Well I'm back... · 10:44pm Oct 16th, 2014
Now before I say anything you might want to have a few tissues handy just in case.
Do you have them? Okay good. Let me start off by letting you know I am alright for the most part. A little sore from all the tests at the hospital, but otherwise fine. Now on to the results of the tests and what I have been told. For those of you hoping that I was going to be getting better, I'm sorry to say this is where the bad news begins... the results of the tests proved that the shunt in my heart that they were hoping was there wasn't, so there is no easy way for me to get better.
(This is where things get a little heavy so if you cry easily you may want to leave now)
The worst news came right after this by the main doctor in charge. From what he saw in the tests he believes that not only am I not going to be getting better anytime soon, but my health is actually deteriorating. He looked me dead in the eye and said 'you will NOT live 30 more years'. They went on to tell me how fast my health seems to be declining and I did the calculations in my head. Basically what I got out of all of it was that 30 years was being generous... if what they say is correct I may only have around 10 to 15, lung transplant or not...
I am aware that is a decent amount of time compared to other things and many (if not all) who read this will have forgotten about me and my stories by the time I leave this world, but I feel like I need to vent this. Also I want to give what I consider words of wisdom. Live doing what makes you happy. Life is short and we only get one. Doing something you don't want to is a waste and when death can be around any corner, you shouldn't waste a single moment. Even if you believe in an afterlife, there is no excuse for tossing this one away... it's too beautiful to discard.
Thanks for listening and keep being awesome.
JasontheDemon
well now you've killed my good mood. it's a good thing that i just found RAGE again though. i'm going to go
cryshoot things in a blind rage at how i've just learned that two of my favorite authors on this site are slowly dying.2537225 Sorry. If it is any consolation I am going to keep writing.
2537278 well i figured that. i was trying to be slightly humorous by denying the fact that anything could make me cry when a lot of things have made me cry before. have you ever seen sword art online the anime? episode 3 made me cry so much.
2537282 Well if you are crying it had better be with a grin. I don't want anyone to be frowning when I finally do go... it's just the way I am.
2537290 oh well i wouldn't say that i'd cry. whenever it's something that directly affects me (like the death of an acquaintance or someone i really admire) i tend to just bottle it up and forget about it until...well i have yet to find out what happens when the bottle bursts.
I'm sorry to hear that
Though I'm going to be happy for what time we do have left. 
You've given us wonderful stories, and they will live on, as a pure expression of yourself.
I'll make sure to remember.
2537353 Thank you. That is a good way of looking at it.
With all regards, I send you my hope, After all, a lot can happen in a couple years. Don't lose hope!
Oh dear.
That wasn't a fun announcement.
All the best to you man, and; with that attitude, you'll prove the doctor wrong!
Also, thanks for the outro. Wise words were written.
Keep on keepin' on!
2537383
2537467 I'll do my best.
Damn...just..damn. I will not lie, when I read this, I did cry. If you do only have 10 to 15 years left, I hope that you will have some of the best years of your life. You may think I do not know what you feel like, but trust me, I do. It just turned out better for me in the end, for I had lived. I hope the same to you. And, if it does turn out for the worst, if you DO die, I will take the memories of you and your stories to my grave. I consider you a friend, even if you do not consider me one. Even if I am not your friend, does not mean you are not my friend. I hope that fate will turn out to be good for you in the end.
2537704 I consider everyone a friend unless they do something I can't forgive, and I like to think I'm pretty forgiving. As long as I breathe I will hope for the best, but that doesn't mean I wont be prepared for the worst. The way I see it, I have had a pretty good life all things considered, and if I do kick the bucket in the estimated time, I will make sure it will be with no regrets and a smile on my face.
2537763 No regrets, no sadness, no madness. Just happyness. That is a way to go, my friend. I just hope that time will not come for you as soon as estimated...