Oct
5th
2021
Trans Perspective. Super-Dysphoric Right Now. · 9:12pm Oct 5th, 2021
I feel like I could burst, it's terrible. Imagine trying to fit a VHS tape into a USB port. That's how it feels, it feels like I'm trying to get somewhere and am oh so close, but something is stopping me. Something, some invisible barrier, a membrane, that prevents me from reaching my goal, ever. But it's something I need, like... like food, or water. Imagine really needing a bathroom and being stopped by an invisible barrier just in front of it.
I can't describe gender dysphoria any better, I don't think so.... but when it hits, it can really be very cruel. 😣
That sounds dreadful, I hope it stops soon and you are feeling better. I deal with Intrusive thoughts so I know how it feels to have something mess with your mind. My brain will often force me to think about something for days, or even weeks even when I don’t want to think about it anymore.
Sometimes that thought can end up being an action that I don’t want to do like deleting something or walking a certain direction, and it’ll feel like it’s trying to force me into doing that action.
Thankfully it’s deteriorated over time and I can fight it but it’s still annoying.
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That sounds awfully familiar for me as well...
Since I can remember, I've been suffering from OCD, and from time to time I've had to face the so-called "Obsessive Thoughts"... in a way, dysphoria is somethig similar, although much more out of your control, even still... it's like some freaky type of ambience you can't escape from until it subsides by itself.
I'm sorry you've had to suffer from these thoughts, I know well it's not at all easy to bear... I hope ot gets even better in time, sincerely so.
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Thank you, it’s easier knowing other people go through it too.