Jan
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In case I don't make it to midnight · 6:10am Jan 1st, 2020
I was really excited for the new year. Especially for the new decade, and I didn't think I would be
....then everyone I know had a bad new year. And people started telling me they felt awful that it was a new decade, and they missed the past, etc
I'm already struggling really badly with coping with the missed years, and the one day I finally thought maybe I could get over it, people started telling me they feel like they wasted the decade .-.
Our fiance knows I'm crying but I can't find the words to say why. I feel so awful and I didn't want to feel bad about the new year!!
I want to try sleeping it off. Maybe I'll feel better before the decade passes
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Pyromaniac · 212 views
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you WILL make it to 2020
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I know!!! Dx I fucked up the title, I meant if I fall asleep and stay asleep thru midnight! I don't mean to die, I'm just sleepy DDDx
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oh yeah, when i am falling asleep is when i make the worst blunders.
I feel similar about the past decade, considering I was born in the mid-to-late 2000s, the 2010s were my childhood. And because my mother died in 2019 only furthers the longing for my past.
Anyways though, I hope you have a good 2021 and 2022. Just please hold on, killing yourself won't do shit, excuse my language.