between her and her goal.
It was best to start early in her life. She flew through her mind until she found her mother lying in a hospital bed in the middle of clearing. The wind caused her mother’s hair to gently flutter as dust blew over her body. From the trees Twilight could hear a growl, but ignored it. As she looked at the mare she was filled with guilt and pain. However, worst of all was the resentment.
“Why didn’t Celestia save you?”
She analyzed the memory and frowned at what she found. Her mind had always been good at making connections - too good in this case. The infection that plagued her last moments with her mom spidered out to touch so many others. For some time she tried to peel the darkness away from the memories to see if anything could be salvaged, but the nightmare wound around the thoughts choking them like a weed.
“Sometimes you need to excise the health tissue with the diseased if you want to get better.”
The memories would all need to go.
“Mom... I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to save you, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t a good enough student. If I had been better... Maybe then Celestia would have cured you.”
Part of her screamed and raged against the decision. Her thoughts were the thoughts of a filly that did not understand. However, in her mind it was the emotions that mattered. Even when Twilight was old enough to finally understand the Princess’s explanation that there were somethings beyond even her power, the emotional impact had remained.
Her light coalesced into a glowing scalpel and she stabbed downward. Her mother screamed before bursting into a cloud of light that floated away on the wind. A whirlwind tore through her mindscape as it eroded away a whole network of memories. Her mother’s smile, her mother’s laugh - in an instant they were gone. She tried to remember the scent of her mom and found that she could not.
Twilight would give everything for Equestria.
Next up was her father. She had fond memories of him, but they tended to be the older ones from when her mother was still alive. However, the later memories tended to outweigh the good ones. Eventually she found him. He was yelling at a filly for having killed her mother. The lingering remnants of the memories of her mother told Twilight that he was justified in his words - though she could no longer recall why. Her father had stopped taking his medication, but that had only allowed the truth to come out.
The scene before her jittered and transformed. A stallion was hanging from a rope, swaying in the breeze. Twilight turned her eyes. It would be easier to purge the memories of her father; there would be less regret. However, before she made the cut she paused.
After she had received her cutie mark and been accepted as Princess Celestia’s student, her father had taken her out for ice cream. Twilight thought that there might have been another pony there, but the impression was vague and fading - after all, it had been only her father there for the entrance exam. Twilight had been so happy licking her ice-cream and rambling about the Princess. She was willing to part with that memory if she must, but it was what that memory was connected with that had caused her to stop.
To remove the tainted memories of her father, she would need to be willing to lose her memory of the entrance exam. That moment when she had first met Princess Celestia was one of her happiest and most precious memories. Twilight sobbed as the scalpel made the cut.
A few moments later, Twilight wondered why her eyes were moist with tears.
Cut after cut, Twilight tore apart her own mind. Once all the bad memories were gone, the nightmare would have nowhere to hide. The thing existed in the patterns of her pain and guilt and all of her other suppressed emotions. If those patterns were destroyed, the construct could not exist.
She paused when she hit the memory of Pinkie Pie’s death. That moment had reverberated back through her mind and touched every moment she had of the pink pony. She could remove the pain, but the price was staggering.
The scalpel hovered over the corpse of Pinkie Pie. Her memories of the pony were all so precious. Twilight held each and every one - even the bad ones - close to her heart. She remembered the battle with the abomination. It had been the good memories that had shielded her against the nightmare. It had been her friends that had saved her life.
Pinkie Pie lived on still in her heart.
Twilight flung herself from her mind with a scream of anguish. Back in the dark chamber of her ruined study she panted heavily as the scalpel levitated just above her left heart pressing into her skin. She had been a fool. She needed to deal with her emotions like a normal pony. She needed to stop suppressing things. She needed to let herself feel anger.
With a cry of rage she flung her desk into the wall.
“Your... your majesty? Is everything alright?”
With unseeing eyes, Twilight stared at the guard sticking his head through the door and could feel the fear emanating from him. Her gut reaction was to feel guilt at the reaction she inspired. Instead she embraced.
“I’m just fine. Thank you for asking.”
She began chuckling as the door closed. There were so many feelings to deal with.
Saving Celestia had become more complicated. Twilight needed to remember her two primary goals. She needed to protect Equestria, but she also needed to save her precious teacher. Her hope had been that she could change the past. Traveling back and adding her power to Princess Luna’s and Princess Celestia’s would make the difference.
But now she understood her enemy.
Would it be murder or suicide?
Twilight threw her head back and forth. There had to be another way. She was not a killer. She would give her life to save Celestia, but that did not mean she had the right to end the life of her younger self, not if they were two different ponies.
Maybe it all came down to the nature of time travel. If they were the same pony, just at different points in their life, perhaps she would be justified in putting an end to Younger Twilight.
She tried to think back to what it had been like to be young and immediately noticed the holes. Twilight knew that she had had parents, but could not remember anything about them. She had removed them completely from her mind. She could not help but wonder if her memories of them had really been that bad, or if she was just a horrible pony.
Twilight would be unable to get to sleep that night. She would be too busy crying.
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“My dear Twilight, not that I mind, but what has caused you to change your mind?”
“Change my mind?” Twilight chuckled. “I’ve been naive. I’ve been trying to protect everypony, but I’ve been unwilling to take the action necessary to do so. My number one priority above everything else is to protect my ponies - to protect Equestria. It was that thought that allowed me to win the battle with that beast. To protect everypony, for that I must be willing to pay any price. This is a petty sum. It’s hardly a choice at all really.”
“But you had been uneasy-”
“Uneasy yes, but… It had always been just a vague discomfort. I never really had a good reason. I suppose it is because you are something new, and I didn’t quite know how to act.”
“So you’re going to let me help you, my dear student?”
“Yes. I cannot ignore any aid, especially when it can be so great.”
“Twilight, we don’t need to do this now. We can wait until you are feeling better.”
“I’m fine. It’s just that now I know the true burden I carry.”
Twilight was standing in a newly formed chamber with the Celestia construct. It was the largest she had dug in the growing complex that was Celestia’s mind. A small sphere of light formed in front of her and Twilight began to pour more magic into it. As she directed more energy into the sphere it grew and expanded until it reached a size of six pony lengths across. The heat was unbearable.
Twilight let it sink into the stone.
“I can feel it, but just this once will you be my eyes? Describe it to me.”
“Twilight... It’s bright and warm. The stone around it is red and angry. However, in the areas where the sphere has already passed it’s calm again. The only sign of the passing is the ripples that have melted into the stone.” Celestia paused and there was only silence for nearly a quarter hour. “I can’t see the light anymore unless I look down the bore.”
Twilight felt the earth shift slightly beneath her hooves. There was a terrible crack and she knew it had broken through.
“It’s beautiful. The glow is filling the chamber. If I look down the hole I can see the heart of the planet. It is anger and passion, beating with a life all its own. Looking down I can imagine that I can see all of the emotions ever felt by everypony that has ever lived. I’m gazing down into the very soul of Equestria and it is looking back at me.
“Twilight this is a wonderful gift you are giving me. At the very center of Equestria - you are giving me the means of protecting your precious ponies.”
Twilight smiled, but the temperature of the room was growing as the magma chamber Twilight had broken into began to heat the cave.
“I’m going to teleport the magical generator into the bore, but I’m going to need your help securing it in place and wiring into your rune matrix. After I add the first few manifestation runes, you should then be able to do the rest.”
“I promise you my most faithful student, I will help you protect Equestria. I will carry as much of your burden as I can.”
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That was intentional. It was suppose to be a surprise. I explore it a bit more in the new chapter. I did, however, add a 'throw away line' to foreshadow this revelation in one of the earlier chapter edits.
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Glad you liked it.
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As in not enough detail, or that not enough back and forth fighting happened?
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Thank you! I'm so glad someone has called me out on this. Noone else has mentioned it, and I was beginning to wonder if I was crazy. I've tried to reduce my use of past perfect in the edits I've made to the earlier chapters (that I just posted).
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Thanks for the catch.
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Quantum theory has it that you change things just by watching them.
A minor catch or two:
“Keep digging, I can sense that her majesty’s magic somewhere in the rubble.” That her majesty's magic IS in the rubble? Or maybe her majesty's magic in the rubble?
"It was insance." I'm always up for learning new words! What does this one mean, Sapidus?
Oh wow . Self lobotomization, that's really something.... I have a feeling that something about that is inherently wrong. All she's doing is running and hiding from the beast (well, I guess technically she was flushing it out of the dark). It seems very ironic to me that she would choose to "hide in the light", just as the beast chose to hide in the darker places of her mind. It was terrible when she contemplated cutting out Pinkie Pie. I almost threw something. Then she didn't and it was just sad because she started crying and flinging things and loathing herself. Sounds way too much like what goes on in my head.
So you never answered us. CAN she live without breathing?
I'm confused whether or not the beast has been defeated yet... That's more likely my poor connect-the-dot skills than anything, but could I get a clarification? I understand that she cut away her memories to give the beast no place to exist, but she didn't cut them all out. She decided she needed to deal with everything the proper way. Does that mean that this is going to be an ongoing struggle between her and herself?
And so now the final arc of Equestria's Twilight begins. Let's see where Sapidus takes us, everypony.
Thanks for another great chapter, Sapidus! Saturday update sounds AWESOME (if you can of course, no rush).
EDIT: No way, I got the first comment in... an hour after the chapter got posted? I mean, sure, it's 1 in the morning where I am but I'm still shocked. I've never been first commenter on anything (not counting Sapidus...)
Just speculating, but I am assuming as more of Twilights friends die she will erase them from her memory to get rid of the pain causing her to the point where all that is left is a empty husk and the monster within her. Twilight by then will either be an emotionless pony (or at least forget all of the positive memories she had with her friends) or unstable and the monster will triumph should a battle in the mind or another physical battle take place. From there the monster could then use the magical powers Twilight learned to travel through time ensuring events are altered to make sure everything leads up to its creation. Seems like the monster knew what strings to pluck on Twilight.
If all of the time travel talk from readers in the earlier chapters makes sense, maybe in this iteration of the main time loop Twilight will realize what is wrong and either kill herself self or younger self so that the loop essentially becomes undone and everything returns to normal like it never happened. Although that can lead to a paradox I am too tired to comprehend right now.
Some of the talk and story made me also think about the multiple universes interpretation where every possible outcome is it's own universe and reality and there is no way for the universes to interact with one another. The time travel spell could be one way to travel between different universes but I feel like it would still cause some kind of paradox or break some physical law.
Hope to see the story wrapped up soon.
Things seem to be speeding up for this princess. I can only imagine that all of this is taking place in under a month, and the strains must be enormous. Though I am glad to see that she finally gave up on doing everything herself. I just wonder whether or not this Synthesized Celestia is going to end up becoming something bad, since she is basically making the construct self-sufficient with an ability to learn and remember.
Anyway, I can honestly say now that this is by far my favorite adventure story on this site. Seeing (almost) all the spelling errors fixed, not to mention toning down your past perfect use, it makes me wonder whether or not I could create something as good as this (structure-wise; I know I'd never be able to make a story this close to being a fan-fiction epic).
Keep up the good work, and have fun!
Oh... Oh, Twilight. You're ruining yourself! You need to sit down with those you love and relieve yourself of every burden - for those burdens are what are causing the nightmare; the simple fact that you refuse to let anypony in! 'Least, that's what I think. Don't bottle it up, lest the bottle breaks and it all spills out. Don't throw it away, or you'll be less than yourself and all the more deprived because of it. But instead, sit down and drink it with a few good friends - reveling in the bitter sweet flavor of it all as it washes down your throat. Good chapter.
Gotta admit, I was very skeptical of this story when I first started reading some 18 chapters ago. I don't know how you've managed to keep me entertained this long, but kudos. I can be very picky about what I read based on the typical stuff (Content, spelling, pacing, blahblahblah) and so far haven't had one major complaint.
Bring it to a close my friend. I await the ending of this story just because I want to see how everything turns out. How you do it, and when you do it are entirely up to you. But I say this in hopes that you find that you've got my attention until the end.
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And go figure, I comment right after the person who has the name I wanted. Ain't that just my luck. I didn't even recognize it until I scrolled up to proofread my own reply.
Hm. So she's giving the Celestia construct more power, now? Something tells me this wont work out well.
see i was right wasnt i Twilight killed Celestia even if it was indirectly
I love this fic and everything about it. Great job. One question though. Haven't you asserted on multiple occasions that Equestria's core is dead?
I could see Twilight eventually using the Nightmare as a way to great a religion, sins feed the Nightmare and cause the Princess anguish while living well and abiding by the rules of Harmony will brighten the sun or something like that.
Will she ever consider sending a message to 'fix' the past rather than going in pony? That seems like it would be easier to me.
;_; Why does this make my eyes leak? ;___;
Crazy Twi inc
I was listening to my music and realised the song "Last Resort" by Papa Roach kind of matches Twilight in this story x3
you sir made me cry with this fic that may not seem like a huge acompishment but I am likely one of the most jaded readers you will experance or at least in the top 10%. Though I havn't the faintest idea how one would go about quantitatively measure how jaded someone is. I loved this fic thus far and hope that you will update soon.
Ya know, normally when I read a sad/dark story, I can tell if its going to end sad/dark, or if it will resolve into a, more or less, happy ending. YOU however, have me on a rollercoaster. Mad skills, and other than some minor spelling issues, you're doing great.
I don't normally read fanfics.
But when I do, I read fucking awesome ones such as this.
I think Twilight's already beyond sane and insane, crazy and normal. Her determination to purge the bad memories from her mind is an ironic echo of her decision with Little Pinkie, isn't it?
And now... I wonder what would happen if she did purge everything, and combine herself with the CelestAI she's been creating... Princess Twilight Celestia might be within possibility!
Oh no... Poor Twily
Performing psycho-surgery on oneself must feel strange. Absolute agony as you throw away that which you hold dear... then no pain at all. Effectively erasing a part of your existence. The aftermath is painless, and in the end it doesn't really matter, because if you don't remember something, you cannot grieve for it. You're making a personal sacrifice for yours and others' sakes.
"Memories are nice, but that's all they are."
Tara Strong, year 2000.