Confessions, announcements, · 10:34pm Mar 8th, 2014
I'm a guy... I've lied about that long enough.
I'm agnostic
I'm bisexual
I've never kissed a guy or girl...
I have 2 friends in the real world.
I'm 18
I'm unmotivated most of the time.
I'm a tad over weight. (It's not noticeable if I dress a certain way.)
I have ADHD. It's not insanely bad, but I'm not great at focusing without meds.
I-I crave comments on my stories because I constantly worry a about how good my stories are. I'm not that confident, and you all have seen what happens when I lose my narrational direction.
I sometimes think things, and then realize that I only thought that because I thought I would, and that I really don't think it.
I've cried myself to sleep. When I do, it's because I've found something I've lied to myself unconciously, and the truth hurts.
Sometimes I get lost in violent daydreams of war. Most of them are purely my mind just cutting loose. All of them take place in the Vinlandverse, the sci-fi one.
When I roleplay I get emotionally invested. It's unhealthy, but it doesn't control my life.
I'm not ugly, but I'm not good looking enough to be noticeable.
I support background check requirements for purchasing guns, but I'm against gun bans.
I support gay marriage, but I also have no problem with polygamy.
I'm not as smart as people think.
I'm actually a good liar.
I used to be bullied by my younger sister because I thought it wasn't ever okay to retaliate.
Most of the time I don't know who I am.
My name is Alexander West.
Now the announcements:
You can meet me at Heart Of Texas Comic Con this Sunday. It's in Waco. To my surprise, Waco has a crazy amount of Bronies for a conservative voting city. I think I met 10 guys, and there is a cool good pegasister who has a stand there. By the end of tomorrow I'll have spent over $60 on Brony merch. This is the first Brony merch I've ever owned.
Me and my editor are planning to continue improving don't call me cute. This includes publishing new edits of chapters, and creating new side chapters.
I'm considering dropping Don't Call Me Adorable. IF I DID, I would be moving current chapters to don't call me cute and just continueing the story on there. BUT THIS IS UNLIKELY! The two are very different in focus. The reason I'm considering this is that readers of don't call me cute aren't all reading the sequel.
If I continue with the sequel format, the third (and final) story will be called "D-don't call me cute!" It would be about Scribble falling in love for real.
Hmm...
lel dude, you had me fooled.
I legitimately thought you were a gal. Of course, unless this is a troll-post and I am being fooled again.
Oh well! Keep up the good work!
Dude you don't need to stress about comments on your stories. They're awesome and your a brilliant author. Also don't drop the Scribble stories please, they are so funny and I want to see where you're going with the story.
Honestly? I just found about you because I'm a huge fan of Norse Mythology and culture, which is the reason one of my friends pointed me at you because of your username (I know, it's not the most endearing way of meeting, but hey, it's something. Hi). I don't usually see the point in having all this shown. I know there's a human being behind the internet author, but I assume you're going for some sort of hard times. I know it's tough to come out of those deep downers, but keep it up, and remember that you have a large group of people here with banners and hoping to see you better. Keep that in mind.
1909024 I don't do troll posts.
1909127 I was fooled, then.
I still love your art, anyway. 
1909138 *hugs* thanks.
but I'm not great at focusing without meds.
I know what you mean, mean either! I can't believe how much I and my grade have changed since I founded out I had ADHD (like if I weren't odd enough already) and started taking Meds. I'm much calmer and controlled now a days, and my average school day is easier...
1909172 Cool new name, btw.
1909116
Hey, like northern mythology and culture? Want to ask some questions to someone that's actually from a country long away up here in Scandinavia? Or just want to talk with someone else that is interested in northern mythology? PM me!
I like mythology from my home and naighbor countries, if that wasn't clear! Plus that you got a follower!
Shit just got real... Real is good
Do you believe in metaphysical-entanglement? Because within those confessions are a remarkable number of parallels between your experiences and my own. Seriously, it's almost spooky. In that respect, it also makes me wonder just how alike people must be behind the avatar.
Taking off the mask is a pretty big step. Feels good to get it off your chest though, right? And if you ever find yourself wondering whether you're actually better off without the facade, look at it this way; Now people love you for who you are, not who you wish you were
Huh, now there's a story prompt for you.
In the mean time, Hugs!
Big [hugs] from a pansexual agnostic, who has been known to cry himself to sleep at night.
Hey we're the same age! And you lie better than me! (I have like 5 tells) I'm a guy too! I'm using a lame attempt at humor to cover up how amazingly impressed I am at how are willing to bare your soul to us!
I didn't even realize there was a sequel. I'm off to read it right now.
I'm impressed with your courage to say all this. It can be a hard thing to do. Why would you lie about the first thing? I'm in the same age range myself with problems focusing. It's screwed me over to a large extent. I hope you've had luck dealing with that.
Why do you say that? What do you mean?
Don't worry so much about how good your stories are. A fair number of people like your stories, myself included. Also, just about everyone worries the way you do about their stories. I would implore not to drop the series.
It really can hurt realizing that you've lied to yourself. It wrecked me for a while. Try to remember that everyone is fallible and does some irrational things. It's good to recognize our own faults, but it's harmful to go beating yourself up too much. It's alright not to have everything figured out now, especially with the stage of life you are in now. It takes time to find oneself. Even after innumerable days spent thinking and despairing about these things, I don't fully know either, even if I am noticeably further than before. But I and many others here think you can do it, no matter how sad and unsure you are right now. It's also ok not to have kissed or been in a serious relationship. This society puts a lot of pressure on people and makes it out to be a much bigger problem than it is. Pursue a relationship when you want to and do what you are ok with.
So, yeah. Hugs and support from another teenager with motivation issues and lying to myself.