So here's what's up · 1:43am Jul 4th, 2014
Whoops, completely forgot about that whole "I'll post an update on my situation in the next few days" bit.
As you may or may not have noticed, I've barely updated anything since the year started, most importantly of which being my CMC fic. Rarely a day goes by that I don't think about it and how I left it on a big cliffhanger more than half a year ago. I may have a flair for being teasing and dramatic, but definitely not to that degree. Anyways, you all deserve an explanation, so I will get this out in the open.
I have not updated in so long because I have lost my motivation to do so.
When I first started writing, I wrote because I had a burning desire to write. It was a part of me that demanded I acted on, and I wouldn't be satisfied until I had written every last worthwhile thing my brain could think up. Now, I can't be bothered anymore. The story is in my head, but the desire to type away at it until it's on the computer screen is just not there anymore. It doesn't mean I would like to see you all have closure to my works in progress, I still desire that. It's just not enough for me to make my imagination into a reality.
Is this loss of creative drive because I'm drifting from the fandom? Maybe, maybe not. I have only seen a handful of episodes from season 4. For all I know, the CMC got their cutie marks already, and my story is no longer necessary. On the other hand, it may not just be limited to MLP. I seem to be losing the "spark" in me that makes me feel alive whenever I do something I enjoy. Video games, television, writing, music, it all just doesn't satisfy me like it should. I've been taking measurements to see if I can reclaim that spark, but it's not an easy process.
Whatever the reason, I am highly doubtful that End of the Crusades will reach a satisfying end anytime soon. That isn't to say it never will, but if it ever does continue, I am not certain if I will be the one to finish it. The future of the fic is up in the air is all I can say.
This is not a farewell message. I'm still reading stories, checking messages, and leaving comments around the site, and I will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. This is just to let you know that I still care to some degree about my stories and my fans, and while it's possible I will eventually depart from this place, I know for certain that all of you deserve closure. If things change, I will certainly update to keep you all informed.
Until next time,
-TimeBomb0
Wow, it has been a long time. I completely forgot about this story until this blog.
The CMC have not gotten their cutie marks yet. So, you're still safe. Also I wish you the best with finding that spark again, it's a tough road sometimes, but I hope you can pull through.
if it makes you feel better, I feel the same way with my story.