Happily Confused... (love life update and Twitch stream announcement) · 5:14pm Jul 10th, 2017
Has anyone else ever felt this way? Like you don't know what's gonna happen, but you just know it's gonna feel right? (No, not Shake Your Tail... this is serious) Thanks to the love of my friends (you guys) and family, (both biological and honorary, so some of you guys are my family, and you know who you are) I feel the happiest I've felt in a long time... I loved many of the wrong people, and even the right person at the wrong time, but now... I'm happy and confused and I wouldn't have it any other way. I love being confused by someone I can trust. It's "good confusion" (which may seem like an oxymoron but it isn't... there really is such thing as good confusion) like what makes me happy simply because I know I'm happy and don't know why. I know who makes me feel this way, and I know I love her, and I know nothing else and am happy with this blissful ignorance. If you tell me that anything's wrong with Rachel I'll deny it. I wasn't gonna say her name because most of you judgemental people hate her... like I used to. (for a reason even I can't fathom) Sure, she's told me a few lies and she's in love with more than one person... but I'm fine with sharing as long as I can have her. Love is like that. You share your heart with your friends, family, and in some cases (like this one) multiple lovers. You feel different things for each of them, but they're all just different kinds of love. So I'll sign you off not with my usual "Stay fly, my friends" bit... because we're like family. And I should treat you all as such. And Rachel... I'm sorry for all the lies I told and secrets of yours that I spilled... I know that you've already forgiven me for those mistakes I made. Just like I've already forgiven you for yours. I've been rambling at this point... rambling about love and what it is and who I feel it for. I want to do what I love with whom I love, so I'm gonna stream for three or four days in a row... anyone with Twitch can watch, and anyone without it should create an account because you're not gonna wanna miss this. My birthday is in two days, and so one of the "days in a row" that I'm streaming will be that day. I'm finally excited for my birthday again... and I haven't been for the past three years! (I'm 19 going on 20 in case you were wondering)
Until next time...
Stay fly my peeps (told you I wouldn't call you friends in the sign off)
Sky out!
Congratulations, my friend!
Well I'm glad you are feeling happy.
And in case I can't tell you on the day, happy birthday