It's been a year or so since she'd broken my heart
But why still I can feel the pain inside my heart
It's like thousands of knives wreaking havoc in it
Stabbing and killing my precious heart
Will it fade away as time passes by?
Or will it just stay in here clinging myself into my past?
But for any means, I just wanted to start a new life
Forgetting how painful my past is
Holding vaguely forever in my dreams
To have someone who will save me from sadness
But my dreams came to reality
As you enter my heart whole-heartedly
You taught me how to forget the past
To live again as whole as I was in the present
But I'm now afraid again
That you might not catch me when I fall
Yes, I'm falling in love with you as you take care of me
Wishing that you will fall in me also
How much effort should I exceed?
Just to reach and touch your heart
Maybe you only treat me as a friend
But I can't stand that we will just be friends forever
But please forgive me when you know
That your friend is deeply in love with you
Three years of friendship is not enough
For me and my broken heart
That's why I'm begging for you to feel my love
Even if you don't return it back
I won't be angry with you if you leave me
Whenever you know I had broken our rule
Not letting to fall in love with each other
But my heart keeps beating for you, telling me that I must fall in love
With you
I tried to forget you in the sense of leaving
But I can't bear the pain it gives my heart
That's why I talk to you again
Promising that I'll not do it again
Why do I keep ending up beside to you?
When I know that you will not love me
I know that you loved someone else
But I'll be here, still waiting for you
I might find myself so dumb stupid
Supporting you in your damn relationship
But deep inside of myself
It kills my heart every time I hear something happy about you and him
I support you and him for whatever reason
But I can't stand to see you in agony
I tried to pursue you to not love him anymore
But what can I do, if your heart never feels the betrayal
Is this just normal to feel that the one you loved needs your protection
For whatever pain in the world can she get?
I wish there will be a time that she will listen to me
Because all I want for her is to be happy
I've tried in all means to let go our memories
A good step to move on forward to life again
But I failed again to let her go
Because I can't stand whenever she felt sadness
Why do I also feel what she feels?
I hate this feeling very much
Because all I know is
This is the reason that's why I can't leave her
Seeing her in pain is like burning myself
That's why I want to make her happy by striking some jokes
I know she laugh, but still not enough
To throw the sadness in her heart
For two years I'm contented with what we have
Because all I want is her happiness
I don't care if she will never love me back
Because her smile is enough to complete my whole world
There will be a time that my love for you will last
And I hope that when it happens you will still be my best friend
Even after the those trials we've been through
I know we can still be a good friend
But before I let you go
I just wanted to give you a warm hug
Embracing every happy memory we have
And I also want to tell you that I've been your secret admirer for nearly 3
Years
Letting you go doesn't mean we'll forget the past
It will just finish those painful memories we have
But never damaging the precious memories we’ve been through
I love you and goodbye