Apologies are in order.

I'm sorry. I just am. The past two days have been absolute hell for me. I found out yesterday my ex is getting married to the guy she cheated on me with. They are doing the plans I helped her make over a seven year relationship. When I found out, I was devastated. Not only that, but earlier that year, she told me that I had expended my usefulness to her. People tell you to get over things that happen in the past, but it just doesn't work like that. It's why a large part of my main story is a person dealing with their past issues that influence their life so heavily. I am unable to do it and I want to see someone or somepony be able to. Its been two years since we broke up and I still find myself sleeping on the same side of the bed as I did when we used to share one. I cuddle a pillow to feel something against my chest and I have had to sleep with a computer near me so I can feel the warmth that I have missed.

I am sorry, but because of this I will not be posting Dabbler's Gamble now. I don't want it to be tied with this atrocious holiday and seriously, fuck this day. Why did I need one day to spend all my money on expensive shit just to prove I can be romantic? I did that anyway. But no, always had to be a fucking shit show that day. I want a good love story that deals with certain ideas and issues the show has even brought up, and right now I find it sadly lacking.

BCaS is also in a little bit of a rut. Hopefully after this week passes, I will be able to feel motivated to write the part that needs to be out. I have so much more written and it plays with a lot of ideas that are fun for me and I just want to get it done.

Also this marks the one year anniversary of my joining fimfiction.... yay?