The Legend of the Legend of the Sapphire Cave · 2:40am Feb 12th, 2015
A long time ago, I talked about writing more of The Legend of the Sapphire Cave. I'll be straight with you. The reason you've seen nothing is that I've written barely anything for it. I have another two thousand or so words of draft and discarded drafts and a general idea where it's going, not a lot by anyone's standards.
The story began as an idea and spark of creativity - but it also began as an emotional vent. That's how it became the darkest, most fucked-up story I've ever exposed to the public (there's much worse I've only ever shown to a select few in private). When I wrote and edited chapter five - AKA the worst yet - it was an alternative to another suicide attempt. Similarly, Freedom was written (both chapters actually, it lasted a while) when what I really wanted to do was walk in front of a bus.
It's been a long time, not to mention a lot of therapy. I'm not in that place anymore, and I'm glad of that...
... but it also means I can't let myself in on that level of darkity-dark fuckeduppery (that's a word now). It was a vent and a relief and a really, really unhealthy thing. For the past few years I've referred to it as equivalent to cutting, and it really, really is. And when I'm in a better place, this kind of material actually throws me back into a more depressive fog. I'm not doing that anymore. I can't do that anymore. Writing, in particular, requires dwelling on it. I can't let myself do that.
The story is cancelled, people. I'm sorry. I could just end it here, as the end of Chapter 5 is an okay end to the story (if one which leaves too many things unanswered), but I said I'd give it to you straight.
I might release a little of my incomplete work, or notes on where it was going to go, or something. It's also possible I'll be writing more some years down the road when I'm actually equipped to handle the material without hurting myself in the process, or if something really awful needs venting again, or something, I don't know. It would be a good idea to not hold your breath.
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We've been (best) friends for awhile now and gone through rough patches together. It's unfortunate Sapphire Cave will be cancelled, but I think it's better to work on fics to express your creative talents rather than produce personal anguish.
Without you, my creative talent wouldn't be where it is now. Thank you for being there for me as I have been there for you. Wherever the road takes us, I'll always stick along.
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Thank you. That's sappy as fuck and I love it.
Well, it might not mean much coming from me, but I am glad to hear that you're doing better.
Whoa. When did I start following you?
I didn't know you had a bit of a dark side to you.
2790822
Very dark. I only have one non-dark story that isn't RanDumb, actually.
And I don't know. Probably related to Christian Bronies or Anti-Depression Ponies, though.
2790314
Graci.
2790891
Good. Dark is good.
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Not for me, but I'm not unpublishing anything this time.
2790969
I don't think I've read any of your stories before.
If you don't write dark now, then what's coming up for the future?
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I don't know yet. First I'm finishing a rewrite on a less-dark thing, and then I don't know for sure. Ongoing process stuff, and such.
2791050
With some more thought on it... this probably won't be the end of dark stories for me. Just... moving to a different kind of dark (and maybe something more amusing or uplifting or just outright non-dark, too) that isn't bad for me.
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!
Come to the dark side!
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You're kidding, right? I only have two-ish non-dark stories. I've been here all along.