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kudzuhaiku


She's looking at you. Yes you. And she is judging you with her eyes. There is no escape.

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  • 55 weeks
    It's late

    But my brain isn't quiet. I'm stoned out of my goddamn gourd. Don't worry, it is just my usual regimen of drugs. That's how I spent a lot of my time now. Wasted. Doesn't really help with the pain much, but makes it a bit more tolerable. All of my drugs cost over 5 grand a month. That's what it takes to keep me going. I'm in somewhat better shape because of all of it, and there's a few bright

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  • 65 weeks
    Cyborgification is potentially a-go

    Finally found a doctor that didn't run screaming upon seeing my spine images and xrays. The team is coming together. Met with the neurosurgeon the other day, and he thinks I am an ideal candidate for augmentation. The transition is happening, I think. I still have to pass a psych evaluation and other steps, but I am closer now than ever. First I'll have the trial run; they'll sink electrodes into

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  • 95 weeks
    Today, life changes forever.


    It's been a long, long road to get to this point. A big thank you to everyone who has been with me during this journey.

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  • 95 weeks
    Big changes are happening


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  • 118 weeks
    I suppose it is time for an update

    Been meaning to this, and I've become the King of Pro-Crasty Nation. I kept wanting to report, but there was nothing to report, no good news at all, so I just... didn't. Sorry. Went a bit silent on my end. It just sorta happened.

    I finally got a lawyer willing to take up my case. After that, things started happening.

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Aug
16th
2015

Writing the current chapter of The Weed · 12:51am Aug 16th, 2015

I started to listen to this.

Suddenly, everything was in perfect clarity. I knew what I needed to listen to so I could better express Tarnished Teapot's and Maud Pie's love. quirky Leonard Cohen love songs. Mang, all of a sudden, I was feeling the love.

I had this beautiful moment of clarity where I could identify with characterisation. Especially with the song Iodine, which has the Phil Spector Wall of Sound effect going on. Eh, there is a reference that is probably lost on most of the people reading this, but that's okay. :pinkiehappy:

I needed you, I knew I was in danger
of losing what I used to think was mine
You let me love you till I was a failure,
You let me love you till I was a failure --
Your beauty on my bruise like iodine
I asked you if a man could be forgiven
And though I failed at love, was this a crime?
You said, Don't worry, don't worry, darling
You said, Don't worry, don't you worry, darling
There are many ways a man can serve his time

I just hope that this post will get at least one person listening to Leonard Cohen.

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Comments ( 1 )

As long as it's not the bittersweet "my love life failed. Now I am melancholy, lonely, and old, but it's not that bad, I guess."

On the other hand, I see Hallelujah's bittersweet ending as weirdly triumphant... just not the raincoat song.

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