Carefree highway, let me slip away on you... · 3:12am Mar 27th, 2019
Some of you may have read my last story and are seriously concerned about my health status, physical and mental. I suspect a greater portion read it and couldn't give a shit either way, and more still never bothered to read it at all. This blog post is primarily for the first group I mentioned.
On the whole, I'm doing okay. My body's been giving me troubles, especially over the past couple of years, and I'm dealing with it as best I can. I have a few medical procedures that need to be carried out. One of them, surprisingly, is fully covered by my health insurance, such as it is. The other I have to cover out of my own pocket and I'm hoping I can set aside enough money to do that. Should any of these tests reveal anything abnormal, there's nothing I can do to correct it because I simply don't have the money. Sometimes I think I'm better off not knowing and just letting nature run its course.
In regard to "just letting go," yes, I've been thinking about it a lot. Enough so, that my doctor prescribed some medicine and asked me to seek out either some form of counseling or find more positive ways of dealing with it. Like I haven't been trying to deal with it for the past forty-odd years or so. I admit, with all of the worries that are piling up, I've been thinking about it more and more.
I don't talk about this much, mainly because:
- (a) No one gives a shit.
- (b) There's people out there with problems and maladies much worse than mine, enough to make mine seem insignificant by comparison (which ties into (a) above).
- (c) I'm not all that important (again, see (a) above).
In summary: I'm okay for the most part, don't worry about me because I'm not worth the time, I'll be around somewhere until i'm not.
Point a) is simply not true!
b) thither is always somepony with worse problems, meaneth not thine are insignificant.
c) everypony is important.
I still extend mine hope for the better results of thy tests.
*hugs* I love you, Longhaul. Everyone is important. <3 Feel free to talk with me if you need an ear.