Reading through old stories · 8:41am May 30th, 2016
So I was reading through some of my old stories and wow was I shitty. My 17 year old self used to wonder why I wasn't getting very many story views and now I see why. I SUCKED. To anyone who follows me I must have been a real nice guy for you to actually keep up to date with my shitty stories. 
Seriously though, have you ever gone through your Facebook and seen posts from like 6 years ago and you were like, "Wow what was I thinking?". Yeah, same situation here.
I'm rambling now, but you're reading it so you must give a damn. I haven't written in years but I feel like I could write a 1000 word, unedited comedy story and it would still be better than my most successful story. (Which actually did decent I have no idea how.) If you read the "Lust into Love" story I wrote a while ago, I'd like to know how any of you found that entertaining. (A FUCKING CUCUMBER? WAS I DOWNED BACK THEN?!)
I'm deathly serious I'd like to know how any of you found that good. Maybe it wasn't as bad as I think it is, and I'm being hard on myself, but it's pretty bad. I just read it and it's not the next Past Sins I can tell you that right now.
I'm thinking of making this the title page of all my stories. Relates to the story quite well.
I'm impressed if you made it this far, this is kind of like a diary entry in a way. The only difference is that instead of a teenage girl writing to a book I'm a grown man writing to other grown men. The teenage girl would probably have better grammar then me too, but whatever. I'm just writing my thoughts down hopefully someone reads them.
Don't worry, I have definitely experienced something very similar. There have been moments where I will be sitting randomly, either in the car or in the shower, and then I will get a sudden flashback to something I did or experienced in my youth, and I would just facepalm and cringe as if half expecting people of back then can see it and I experience it all over again. On my other fanfiction account before I changed my email and user name, I used to write for South Park and some of the things are weird.
In general though I tend to think more of the worst of what I write, but I definitely know what you are talking about and mean. I liked reading your stories.... course, now I haven't read a single fanfic or done a lot of writing, because of a deadly illness known as Video Game Procrastination disease. I am pretty much terminal. I still check back occasionally to make sure I didn't miss anything important. I also haven't watched much of the show past On Your Marks. I don't hate the show, I have a few private stories for friends and ideas, but I haven't watched a lot of the show and am now six episodes behind.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you aren't as bad as you think you are. Course, I feel the same way, too hard on myself, but you shouldn't be hard on yourself.
3983062 I know how you feel, I've been living with Video Game Procrastination Disease for 17 years.
I know some people liked my stories, but I look at them now and I just think, "Wow I could have made this sooooo much better."