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Cytotoxin


I`m Russian, I`m female, I`m blunter then a bag of hammers and I write pony staff occassionally. That`s about it.

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  • 298 weeks
    So I just run into a story that reminded me of this...

    Sometimes, I get an ideas that I don`t flesh out completely. They end up being just beginnings of stories for... well, years upon years. Sometimes the muses strike and I add something to those, but actually finishing... Yeah, well. That`s a problem. The stuff I`ve actually published is like, 1/5 of what I`ve started. I wish I had a better start to finish ratio, but one just does not force the

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  • 341 weeks
    Notes on Equestrian Government Structure (headcanon, obviously)

    Political system in Equestria can be most succintly described as "constitutional oligarchy". While nominally, the minutae government have had been largely delegated to elected representatives, major decisions are universally deferred to alicorns.

    1) Legislative.

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  • 344 weeks
    So I was thinking...

    Sometimes, I write pretty goods things on the lark and then lose them in the forums. So I thought I`d copy the stuff I liked in the blog, just to keep it handy. Case one.

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  • 368 weeks
    Circles of magic

    1) Regio Naturae.
    2) Regio Magicae.
    3/4) Regio Occultae.
    4/3) Regio Arcanae.
    5/6) Regio Imperium.
    6/5) Regio Dominio.
    7) Regio Orbis.

    1) Regio Naturae

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  • 427 weeks
    Five Rules

    Five vital rules for an intellectual.

    1) Don`t think about it.
    2) If you`re thinking, don`t speak about it.
    3) If you think and speak, don`t write about it.
    4) If you think, speak and write, don`t sign it.
    5) If you think, speak, write and sign it, don`t act surprised.

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Apr
5th
2012

Trixie`s Lament · 3:16am Apr 5th, 2012

I`ve had quite enough of this. Quite enough indeed. You are quick to place the blame, quick to cry havoc. But had you tallied the costs, farmer?

I`ve came to this town to sell entertainment, to make a fool out of myself for a hoofful of bits. And yes, I did so - I`ve spun the stories and I`ve made the challenges, I`ve been ridiculous and grandiose, I`ve given all ponies something to talk and laugh about. I`ve given all of you my best shot.

At night, a monster comes. One I`ve never been aware of, nor expected it to be so close to the village. I`ve had no power to summon it, no insight to know it`s there, no knowledge of it`s habits and forms, of nature and existence. Children woke it and brought it into town, awed by my ridiculous story. But I am no magician. The extent of my power is simple illusions and parlor tricks, smoke and mirrors. If I ever commanded powers more formidable, would I ever be performing on the streets? Yet, I did my best to stave off the Ursa. In the end, all that I was capable of was to stall it - a feat that left me exhausted, and still was not enough, even despite the fact I`ve sacrificed my home to hold it occupied a minute longer.

And then, the cavalry arrived. A unicorn who`s power I can`t even begin to approach, a personal student of Celestia herself. Oh, of course she had the power to stop the monster. If only she`s been there a minute earlier. But what is done - it is done. Ursa is put back to sleep, and the whole of town had suffered nothing but a few minutes of fright. No such luck for me - homeless, exhausted and scared out of my wits. I admit, it was not the brightest hour for me, and I`ve lashed out in sheer frustration, running away into the forest. An action that cost me so much more.

It`s been... rough in the forest. But I managed to get out. Wounded, starved, exhausted... I made out at last. And so, here I am, here I stand before you, at a party that is not mine, where I am but an uninvited guest. Bandaged from stem to stern, beaten, humiliated and impoverished, deprived of my home, of my dignity, of my mane and tail... Tell me, farmer, what do I have still that you can take?

My life, perhaps? It`s true, that`s the only possession I still have. It`s been used, this life. It`s been well worn and broken in, stitched together and tattered around the edges, hardly worth more then a hoofful of bits. Yet, that`s all I`ve left. So tell me, farmer, tell me in all honesty. Do you want it? Do you want to take it as well? There`s the cake, there`s the knife. If you want it, come and take it, and I won`t resist. And call it even.

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Comments ( 4 )

My goodness, this is a fine bit of literature. It's so true, so well-said.

And it reminds me of certain things. Most especially that in my preferred turn of events, anyone wanting to hurt Trixie would have to get through Gilda first.

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Huh. I so didn`t expect the response to that. Let alone so quickly.

That was actually a flight of whimsy writing borne out of insomnia in response to this.
http://www.fimfiction.net/story/5764/5
I`ve thought that Trixie turned tail way too easily in her confrontation with Applejack. So I thought about alternative. About Trixie actually rebuffing the words. I`ve thought about what she could say.... and this little rant was written.

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'Kindness' Reward.' My favorite Trixie ship story. If Trixie had said this instead of running out the party, it would have been a totally different story. Longer too.

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