Some new developments and tidbits · 1:48pm Jul 1st, 2014
So first off I will say that I've begun writing something. It's not anything fantastic, I'm really just trying out something that I've been sitting on for a long time. Writing isn't really my specialty, but I've just been feeling like smacking some keys in quick succession.
I'll hold off on any details because it might just fall limply to the ground with nary a thud. Like Defcon, that other story that came after it, and The Commonwealth. Damn that's a name and a bit. "The Commonwealth".
For those who are curious; The Commonwealth is my favorite novel trilogy of all time which is written by Peter F. Hamilton. I fucking loved those books and the universe that Mr. Hamilton painted. Enough to want to do a crossover. Something that would be fairly easy in a sci-fi world where humans have the technology to create wormholes to anywhere they want.
Another thing is that I'm getting back into the RC hobby. Mainly planes, and hopefully a discus-launch glider such as the Dream-Flight Libelle. That one is still to be decided, as I want to inspect the capabilities of my new DX6i transmitter that I have ordered, and to assess the condition of my Aurora 9 that I just found. Though I need to buy a new battery as the original one is borked from not being used in over a year, so I'm still unsure of whether it even works or not. I hope it does, because it's a really really good transmitter that feels good to use and functions amazingly for what it costs.
Though you're probably more interested in the models rather than the devices used to control them, so I'll tell you that the models I'll have functioning will be a Blade Nano QX and a Radjet that I have coming in the mail, as well as my T-Rex 450 Sport. A 3D capable helicopter that almost scares me. It's less the fact that it's hard to control, and more... actually, yeah, it's pretty difficult to rein in. But not because it's a bad model or anything. In fact, it's the best and most expensive model I own. It just accelerates like nothing else and has to be controlled precisely.
So yeah. New things and all that. You probably don't even care, or aren't even reading. Actually, why don't you leave a comment if you've read this blog post? It doesn't have to include anything, even though it would be nice to read what YOU (yes, you) think. Just so I know if there is even a point to writing here.
Seems like an odd occurrence to find another person with similar thoughts to my own, only judging from the writing on this blog post. I was "dual-diagnosed" with Asperger's Syndrome and ADHD between 5-7 years of age, and my own life has mostly been...turbulent, for a lack of better words. I've only recently begun opening the floodgates to my own suppressed, deliberately forgotten past; to try and glean answers from events long forgotten and shrouded in the haze of memory.
And what I've been finding is...unsettling; I apparently saw far more than a prepubescent boy is ever really supposed to see (no, not "pr0n", it was an unfiltered look at the "evils of humanity"). And that's the beginning of my own personal story, in my opinion.
We can speak more, if you're interested. I have a Facebook profile, a Steam account, and a number of other "online identities" if you are interested.
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I'm wondering about your decision to approach me in the way that you have. I assume the reason is probably related to your mental conditions, hence the awkward request for friendship, or at the very least acquaintanceship.
I appologise for my bluntness, but I tend to prefer cutting to the chase. I am a little confused as I tend to be ignored by people on here, so It's not common at all to be approached in the manner that you have.
The question is: why? Why is it that you want to talk to me of all people.
2299254 Why? To be blunt on what your post would imply; you've experienced much of the same anguish that I have. And I find myself drawn to people with similar experiences with the harshness of people in general. As to how I approached you, I attempted to be as direct with my reasoning as I thought possible; I dislike "dodgy" ways of speaking to people, in both directions.
Is it really so odd to seek out people that have experience with the same kind of emotion over-sensitivity? Anguish that was painfully intense for me, and left me with an overwhelming urge to tear my own beating heart from my chest, and crush it in my hand.
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I don't mind the fact that you're comfortable with approaching someone who you think has experienced anguish as you've put it. But I'm not exactly a member of the "my life sucked so now I'm edgy" club. I got around my problems and put them in the past. There isn't a reason why I should make things worse by brooding. And how have you gathered that I'm edgy? Have you been reading through my blog posts? Half of those are probably full of spat that is barely relevant today.
2299447 It was less a case of "my life sucked, now I'm edgy", and more a case of "I was naive, then I was "hit with reality" with an almost traumatic intensity before 10 years of age". All emotions exist in all people; some are simply more adept at hiding specific ones than others. I became adept at hiding my internal anguish, since I figured "they're called "personal issues" for a reason"; I only sought help when the issues became potentially catastrophic in nature (obviously, that wasn't always the best way to handle myself).
I don't expect you to "keep brooding", but I figure we can both glean wisdom by sharing what we've experienced, and I've only lived 21 years of life myself. And I never assumed you were "edgy", but I did figure that like me, you've had a somewhat "troubled past".
Life has shaped me rather...harshly. I don't like filtering facts of existence with "sugar and rainbows", but I utterly despise the "pandemic of apathy", as well.
Is there anything else you want me to answer?
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Meh, whatever. My steam name is 'Frodo the Loan Shark'.
2299476 Heh, "loan shark". Creative name.
2299476 Yours is the one with a shark eating a computer monitor, right?
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Yes it is.