Update · 5:13am Feb 4th, 2019
Been spending the last couple of weeks pretty much in an emotional funk.
My father passed away. I ultimately made the decision to pull the plug, and the week from Jan 14th-21st I was in Maryland attending his visitation. he didn't have any life insurance, so the family had to throw together what we could to be able to afford a visitation. Afterwards, we went out together to a restaurant for a 'celebration of life' sort of thing. Lots of family I haven't seen in a very long time showed up, and I really just didn't know how to feel about anything.
Came back on the 21st and traveled for 12 hours to get back home. Been butting heads with my mom, and mostly just going back to work.
My health isn't the best. I'm heavier than I should be, and I know I need to care more about it because it's exactly how my father met his end. Right now though...everything is just, hard.
talked with my mom earlier today about moving into the empty apartment next door, which she owns.
Other than that it's just been going through the motions of everything, honestly still feel distant and disconnected from everything.
Sorry if this wasn't as cheery or upbeat or whatever as you guys were hoping. Right now I jsut feel completely defeated and useless, and working through these emotions is hard. Talked with my therapist and she basically told me I should set goals, so that's next on the agenda. If that comes to anything, I'll let you know in the future.
Thanks for sticking with me.
Sorry to hear that news, TGM. I know there isn't really anything anyone can say. A lot of people will probably try to say something. :\ Everyone grieves in different ways, so I'm not going to pretend to know what you need. I have gone through losing my dad though, so if you ever want to poke in my direction, you know where to find me on Discord.