Oct
10th
2016
My Dad is dead · 12:53am Oct 10th, 2016
So...
My dad left when I was 5. Never really talked to him. He looked me back up in 2012 and I was... just not ready I guess? My big sister found out he died last year and I just... I dunno I don't feel sad? I don't think...
But...
Last night I was watching an old home movie. I'm just a toddler in it probably 18 months. We're at the zooquarium. My Dad is there lifting me up onto a statue. (he was paralyzed 3 months before my birth) and you can see he is so happy...
I guess I AM sad but i'm sad for what could have been. So...
Rest in Peace to the Daddy I would have had if not for drugs. In another universe...
Ha... and now I just had a tear run down my cheek.
I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. I give you my condolences. And, It's alright to be sad. We all have things that we wish were different, but the most important thing is to remember what you have and had. No one can ever take your past away from you.
Sorry to hear that. *hugs you*
write this all down somewhere. maybe a journal? sorry to hear you never had the chance.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry for you loss. My father passed last year as well, it was long drawn out fight and I still miss him. I too have regrets and wishes that things had been different. If ever you need someone to speak with, I am available. I will pray for you and family.
i can relate my dad left when i was just 2 i never really even knew him in 2003 we found out he was dead
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It's a weird feeling isn't it?
I'm sorry for your loss, Foals. I wish you peace of mind. *hugs*
Also *hugs*
That's quite a burden for a person to carry, Foals. I hope you can work out your feels and that sharing your story has helped that process.
I understand.
its like some one killed your mom and dad and you findout who did it but you don't want revenge or feel sad because, well you never knew them.
Hugs
For all our differences... I'm here if you want to talk.
I know how is it to have that absence.
My dad left when I was... I think about 9, and my brothers were even younger. Still, he had... I dunno, I think they were more like placating gestures than outright consideration for us, but it was still something.
Then, nothing.
He's still alive, though I don't know where.
All I'm saying is that you have my condolences, that I know a little bit of that feeling, and you can PM me if you'd like.
I am sorry.
*hugs*
I... i can't find anything to say....
I'm sorry
*hugs* I can relate to you. My dad's mother died when he was 18, 24 years before I was born, from cancer. His father refused to have anything to do with the family; therefore, I never got to really meet him. He died around Christmas 2010, without me knowing what he looked or sounded like, let alone get know him. Almost six years later and I'm still not sure how I feel about him dying.
As for my mother's family? Her father and I talk with each other and spend time together, but her mother has a lot of... problems. It's a complicated situation, but in short, it keeps me from really getting to know her and she doesn't have much time left.