A Mistake · 12:03am May 24th, 2014
I made a mistake and now I'm hurting. I'm crying and I'm clutching my chest and sitting with this laptop not knowing what to write to make this pain go away. I was so foolish. So so foolish.
I'm sitting here wondering why it's man's nature to love. Why did this trait that causes so much grief evolve with us? Why are we so willing to open ourselves up to so much pain at the slight chance of happiness?
A Pond Beyond is now on hiatus. I'm in no mood to try and write that dead end of a chapter. My Spikiara story will still be worked on though.
I wish I could take back what I had said to her. I'd still feel this pain, but at least she wouldn't know why I'm crying. I just want to tell her sorry.
You know, I might just be over reacting. I'm sorry for bothering you all. It might hurt, but ... it's not like it'll kill me.
it's all good mman. When it comes to problems, you gotta let it all out.Mistakes are a part of life, they help us learn in the future. Not easy, but they're important.
2139376 I know, I know. It's just that I knew she would never, could never feel the same way about me. I told her in pure desperation, and now what was a tiny hole in a gaping emptiness.
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unless she's a lesbian or already taken, that statement is never true, trust me
Now, telling her how you feel is definitely the best route to go, even if it was awkward and painful. If not, you'd regret never trying. And besides, girls respect guys who are up front and honest. It's a good and respectable trait for a relationship
2139395 No she literally could never feel that way about me. She never felt that way about anyone. She's not attracted to anyone, male and female. I knew this, she was my friend... but I couldn't stop how I felt. And when I found out she was moving... I got scared.
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2139410 you needed to tell her man. It was the best way to go to get it out there. .I speak from experience. you'd end up regretting it if not, and if she really is your friend,this won't come between you in the long run
We open ourselves up for companionship. We were designed genetically to be weak when by ourselves. But with others, we are strong. We are safe. And so the body makes us want to be with others, even if we have get hurt some just so we can feel safe. I should know. I'm lonely.
2139451 I know.
2139461 We're made for companionship, but we're not made to be dumb enough to give someone our hearts and a hammer to smash it with. Yet ... we are at the same time, and that confuses me. I'm used to loneliness. But I was given little piece of companionship and I wanted just a bit more and I know I can never get it. That is worse than straight loneliness, because you feel what you are missing and you know you will never get enough of it from the one you want it from.
2139478 I suppose. The human is an overly complex creature, whether we like it or not. But I have to agree with Famous. You should tell her, it will take quite the load off your chest. I've been in a similar situation. In my case, I got shot down, but I still felt better afterwards.
2139572 I've already told here. That is why I feel like I've had Link rip into my chest and take my last heart container.
The drama! Don't worry my man. Love is a complicated thing and I'm sure if you not give up and start fighting you will certally win this fight!
2139593 But do I want to win? Why must I must look at love as a fight or a battle? Why must we make love out to be two armies lining up and preparing apologies and defences, and not - instead - as a mutual hope of our collective minds to be happy? I know I'm hurting now, but at least I feel something. I know the pain will fade, but I want to keep it to remember who she was to me.
2139615 There's no shame to have to fled from a battle you don't want. But remember to learn from the past and succed on the future.
2139685 I know. I just hate feeling like this. It'll fade.
2139691 Well it could be worse. You just need to move on. Wish you good luck!
2139887 I know, I know. I've been talking to people, getting everything out of me ...
2140047 Tried that. People got bored after the ninth "All work and no play makes Caleb a dull boy" joke.
2141076 You mean that racist guy who did the harlem shake video?
2141091 no thanks, I have TomSka
2141181 ... Thomas is british. Plus I'm not really much for Frank's humor. Now, time to finish season 3 of Supernatural.
2141218 It's coming. I'm just trying to figure out how to set up the game. You see, Flutters, Opaque, Melody, Turner, and all the others ... they have a little task ahead of them ... If one dies, it'll be a shame, but the game must go on ... the answer must be found.