Camp is ridiculously hard but I lived! · 5:06am Aug 12th, 2016
Camp is ridiculously hard guys. It's really hard. Sleep away camp is very hard. The camp location, the admin staff, the kids (mostly teenagers), and even the councilors themselves were difficult to deal with.
The location was hard to deal with as it was mostly hills. I'm not kidding. There are almost no flat locations at all. The only flat place is the pool and some of the units. Only some, because most of the others have minor tilts and even lots of roots and trees. We (the adults) were shoved into a single cabin (couldn't be any larger than a 12 by 12 ft room or something), with five to six people in there. We had one bed to ourselves and a single end table. For any *things* we had. There was a building for our break time/evening off, but that was shared and wasn't really a place for anything but food stuff we wanted to have extra.
And don't get me started on the food. We had to share a certain amount of food with six or seven people (six kids and one more adult). There was never enough. We had to set the example of how much to take for younger kids so they shared with one another and actually finish their plate. Then we didn't have much time afterwards to get more food. AND! There were days when we cooked over a campfire. Those were so much fun. There were hot dogs (only one, maybe two for lucky adults) and walking tacos. What's a walking taco you ask? Why, it's a single snack bag of chips with a scoop of beef and dash of lettuce. 
We were starving most of the time.
But not only did we have these fun things to contend with (as well as hot as fuck weather), but then there was the people themselves. Kids will be kids. I picked a tough crowd to work with in general because kids can really try your patience. Teenagers especially. My first week had an older group of teens who knew they were the popular kids and didn't want this goofy councilor telling them what to do. So they made trouble for me and made my life at camp that much harder. Otherwise, the kids were ok. There were some others who were tough to work with (one other councilors had deemed the 'devil child' being among the tough kind 
). But then it became more of the staff I was working with.
Most of them were fresh from high school. 18, 19 and 20s. I was the middle ground. And that's saying something. I was often the oldest there, unless one of the 40+ year olds were near by. My tastes (gaming, my little pony, writing, reading and so on) are different from the others (for the most part). How I acted, how I interacted with the kids, how I interact with other adults, all different. So some of them tried to make things hard for me. They would ignore what I said, ditched me with all the work (cleaning and such), and eventually I found that while I liked to talk to some, no one really wanted to seek me out. Unless it was a kid. I made more friends with kids than I did with the adults.
Then there was the upper management staff. The dumb upper management staff. These people can't make up their minds about anything. They say not to gossip, but then they don't shut up when others go inside so therefore THEY end up gossiping. They say to keep communication open, but they are the first to seem unresponsive to some of the staff when they present a problem. The camp director herself yelled at some of the staff over minor things; like physically yelled. Because I didn't talk to them one week (week 5) they thought I had become sullen (just because I was distracted and focused on the good ish week I was having). So they demoted me to a program staff (a teacher position) from being a unit leader (a person in charge of both the kids and other councilors). Except that they already had program staff. And all the jobs were taken. So I was the extra useless extra hand. I just did the odd jobs and helped where I could, because I didn't have anything to do. Then in the last week, I was just assigned to cleaning. Just cleaning. And organizing.
It was driving me crazy. 
Like, a prison breakdown of mind and body. I couldn't write anything because until the last few weeks, I was just too busy. Then towards the end, I was just too tired. So I haven't been able to do anything. But boy do I want to now. To help this, I re-read some of my latest chapters and now really want to write. But I have to clean everything before I worry about any mess spreading from my stuff that had been at camp. And clean my place. Haven't touched it in months. >.> May have a mouse and definitely some fleas now. *Mutter mutter* animals.
There were some fun/good parts of camp. It's just hard to remember them all with all the bad memories in the way. Some kids were fun, the junior councilors were fun to tease. I did connect with some of the councilors (mostly over harry potter). I enjoyed swimming with the kids. Even if I did hurt my knee and spent two weeks and a half weeks unable to swim.
Hopefully you guys don't mind that I have been gone so long. But I need the money guys, I have to make it in the world before I can write for fun. You may see me trying to sell art things (drawings, clay, pyrographies) and whatnot on my deviantart, while doing other things to hopefully earn some spare cash. Because if not that means I'm going to have to find a new job and that takes more time and effort. So hopefully this all works out. We shall wish for the best. We will do it!
Guess what? I probably forgot things in this blog. Amazing but I just have this feeling.... Anyways, story updates may be coming soon (ish). (But not extremely soon, like in a few weeks or so. Maybe. We'll see.) See you there! 
EDIT: Yes, I had to edit this. I wrote it late at night and was a little tired. And realized that I swore a little, so I've changed some things in the blog. And added a few lines. See, I knew I forgot things!
4145456 Duuuuuuuuudde, you haven't heard the language I used to officially described this camp. I know that there are younger folk on this website, and censored myself. This was the "I'll watch my words" version
It was baaaaaaaad.
Nice to hear from ya though. Found any good stories? I haven't read much of anything over the last three months.
Yeah I don't think I've ever seen you swear, but maybe you are just censoring yourself during Skype chats.
4145638 ........
guess I censor myself a lot then. I actually cuss like a sailor guys. I can get really bad. But I know most public places and conversations don't like it, so I try to make sure I don't go overboard.
....... maybe I should take out what little there is in this blog
4145731 nah don't bother, there are a lot worse things on this site.
4146232 ........... I may have impulsed bought Fallout 4. And my computer can barely play it.... So now I have to update my computer a little... This does not help my bank account. So I have to be careful about balancing it all.
I understand, I do.
4146253 Yep, which is why I had impulsed bought it. I am amused by the set up and some of the quests and things, so I can enjoy the games. That and it allows for the inner pack rat in me to just take everything that isn't nailed down. And making/adjusting my own home location just brings a great satisfaction to me.