May
15th
2015
It's been a whilw · 9:42pm May 15th, 2015
I'm sorry for the long absence and lack of writing. I've been... busy to say the least. What with life and all.
Today was my last day of high school. I'm... a graduate. I've finished... it's over.
Is it supposed to feel this empty, this anticlimactic and shallow? Its almost meaningless yet it feels like everything is falling apart and coming together at the same time. I feel like I'm still a Sophomore goofing around but I'm... I'm so far away from that life. I've never been further.
So what now? What is it that I've got left to do?
How do I continue now that the path has been taken from me? No more clear progression, no more predictability.
Yet... I almost feel like I know how to continue.
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Cydox Crescent · 415 views
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you okay man?
3071756 I'm feeling crushed. I'm dealing with colleges and all that... I'm trying to get my life sorted out.
3071778 not to be rude or anything, and i apologize ahead of time if i offend you, but that's just life hitting you hard. i went through something like that when the end of high school hit me.
3071853 I know, it's just hard to face alone. My family isn't that reliable.
3071867 i get that man, really do. do you have anyone who you might be close to that could potentially provide an empathetic ear?
3071895 Girlfriend. But she's busy with trying to finish school. Her school's finals are kinda killing her and I'd rather not bother her.
3072116 i see man. i would offer some help, but it's better to get that sorts of things from people you are close to. makes a bigger impact and whatnot.
3072141 I appreciate the sentiment. As for now I'm just going to relax this weekend.
3072286 a little bit of r&r is always good, no matter the reason
3072288 Yeah R&R sounds nice. To bad I'm kind of stupid and decided to bike 15 miles today. Haha it feels good to stretch my freedom but I hadn't touched a bike in two years and my legs are killing me.
3072753 I doubt I'll let myself have that mouth free time. I'll have to work a lot to put myself through college so what little time I have off I'll be studying or hanging with loved ones.
3073657 i could imagine man. haven't touched a bike in that long either and i was a pretty heavy bicyclist. think if i go bike as hard as i'd use to, nothing good could come of it for me. you know, besides the cardio and being out of the house and such.