I woke up late the next day when Rainbow blitzed into her bedroom. I stayed in my bed and watched Rainbow zip around her room putting her luggage away. She was going on and on about the actual wedding.
"And I think the only thing that stole the Rainboom's spotlight was Luke's and Ember's kid!" Rainbow gushed.
<<Uh-huh...>>
"Not that I can blame him!" She continued. "The little guy was so cute! He looks like his father, if he was a dragon."
<<Neat.>> I monotoned. "We have created a clone of you, one third your size!"
It's just something else you'll need to stay away from. Can't risk breaking him now, too.
Yeah... Don't want Luke to come down on my head. I heard what he did to the lightning cat the 'ling's summoned.
A monster like you would deserve it, though.
"You're not a monster."
<<But I am...>> I muttered to myself as I shifted around in my bed.
"Say something, Leo?" Rainbow asked.
<<I said that I'm glad you had fun.>> I lied smoothly.
Rainbow came over and picked me up. "It would've been better if you were there with me." She carried me over to the bed. She pulled a brush out and started to brush out my fur. "Jeez, your fur is matted. Did you run through some bushes to get here?" She chuckled.
<<Uh... Kinda.>> I admitted. <<Ran so hard I tripped into the ditch.>>
"Yeah," Rainbow nodded, "that'll do it." We lapsed into silence as Rainbow brushed out my fur. While I could feel my funk alleviate from the grooming, I still couldn't shake my depression. "Hey Leo, are you okay?" Something Rainbow seemed to pick up on.
Monsters like you are never "okay". Just horrifying or dead.
"Don't listen to it, Leo! You'll be okay, as soon as we get rid of our unwanted guest!"
Oh, that's rich, coming from you!
Rainbow lifted my head to look at her. "Leo? Are... are you okay?"
<<M'fine.>> I muttered, letting my head flop back onto Rainbow's lap when she let go. I felt Rainbow slowly stop brushing me.
I watched as the cloud bed turned into cloud floor, which in turn became open air over ground. I didn't worry, I knew that Rainbow was holding onto me.
You don't deserve her.
I know...
"That's a lie! You deserve her, as much as she deserves you!"
I shrugged. I guess... I barely took in the surroundings as we flew, so I was a little surprised when we touched down at Fluttershy's. <<... What're we doing here?>>
"You are going to check up on your eggs." Rainbow nudged me towards the Daycare. "I need to talk to Fluttershy."
I sullenly nodded and trudged my way up the ramp. I slowly made my way through the routine of checking on the eggs, then separated myself from them, laying down at the top of the ramp.
"What's wrong, Leo? You're not going to warm your eggs?"
What if I snap and damage them?
"That won't happen and you know it!"
Says you.
"There she is, you two."
I glanced over at the sound of Rainbow's voice, spotting Fluttershy and Conner coming towards me. I rolled over so that my back was to them. I ignored the conversation that Rainbow was having with the two. Probably telling them about how much of a disappointment I am...
Heh, I can hear her now, "Can I get a refund on my bitch?"
"That's not what they're talking about, and you know it!"
I sighed. Might as well be...
"Now listen here-!"
I felt something fleshy touch me, but it quickly flinched away with a hiss. I lazily glanced over to see Conner with the tip of a ribbon in his mouth, his eye's watering in pain. ... I just hurt people.
<<Leo...?>> Conner whimpered through his ribbon. <<Are... Are you feeling okay?>>
<<M'fine.>> I muttered, turning away again. I ignored the Sylveon as he returned to talking with his owner and Rainbow. "You're not fine, Leo. These dark thoughts, they're not yours!"
Oh, they are. They're the ones you hide away from the rest. Just like the ones from years ago...
"And you already know that you're better than them!"
A fuzzy paw roughly poked my shoulder. <<Hey.>> I heard Angel grunt from behind me. <<You're stayin' here until you're better.>>
<<'Kay.>> I mumbled into my tail.
<<Ya wanna come into the house, or are ya gonna mope out here?>>
<<M'fine here.>>
I heard the ramp creaking as Angel shifted his weight from foot to foot. <<Alright. I'll leave a dog door unlocked if you change your mind.>>
<<'Kay.>> I sighed as Angel hopped away.
I stayed within the confines of the Daycare's doorway for the next several days. I barely moved other than to check on the eggs, and even then, only on my Brain's insistence. Conner would bring me food, but avoided touching me, hissing in pain whenever he accidentally did so. Angel took it upon himself to make sure I actually ate.
Usually, this meant him taking pawfuls of food and cramming it down my throat. If it wasn't for him also cleaning the resulting mess up, my fur would've been matted with dried food.
After the eighth day of this, even Angel was showing concern.
On the ninth day, Rainbow stopped by for an update. Against my desires, I listened in.
"Has she moved at all?" Rainbow asked
"Except for, um, bathroom breaks?" Fluttershy's timid voice was barely audible. "Not really, no. She's done some stuff to look after the eggs, but, um, it's not very often? Or, not as often as she used to."
"So... What's wrong with her?" My flinch went unnoticed.
Conner spoke up and was translated by Fluttershy. <<She's deeply depressed. I don't know what's triggered it, but I'm keeping a close eye on her, just in case.>>
"I think I might have a hunch..." Rainbow muttered. Louder, she added. "So, what can we do to fix it?"
See, you're a broken tool, useless until fixed. But you're too broken for that, and you know it.
I glanced over at the trio and, seeing that they weren't paying attention to me, got up and silently walked away.
"Leo... Where are you going? My Brain thought as I entered the Everfree.
"Away." I mumbled.
"Er... Why?"
I didn't think of a response until after I passed by our memorial clearing. "So that I won't cause problems anymore."
"So... You're running away?"
I sat down in the middle of a clearing that reeked of rotten wood.
Hehehe. Nope. A chorus of growling filled the air as timberwolves stalked out from their dens. She's given up.
I've won.
I wish you luck on getting through this rough patch in writing this. And I hope Leo can heal eventually. They deserve happiness, even if they can't see it.
Good luck on getting through this arc and we can understand if it takes long to write.
It's also good to see the things you wrote in the Author's notes.
Who was again the dark voice? Can't be Discord because corpses don't create chaos, only the living.
Where the hell is the next one?In all seriousness, it's nice to receive an update to this story. And as a fellow empath and occasional writer, I completely understand the difficulty with stuff like this. Keep up the good work!
You and you're that means to me that neither of these voices are Leos. If only she could figure that out.
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They may not do it directly, but have you ever seen what happens when an innocent man finds a corpse?
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Not necessarily true. If one has Multiple Personalities Disorder, the alternate personalities are perceived as separate individuals. If that's the case, the voices would be saying 'you' and 'you're'.
Or maybe this is a red herring and I'm trying to distract you.
Or it's exactly what's happening and my red herring comment is meant to confuse you
NO! YOU are loved, YOU matter, and finally YOU belong, I don't care how long it takes for you to get the chapters done, as long as you okay. But I will always be ready to read the next amazing chapter when you do finish it.
Thoughts:
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No but i guess:
A: Report it to the police
B: Puke and run screaming away
C: Eat it
D: Ignore it
E: Be sad about the lost life
F: Be angry people keep disposing corpses on his property without at least asking...
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B was the one I was going for, although "A, but he is then accused of the murder" is a close second.
Thank you for the update I was actually thinking of this story recently, and then out updated, yay!
About 2 days ago I remembered that this was one of the stories I was following and checked to see when the last post was. I'm glad to see this story is still alive. It's definitely in my top 5 favorites.
Thanks for the update. It may make me weird, but I like stories where the protagonist isn't some perfect person and everything goes perfect.
People are fucked up. We have problems. Struggling to overcome issues - whether personal, mental, or emotional - is how we grow and mature.
don't wore if you need to take to take time off for yourself do so we will still be here even you need to take time.
This chapter hit deep I know how rough it gets to not lesson to the other voice trying and a lot of the time succeeding to bring you down. I really hope someone can help her. you hold in there to it's all way good to hear you not alone and not the only one who has to deal with it
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What the hell, I don't even know you.
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Fixed! Thanks!
Take as long as you need! I’ve experienced depression and suicidal ideation, it really isn’t easy to deal with. Know that all of us internet strangers and fellow bronies greatly appreciate everything you do and are willing to wait years if that’s what you need. Take care of yourself first and don’t bottle up how you feel, find someone you trust to talk to and share your emotions with. You matter, you are important and you deserve to be happy. I hope you feel better soon!
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I would point out other grammar and spelling mistakes as I went, but I'm reading on mobile, and it can be quite a pain to bounce back and forth from the comment box. Still, it's more than readable. I should know, this is my third time through it.
On an unrelated note, I keep debating with myself whether or not I want to attempt a side story. I'm not a confident author, and writer's block is a friggin endgame boss for me, lol.
You can do this. So this chapter is heavy, doesn't stop me from enjoying your work! Keep at it, stay strong and STRIVE! I am awaiting your next chapter with open arms. Godspeed.
TL;DR: NEXT CHAPTER PLEASE!
Just finished my third read through of this story. Can't wait for more!
Fucking excellent story my fam. Was kinda hard to follow at first do to the pov changes but once adjusted its an amazing piece. I hope you get to feeling better soon. From personal experience i suggest curling up with whatever pet you have. Lost my dog recently and both my cats helped me feel better day by day.
Off topic but could you imagine a Ninetales somehow learning hyperbeam and unleashing nine of them from its tails? Pity it doesnt have more moves.
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my thoughts on the voices, the Italics I believe is Leo's superego, I.E. his/her conscience, the bold is the "Tulpa" feeding of of Leo.
I completely understand, mate. Thanks for the update, and take care of yourself. We're all here for ya.
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...Why am I even surprised that 'Eat the corpse' was in there?
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Because you don't expected someone to think about the waste of meat. The bones and othrr parts can be re-used. You be surprised how well the body of another can be used. 'The Forest' a survivel game on a canibal island where some very... Interessting materials can be used. Teeth to make a better battle mallet, heads for a warhammer, human bodys for totems and area decorations. In a way i think i underestimated how effecting a human leg makes for a club...
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Leo started as a human male and was changed into a female Eevee.
So, THREE voices. Leo, positive guy, and a nightmare. Don't know what kind yet. Leo, you bitch(literal), wake up, you useless sack! You do NOT want to be hit with Elements, it's not pleasant, if we go by Luna and Sunset.