I Wish I Were Dead · 8:57pm Nov 3rd, 2017
Unfortunately, I don't own any weapons, and I'm not a fan of a slow, painful, and not-guaranteed DIY attempt.
I've been hoping for a car accident as of late. Lethal wreck. Won't even know what hit me.
All my friends will move on. My family will move on. Everyone will move on. My life is pointless, pathetic, and irrelevant, so my death would be as well.
To be honest, I'd like to die, but I'd like to see how people react afterwards.
Will my friends mourn?
Will my classmates even care?
Will she think of me at all?
What I wouldn't give to see how little my life meant, to see how little I matter, to get proof of that, and disappear forever, content in how the sorrow will be over.
No afterlife, just the sweet embrace of nothingness. No more sorrow, no more mood rollercoasters, no more heartbreak, and certainly no more concern over whether or not I'm worth anything.
I'm worth nothing. The mistake comes when I believe I'm worth something.
Ey, ey, ey. Don't say those things. There are people who care. Don't know if it is one or hundred or million of people but not a single person of this world is unimportant.
*offers a hug* yet, you have friends on here who care about you. A death is only irrelevent if nobody gave a shit (which people on here do).
I have depression and I've dealt with suicidal thoughts a lot. I find that sometimes just venting frustrations helps. It is good that you wrote this blog and got a lot of these emotions out. If things get worse though, please consider maybe talking to someone (I would certainly be willing to listen if you want to sent a PM), talking to a free councilor on 7Cups, or seeking other support.
I know situations like these are tough, but hang in there. Remember that there are always people who care about you and who want to help (myself included). I sincerely hope that things will get better for you soon. Many hugs to you, my friend.
Your life is pointless is it?
I say this: you get out of life what you put into it. If your life is pointless, then find a purpose.
Give us a reason to remember you if you're curious if you will be forgotten if you were to die suddenly.
LIVE!!! You've only got one shot and then you're dead.
Am I being insensitive? Some might call it that, sure. But I am living up to my heritage. My family have been warriors for most of our history. Those who deal in death value life most, for we see it's beauty most strongly. Because of this, I do not beat around the bush when I talk about death. If you're looking for someone to sugar coat some speech about how you should stay positive, you won't hear that from me. I'm telling you to get up and kick life in the ass for once instead of the other way around.