Roughing it. · 9:50am May 7th, 2017
I’m still working on roughing out chapter 61 of Bloom Filter. It’s going... slowly. I keep a buffer of (at most) 3 chapters, so the Sunday after next might be my last weekly update for... a while. The good news is, my other active story Returning Home is going well, and the crazy chapter 14 just about wrote itself. ...yes I waited a stupid amount of time before posting it here. Eventually the buffer for that’ll catch up too.
I just can’t seem to write 1 chapter per story, per week. Maybe I could write more if I could stop going on 6 hour marathons of browsing pretty pictures on derpibooru, or perhaps if I could get out and exercise 15 whole minutes a day, or get myself to sleep before 2am since my nights are ones of boringly predictable existential dread, that I can only sooth by constant, unrelenting escapist fantasies Oh and maybe if I had any friends I could actually go places with and help out, then I wouldn't be so understimulated that my stories of friendship, camraderie, loving families and meaningful adventures just feel like a very hypocritical cry for help.
But, until then, I'm gonna have to have a writing limit of (less than) 354K per month, or 69,000 words divided among two stories. (If it was one story I could actually do NaNoWriMo, and heaven forbid I allow myself even a meaningless success like that!) Honestly I don't think that rate is all too shabby, if only it didn't consume every moment of the time that I have for myself. As opposed to the other 90% of my day lost to terrible trivium. And why the heck haven't I so much as touched a stylus in 20 days? Oh sure I'll practice drawing first thing next morning, just like I failed to do the last 20 mornings.
Yeah I'm totally in such a good mood. But I swear I'm not like, extra depressed or anything. I just have some troubles that impede me, and don't really know any solutions that wouldn't involve thumbing my nose at y'all, dropping my computer in a garbage crusher, and going to live in a monestary.
Sorry, Ferret; I'm not sure what, if anything, I can say to help. I'm glad some of the writing is going well, at least?
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I'm fine, I just have problems. It's not like I'm backsliding, just up against a wall that doesn't have an obvious way to get past. Especially with this lull in transformation themed fics these days, I really wish I could contribute more.
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Ah. Well, good luck.