Story Update and a question · 6:11am Nov 16th, 2020
Story Update:
So, As you are aware. Chapter updates are taking a while (Sorry about that, I know i say it a lot, but it re-assures me mentally). Which is due to multiple things: 1.) Depression making writing hard to do, and 2.) I recently got a job, so I'm trying to find a balance again while also trying to get writing more often again. I plan on releasing CH 2.5 before chapter two because it will be faster to do and and will at least get something out to you guys (I'm mentally stuck in a feedback loop of not being able to write because my depression killing my drive to do so > feeling bad about not being able to get stuff out to you guys who are being super patient for it > Telling myself I need to try to start writing again > repeat.)
I know I keep saying this, but I whole heartedly mean when I say that I'm not or will ever abandon any of my stories. It might (unfortunately) take time, but I WILL finish my stories.
With that said, Question time.
Question:
I know I said that I didn't have any intention about writing any sexual content for this story outside of what I stated ( being casual nudity/crude humor), but I had a few ideas floating around in my head that I'm tempted to write, but I wasn't sure if I should add them to the story or leave them as canonical side stories separate from the main one. I haven't written anything lewd before so it would be a new experience for me to do so.
So, I made a poll. Let me know what you think by dropping a vote.
If it's your first foray (did I spell that right?) into writing smut, I would strongly suggest you make it seperate, otherwise you'll have to mark First Second Chances as Mature, narrowing your potential future audience. If that's not really an issue, maybe just mark them clearly as smut in the chapter title.
That aside, depression is no joke. It sucks. It sucks camel d*cks. I know firsthand. And it's usually not the best idea to force yourself to do something you usually love, but just don't feel like doing right now. Because then it starts to feel different, you kind of stop loving it. Because your brain makes this weird negative connection between this thing that you love doing, and having to force yourself to do it, like it's a chore instead of a passion.
I'm not entirely sure if it's quite the same way for you, but that's what it's like for me.
Now, I know you didn't ask for advice, and you're under no obligation whatsoever to follow mine.
What helps me to stay afloat when it gets tough:
*clean something that takes less than 5 minutes to clean. Try to do it as quickly as you can, and then find another thing that takes five minutes or less to clean. It feels good to walk around your house when it's all neat and tidy.
*play with your pets, if you have any. Unless they're snakes. Or spiders. Then maybe just... look at them, I guess?
*get some sunlight on your skin. Even if it's just a few minutes. Even if you don't do anything more than browsing the internet on your phone while you're out there. Just a couple of minutes.
*push ups or sit ups, as often as you can without hurting yourself. I did about 50-70 of each every day for two months. I'm not really one for vanity, but one day I looked in the mirror and I was like; "damn. I look good."
*hydrate.
*do something... normal. An everyday thing that requires almost no effort. Then look at yourself in the mirror, like you're completely baffled and say; "You did it... You crazy sonofabitch, you actually did it!"
Do it for something different every day. Or every other day.
*search "try not to laugh challenge" on youtube, and put in the effort not to laugh. Even if you do laugh, keep it going.
And if you need to take a break, take as long as you need.
I really hope you have a nice day, dude.
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It both is and isn't my first foray because I have other smut stories in progress but non are anywhere remotely in a state to be published. So it's more of what makes it out first.
As for the mature rating, I initially had it set as mature because the stuff in red in the description I didn't know what would constitute a mature or teen tag. So I lowered it to teen (unless stated by moderators) because I've come across plenty of mature stories with the sex tag expecting smut and not finding any and all it was was just mentions like "oh, I banged so'n'so, he was so amazing" but with a little more graphic detail. So I dont really have an issue of rating changes. I also dont really plan on making them super large chunks of chapter (forgot to mention that.)
I mainly do writing as a creative outlet, so I wouldn't really say I love it, more as it's something i enjoy doing from time to time. I dont really force myself to write, like " I have to write this much per day" it's more of "I see that someone left a comment asking when more will be coming or I'll go I should write some more tomorrow because I have the time to do so, but then when it rolls around I stare at my screen with the bit of chapter I have written, then leave it and go to do something else.
But yeah, I definitely see where you coming from and agree with most of it. It just mainly feeling like I'm not doing what I could be, because i pretty much write the chapters or the main parts of it in my head then I flesh it out when i type it. But yeah... i mainly just feel like i waste to much time that i could be writing, which is where my depression feedback loop falls into play.