My time... is coming to an end · 1:30am Mar 12th, 2015
Guess what tomorrow is... tomorrow is my birthday. It will be my twentieth birthday.
You'd think my birthday would be something I would be excited for and happy about. But... it's not. It's a crushing reminder that I live in reality. That I am coming closer to finishing my college courses. You see. My parents are letting me live with them while I go to college, and as of late I've been spending a little too much time around fimfiction. Turning twenty has made me realize this.
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This is really hard for me to say. But I... I have to go. I have to leave fimfiction. Not like last time when I left and gave my account to Soundwave and then came back. I mean leave for good.
Why? You're probably asking. Because I've wasted so much time just sitting on here when most of the time there's not much going on, and the big problem with that is that I never intended to get this involved in the community. I came to write and learn about fiction and the art of creating it. For over two years I've spent countless days wanting to write, but get sidetracked. My biggest distraction was also my biggest success. Rage Reviews.
I never expected it too be such a success! I never thought I'd come to know some cool people on this site. I've made memories here. And none of them are from writing stories. I feel like I've made a connection to people. A type of friendship that I've never actually had in my school years. This is going to sound totally cheesy, but I've never used to wonder what friendship could be, until you all shared it's magic with me!
And this is why it's so, so hard to put myself through this. I know if I don't stop, if I just say that I won't be on as much, I know that I'll just go right back into the habit. No. It's not because of drama or responsibilities with the group, it's about my personal life. I have this passion that wants out. I thought fimfiction could help me get that creativity to grow and sprout. That's exactly what I got. I did learn a lot, don't get me wrong, but I didn't do as much as I really wanted to.
My fimfiction days are coming to a close, and for me to focus on something that I've been trying to avoid: my future. I've been making empty promises to myself that I'll do this and I'll do that, when in the end I get stuck either on here or just fu*king around! No progress is ever made!
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I have to stop. I have to make this painfully hard decision to quit doing what I love to pursue that in which I came here for in the first place. Writing is how I can communicate. I've never and still am unable to speak or talk with this much emotion and emphasis. In real life I may plan out something to say and just trip over my words and say something that was no where near as profound as to what I had in mind. Writing is different. There's no fear of messing up because I can alway fix what I say. I'm not the same person in real life as the one you see here on fimfiction.
But you don't have to worry just yet. I'm not leaving this second. I will leave in august. I will be attending bronycon, and hopefully have a meet up with those from Rage Reviews. I will write as much as I can during this short amount of time that I have given myself. I'm going to write one, actually two new stories. I'll give more details another time. But for one of them, I plan on writing one chapter per month, up until august where I will write the last chapter, publish it, have some final words in the author's notes, and that will be it. Goodbye Broadway.
I don't know what you all think of this. If you all believe I'm being a sissy and taking this whole ordeal out of proportion. But I've already told you how much this group, this community have impacted me as a person. I'm leaving a lot of people behind, so it's not easy because I've never had to do such a thing. It's you people that make me want to stay.
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I can't.
My time here is coming to an end. And a new chapter will finally unfold. No matter how much I may love this part of my life. Everything has an end. But fortunately, that time has yet to come. So I will value my time here as much as possible. I don't want to end this blog on a sad note. If in a year or two that I get my life straightened out, and I find time... then there could be a possibility you will see Broadway return.
I'm going to miss you so much. You're such an awesome person, and even if you decide to not return to FiMFiction, I hope that we somehow cross paths one day. I wish you the absolute best and will always support you no matter what. Stay awesome, my friend.
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I'll never forget you, buddy.
2868809 Same here.
*hugs*
Farewell fearless leader! It's sad to see you go, but I support you in all of this. Also did not realize that we're in the same age group (I'll be turning twenty in July if you're wondering)!
Farewell, Ms. Belle, I hoped you enjoyed being here on FiMFiction. We will sure miss you. I'll continue writing in your memory.
We will never forget you, your eternal flame will never go out.
I wish you luck, my friend. See you around.
I'll miss ya buddy.
Wait till you hit 22. Then that's when things start going downhill. (I'm 22)
I'm going to miss you. I'm going to miss being your prereader, I'm going to miss reading your stories and most of all I'm going to miss interacting with you. I hope you do decide to come back to fimfiction.net someday.
It's almost August. Is there a reason why the next chapter of Brothers To The End isn't ready? I was really hoping that it would be finished before you leave. Is there a problem? Maybe we can help.