Here Go Many Things · 5:56am Jul 23rd, 2016
Do you ever get that really awkward feeling, where you haven't done something, or spoken to someone in a while? Like a relative moves away and emails you sometimes, and every time they do you think 'Man, I've got so much to tell them, and not much time! I'll catch them up on everything when I've got more time.' Except you never really get the time, and before you know it it's been months and you still haven't made fictional characters entrance and fuck each other?
Yeah.
That.
What makes this situation awkward is that... I don't really feel too bad about this. Allow me to explain.
When I started 'In Which' over a year ago, I... Well, I was in a bad place. My family - whom I still lived with at the time - was slowly coming apart, my mind was turning to very, very dark things, I didn't have any steady source of income, and I was still dealing with the struggles that come from the early stages of being a functional adult. I literally did not have anything to do but write... So I did. It was how I vented. On my alt, I wrote what I felt like; I wrote my characters falling apart, just so I could put them back together, secretly hoping I'd be able to pull myself together.
And I did.
Now, exactly one year, one month, one week and one day later, I'm in a much better place. My family has recovered, I've got a steady full-time job, I've found support and friends and ways of coping, and I'm well on my way to being... Well, alive. What this means, though, is that... Frankly, I can't write nearly as much any more as I used to. I work eight hours a day, and spend the other 16 sleeping, eating, preparing for work, and grudgingly bringing myself out of my shell. But now, when I get a brilliant idea, I can't rush to my computer and write it. I have to squash it for now and take yet another angry caller, or squash it for now because I'm out with my family, or it's three in the morning and I have work at eight tomorrow.
I don't regret changing myself one single bit. But I do regret making promises to all of you and then letting you down. It hurts me every day when I look at my page and see you all waiting so patiently...
The long and short of things is this; I am finishing this story. And I am going to write more. I just... I need to find a way to do it in a way that fits my new life. I hope you all aren't too put out by this - Let's be honest, compared to top-tier stuff like FiMC and Universal Acceptance, I'm nothing special - but... Just... Thank you, thank you all. You were here for me, and I hope seeing me better is enough of a reward to tide you over until I can get around to writing this damn finale. Writing finales are haaaard. ;-;
Until next time.
再见，我的朋友们。
Go n-eírí an bóthar leat.
Sorry to hear about the bad times, glad to hear of the good. Know that come what may, we'll be here for you. And if you ever need an ear, drop me a PM. Good to have you back, and take your time!
Glad you're doing so much better.
just keep hacking away at it. The only thing we expect is for you to do your best and to keep trying.
The simple fact that you are writing it means you're doing great.
Oh, and good job on turning your life around! If you can do that, i'm sure you can squeeze out a few words when you have the time.
take your time dude^^ I know EXACTLY how you fell^^ its the same for me^^
No sweat, and welcome back. Just keep yourself steady and find the time where you can find it.