FINALLY! · 2:34am Apr 21st, 2017
I fucking finished it! Finally!
Holy shit!
This is actually the first multi-chapter fanfiction I've ever finished writing. I'm quite proud.
On the other hoof...
There are some problems with the story, I feel. If I could start over, having never published this at all, I'd write something very different. The story would be more... unified. The voice and Pinkie and other things would appear from start to finish. Each chapter would be building up to the finale. That would probably mean fewer chapters with more words.
See, writing this story, I had no grand plan. I had a goal: take a normal Twilight. And torture her. Just put her through every bit of hell I could imagine. And in some ways, I succeeded. But her madness towards the end feels... sudden. Forced. Not quite right. Maybe its cause I don't have a degree in psychology, maybe its just the way I wrote it. Who knows.
Does anypony know?
In any case, I wrote chapters for this story based on a single dark idea that entered my brain. One idea, one chapter. Not all of those ideas were winners.
Still. I finished it. I love the last chapter. I finally came up with a naming convention that worked. And a lot of people seem to have liked the story. So that's cool!
Now what the hell am I going to do with my time?
Heh. I certainly know how you feel about thinking you could have done better after the fact. Now, I know I'm not exactly any sort of 'expert' in getting characters to change in a way that feels right, but...
What I say, is if you think Twilight's change feels forced, the best thing to do would be to try and pick 'milestones' of insanity to follow. Try to progress from milestone to milestone in a smooth and unforced way, and before you know it, the entire thing should flow smoothly.
What to do with your time? Write more! Write original stories! Write a sequel to your own story! Anything, really, as long as you keep writing and improving yourself.