After the fall formal Sunset has to pick up the pieces.
1 month after the fall formal Sunset Shimmer is now “friends” with the girls who defeated her.
And even though all of the girls have accepted her as a person she thinks their only her friend because of Twilight asking them. So she plans to kill herself...... what will happen when her plan begin to fall apart?
(Another cliche Sunset Shimmer redemption story that’s been done before..... but I wanted to try it for myself)
I was walking through the halls looking down to avoid the glares I knew were directed towards me.
Just keep moving and ignore them
“Hey whore.” Someone shout’s as they bump into me with enough force that I drop my book bag.
Don’t dignify them with a reaction
“Hey look at me when I’m speaking to you demon.” The male student says as he shoves me again.
Don’t respond just look down
“Don’t ignore me.” The student continues as he shoves me roughly into the wall of lockers.
Don’t cry he’ll just do worse if you cry
Sunset knew everything she was thinking was true but she still felt tears welling up in her eyes threatening to spill over onto her face.
A voice from down the hall suddenly shouted “hey get off of her.”
And in an instant Rainbow Dash appears and kicks the male student in the leg knocking him over and off of me.
“Sunset are you alright?” Rainbow Dash asks looking at her with a look of sympathy and worry.
Quit looking at me like that I don’t deserve your sympathy or loyalty
“F-ff-fine.” I stutter out not wanting her to continue looking at me with her fake pity and remorse.
The male student quickly stands up and lunges at me with full force while shouting “stop defending her.”
I braced myself for impact and shut my eyes but his attack never hit me. So I opened my eyes and looked over to see the student on the ground clutching his crotch and Rainbow Dash’s knee still mid air.
“OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW” the male student shouts in agony.
serves him rig.....think nice thoughts.
“Let’s go Sunset.” Rainbow exclaims as she reaches over and grabs Sunset by the wrist pulling her down the hall.
“Mrs. Dash and Mrs. Shimmer.” Vice principal Luna’s voice shouts from behind them angrily.
Rainbow Dash and me flip around only to see a very angry Vice principal staring us down and standing above the sobbing student still clutching his crotch with both hands.
“MY OFFICE NOW.” She yells the veins in her neck practically pulsing.
How does a human do the royal canterlot voice so well. Most likely cause she’s Luna’s counterpart but still crazy she can do it that well.
The 2 girls followed Luna into her office just down the hall. And sat down in chairs in front of her desk.
“Miss Luna before you........” Luna raises her hand and stops Rainbow Dash from finishing her sentence.
“I understand he attacked you and Mrs Shimmer first and I didn’t bring you here to punish you.” Luna state’s.
Then what are we doing here if your not gonna punish us?
“You’re probably wondering why I brought you here if not to punish you” Luna continues.
How’d she know I was thinking that? Wait can she read my mind? Magic?
“Your here so you’re fellow students don’t mistreat you for that incident if they think I scolded you they most likely won’t seek revenge.” Luna explains in the most logical and know it all voice I’d ever heard her speak in.
Rainbow Dash looked up very confused by the principal’s strange logic and opened her mouth to speak.
My hand went up and I said to Rainbow “she helped us out that’s all that matters.”
Rainbow responded by closing her mouth and quickly crossing her arm’s on her lap.
20ish Minutes later:
BORED, BORED, CAUSE MAYHEM......no I don’t do that anymore (sigh)
Why do I constantly have to keep myself in check?
Eh doesn’t matter cause tonight it’ll all be ov...
My thoughts were interrupted by Luna saying “you girls better get going to lunch.”
Before I could even stand up Rainbow Dash had grabbed me by the hand and was dragging me to the cafeteria and our “other friends”.
Dash pushed past all the other students in the cafeteria all the while dragging me on behind her as we made our way to my “new friends” usual table.
“OHmygosh I heard what happened areyoualright Sunny?” Pinkie shouts speaking so fast her word mix together every now and again.
Pinkie’s hands wrap around my arms and pull me into a hug still looking worried and once again shouting “Why aren’t you answering? Are you in shock? Ohmygosh guys Sunny’s in shock!”
“Shimmer down sally.” Applejack says as she grabs Pinkie by the shoulders and pulls her off of me.
Pinkie is the only one who genuinely cares about me and that also makes her the most dense idiot I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing.
“You’re fine right Sugarcube?” Applejack asks acting as concerned as Pinkie.
like you care. Be quiet but reassure them so they don’t bother you.
I looked up into her emerald eyes briefly and nodded saying “of course I’m alright.” And to add to this illusion I gave the biggest smile to make them think I was fine.
All the girls accepted this answer except Applejack who continued to stare at me.
did I smile to wide?
My worried thoughts were put to rest when Applejack sat down with the other girls again and say “I’m just glad y’all are alright.”
All the girls except me spent the rest of their lunch break chatting and speaking about their plans to hangout together after school.
I’m so pathetic. Release is just hours away and now I’m considering backing out of it. But I know I can’t back out it’s better for everyone if I die.
The only people who pretend not to hate me are these girls but even they secretly hate me.
I wish things could’ve gone differently. I wish I’d been better so I could have that genuine friendship Twilight always talked about. Maybe if things were different the girls would actually care about me but unfortunately.....
My inner monologue was stopped by Pinkie waving her hand in front of my face and shouting “SUNSET? SUNSET? YOU'RE COMING RIGHT?
“Huh? what was that?” I asked unsure the question I was apparently supposed to be answering.
Pinkie gave me her biggest grin and spoke again “I said you’re coming bowling tonight right?”
All the girls looked at me expectantly nodding behind Pinkie’s back encouraging me to join in on their wacky friendship fun.
I should go I owe them that even if they are fake friends. Sunset thinks quietly to herself.
you don’t owe them anything your Sunset freakin Shimmer! A much more aggressive part of Sunset’s subconscious tells her.
hey! They might not care about us but we care about them. It’s the least we can do. The softer part of Sunset argued back curtly.
exactly! If they don’t care about us why should we do them any favors. Responded trying to woo over Sunset.
that’s the mindset that got us turned into a demon and I for one don’t wanna do that again. Soft Sunset says strangely frustrated at her other half.
No! Was all the angry Sunset could say to respond to soft Sunset.
it’s not like we’re busy tonight anyways. Soft Sunset tells Sunset and dark Sunset to try to finish this internal head.
.......We’re killing ourself tonight you flat chested whore. Dark Sunset says with such a done with the happy bullshit attitude.
I know. soft Sunset admits.
so shouldn’t the last thing we do be decent. Soft Sunset finishes with those last impactful words.
Ignoring both her proverbial shoulder angel and proverbial shoulder demon Sunset did something she wasn’t known for doing........
She did what felt right.
“I’ll be there Pinkie” I said without thinking it through or knowing the future consequences of my response.
I’m genuinely concerned that I agreed to come bowling with these girl’s.
All of my “friend’s” were currently laughing at some inside joke I didn’t understand as I anxiously waited for her turn.
3 more rounds and this will all be over. And I can go kill myself in peace and quiet. Sunset thought as everyone bowling in the bowling alley boo’ed and cheered as their balls hit the pin’s or in some cases didn’t hit the pin’s.
Told you this was a waste of time! My “shoulder demon” says as she continues to sit their in silence.
No! Don’t listen to that villain. My “shoulder angel” exclaims as angry as the good side of a person could.
Suddenly someone tapped me on the shoulder startling me so much I leap out of my seat and onto Fluttershy’s lap.
Quickly jumping up off the startled girl’s lap and onto her feet she turns to Rainbow Dash who was the one who tapped her on the shoulder.
“You’re up Sunset.” She exclaims obviously impatient to take her turn.
I got up and headed over to pick up my aqua colored bowling ball from the line up. Gently I lift the ball and swing it back behind me with little force and then release it on my return swing at full force.
The ball quickly darts down the alley and curves way to the left causing the ball to only knock down 2 pin’s.
I went and grabbed the ball again preparing to knock down more pin’s only to have the ball go straight to the right and into the gutter.
Applejack came over and patted me on the back “Aw Shucks Sunset tha’ts rotten luck.” Applejack says sadly trying to reassure me but failing.
See we can’t even do bowling right. Her dark mind thinks as she sits back down between Fluttershy & Rainbow Dash again.
After a moment of complete silence and depressing thoughts once again drift to my plan’s for later tonight. 2 More rounds and then bowling’s officially over.
“Ugh. Why did I have to come?” A voice said from behind Sunset at the pay station.
I recognize that voice...... Sunset thought to herself.
The voice continue’s to speak quite loudly to express it’s discomfort “I could be playing Halo 2 Online with Shouldn’tIBeDoingMyHomework12”
A response came from another voice one Sunset knew all to well. Celestia Responded to the original voice (Luna) by saying “It’s my turn to choose what we do for game night.”
Weakly I peered over the crevice of my neon red seat to look up behind her at the pay station. Only to see Principal Celestia in a bright red Hawaiian bowling shirt with pink and red flowers on it.
And standing next to her is Vice Principal Luna in a matching bowling shirt but in neon green with orange and yellow flowers.
No. I can’t deal with Celestia last time I saw her....the fall formal she looked so disappointed in me.
I can’t see that again it hurt so much and she sounded so much like the Princess that night.
It’s fine maybe they won’t notice me or the other’s if I act normal.
“Hi Principal Celestia.” Pinkie suddenly exclaims jumping out of her seat and waving both hands over her head.
Go friggin figure. annoyed Sunset also wave’s at their principal and Vice principal with the rest of her friends silently.
Celestia then looks at me and smile’s?
Why would she be so happy to see me?
“Hello student’s.” Luna politely say’s with a nod as she and Celestia approach us.
It’s just for a minute you won’t have to be around her for too long Sunset was thinking to keep herself as optimistic as well a depressed & suicidal person could be.
Rarity quickly squashed this optimistic idea by asking “We we’re just about to finish up this game wanna join us for the next one?”
Is my life always gonna suck this bad? Sunset thinks annoyed for what she though was the 8th time that day.
Luna give Celestia a look of: don’t. But Celestia being the socially unaware principal immediately respond’s by saying “of course we wanna join our best student’s.”
Awkwardly the girls offer their Vice Principal and principal seats. Luna sit’s in between Rarity and Pinkie Pie and with no other seat’s open Rainbow Dash offers her seat next to me to Celestia.
Which the older woman graciously accepts as she sit’s next to me while Pinkie takes her turn on the lane.
Celestia turns to me and asks “how are you doing Sunset?” Her voice matching Princess Celestia’s for that sickly sweet almost fake sounding enthusiasm.
Oh shit she wants to talk to me but I wanna avoid her. What to do??
Wait she asked me how I’m doing so that’s an opportunity for an escape..........what could be wrong with me. Sunset ponders as she glances around the room to find an excuse.
Then I saw my opportunity Pinkie’s chili fries. I ate some earlier I can pretend I’m having stomach issue’s. And I’ll give it 20 seconds more before I answer how I’m doing so it’s an even 30 seconds AKA a normal response time for the average conversation.
Approximately 20 seconds later I turn to Celestia and respond with “I’m having some belly issue’s don’t think Pinkie’s fries {points at Pinkie and her chili fries} aren’t sitting too well.”
Alright now all I need is a burp followed by I’ll be back. Then pretend I need to use the toilet but instead plan how to avoid Celestia the rest of the night. By the god's I’m a genius!
Keep you’re pride in check! My “shoulder angel” reminds her before she gets too cocky like how she did at the fall formal.
“Excuse me a {burp} moment” I exclaim to Celestia pretending to need the bathroom as I grasp my “rumbling” stomach.
I quickly entered the bathroom and ran into the biggest stall locking the door so I could plot how to avoid my ex-mentor’s doppelgänger.
45 minutes later:
Why aren’t they looking for me yet? I wonder not that I care if they even did after all they are fake friends.
I slowly exit the stall feeling comfortable enough with my plan to avoid Celestia that I could look for my “friends” and see what was happening and why no one had entered the restroom since she had entered her stall.
Only to find the bathroom torn apart as if someone savagely ripped everything off the walls.
How did I not hear this happening? I wonder as I carefully step over the shattered mirror now on the floor instead of over the sink.
I reach for the ripped in half doorknob and slowly turn it hoping not to cut my had on the twisted and ripped metal sticking off of it.
The actual bowling alley was even worse the lane’s wood was ripped up as if a bear had pulled it off and from where she was it looked as if the arcade and it’s machine’s we’re broken.
Heck even the payment and renting booth’s were wrecked but the most horrifying part was the corpse’s their were burning or burned bodies everywhere in the alley.
The girls?!! I thought with a gasp darting over to were our seat’s had been only to find 6 burning corpse’s their flesh bubbling and melting away.
“No! No! No no no {sob} why? How?” Was all I could mutter as a melt down in horror next to what I was sure was my friend’s.
Even if they didn’t love me I loved them. I continue to think in despair and misery as my tears flow freely down my face to the burnt ground.
One of the corpse’s hands suddenly reaches up and grabs my leg startling me and causing my entire body to catapult into the air in an instant.
I look down and see a frilly and sparkly pink dress with a singed purple and white ribbon in the middle.
That’s Twilight’s dress from the night of the fall formal. I realize startled by the revelation that Twilight was here….in this world.
”why would you do this?? the burning Twilight corpse asks as it’s other hand grabs onto Sunset’s other leg.
{internal screaming}
I guess you can’t blame a demon for not being able to cut off their heh horns. The burned corpse chuckles in a dry wheezing fashion.
I should’ve never given you a chance…. ….I should’ve known what a monster you were and would always be {cough}. The Twilight corpse continue’s her word hitting me like a dagger.
I tried to argue and say I could change but all I managed to say was “bu-bu-but—“ My voice barely coming out in a raspy gasp for air.
What’s going on why is everyone dead? why can’t I speak? How is Twilight here? that and dozens of other thoughts raced through my mind but the feeling I was feeling most was guilt as if I was the cause of all of this.
Suddenly all 6 of the corpse’s around me moved jerking their heads to look up towards my face and in the voices of my “friends” all chant “Bitch! Murderer! Demon!”
And just when I thought they were done and that this couldn’t get any worse they said one last word “Failure!”
That was a word I had a complicated and stressful relationship with in the past. It was my trigger word if you want to call it that.
Hearing the word failure again made me snap and look down at the goopy remains of Twilight Sparkle and scream “SHUT UP!” As I angrily swung at the body’s head.
Instead of colliding with a dead body my hand hit ash as I suddenly grew claw’s my hand turning a familiar shade of red as fire engulfed it.
Not again I can’t turn into that again. I start to panic as the red fiery skin spread’s up my arm like a rash or a fungus.
“No.” I shout turning away from the red spreading up my arm faster and faster only to see a mirror on the other side of me.
I know what I’m gonna see in the mirror so I clamp my eyes shutting hoping not to see myself as the monster I truly am again.
But after a few seconds my eye’s open hoping that I was wrong and the demon wouldn’t be staring back if I looked at the mirror but as always my reflection was simply a red demon with a dazzling yet terrifying smile.
”Hello Sunset…...” the Demon starts her smile somehow growing wider then it already was as she speaks.
You don’t show weakness to bullies or people persecuting you so don’t show weakness to anyone especially not………Yourself.
“Leave now! Before I make you leave.” I boldly declare acting as if I have the high ground in this confrontation even though in truth I was scared shitless.
Oh! Sunny your adorable when you’re trying to be tough and act like you could beat me. the demon declare’s looking at her claws with a grin her entire body giving off pure confidence the one thing I didn’t have anymore.
“Huh” I sigh loudly before starting again “Leave before I get upset.” I declare.
Aww look a widdle Sunset being so cute.” The demon mocked in a baby voice and to add insult to injury she grabbed my cheeks with her hands as she said cute acting as if she was some kind old grandma playing with their baby granddaughter.
How can she just switch from being so condescending and caring to how she was at the fall formal?
Because you have both those sides to you. The demon declares with a flourish answering my inner thought’s.
How’d she?….
My thoughts were cut off by the Demon exasperated exclaiming Because I am you. At the top of her lungs.
Her outburst startled me and broke my facade for a second revealing how scared I really am. But I quickly put it back up and boldly declare “It’s not true I’m nothing like you.”
”Really?” the demon says with the most that’s bullshit and with both know it look I’d ever seen.
“Really!” I declare back as smug as possibly can under the circumstances.
Once again the demon the bulls hit look and stated “If I’m not you then how do I know you’ve been wondering why you’re “Fake friends” are still around after this much time has passed?”
“Ugh-umm because…..” i start trying to formulate an answer only to be stopped by the demon holding her hand up to make me stop.
I hate how smug she is.
“Maybe they want to dump you like the Princess did and twist the knife as it were? Or maybe their loyalty to Twilight is stronger then you thought?”
They’d never hurt me intentionally? Right? And they only knew Twilight for 3 days…..
So why?
The demon smugly looks at me her eyes meeting mine. “Maybe deep down you know the reason they haven’t left at tears you up inside.”
Deep down I knew and she was right it hurt but still have to hear it so finally let my tough girl facade fall tears pouring out my eyes slowly as I look down and ask the demon “Why?”
The demon grab’s me by the chin and tilts my face so I am once again looking her in the eyes as she say’s “Because they do love you and the fact somebody can love a monster like you who doesn’t deserve it makes you know you’ll just let them down in the end.”
And with that demon let’s go of my face as I fall to my knee’s the truth of my situation burning my very soul and causing agonizing pain.
I’m afraid that’s all the time we have for today Miss Shimmer but it was a helpful session. The demon say’s now wearing huge clunky glasses and holding a clipboard.
What?
I want to ask what she means but nothing but sobs come out as I kneel there.
The demon tilts her glasses and say’s Time to wake up.”
Yo Sunset you in here. The familiar voice of Rainbow Dash calls out as I sit up on the bowling toilet seat I must fell asleep on.
Must've fallen asleep trying to avoid Celestia.
I quickly stand up and rush out of the stall past s confused looking Rainbow Dash and into the main room of the bowling center.
“Sunset? We’ve been worried sick.” The voice of Rarity declares from her left as all the girls and Celestia and Luna came up to her.
The longer you’re with them the more they’ll care for you and the harder you’re suicide will be for them and you. Better to leave and end it all now. Sunset’s shoulder devil declares in her mind.
It’s time!
“I uh-uh gotta go.” I stutter as I rush past them and out the bowling alley doors.
I heard them chasing after me and yelling my name loudly their voices full of very real concern and care.
After about 20 minutes of running in the cold I no longer heard them behind me and decided it was safe to stop and pull out my smartphone’s map app.
I scrolled the map for about 5 minutes before I saw it cloverdale bridge was only a mile away and it was tall enough that it would probably kill me and if it didn’t the freezing winter water would.
As good a place as any.
You don’t have to do this. Sunset’s shoulder angel whispers.
WARNING: This chapter will contain swearing despite the T rating. If you dislike swearing or suicide attempts or even bullying you may not wanna read this chapter.
SUNSET POV:
Just 2 more blocks and I can finally die like I deserve.
When a bright red Chevrolet Silverado 2500 swerved in front of her almost crushing her in the process.
I would be fine with dying from a car wreck but I wouldn’t wanna wreck someone else’s life.
The passenger and driver doors of the red truck swung open abruptly causing me to jump back at the movement.
One super tall boy about my age clambered out of the drivers seat and over to the passenger side lifting out a boy who looked to be my age but was only about 4 & a half feet tall.
After promptly lifting the smaller boy onto his shoulder the taller one began walking towards me quickly.
The hell is this??
“Yo Sunset how are ya hanging?” The small shoulder riding boy asks his mouth curving into a toothy grin.
Really isn’t this wannabe gangster guy from school. Ugh.
“What do you want Runt?” I ask in annoyance.
“I just wanna talk.” He reply’s his fake jersey gangster accent dropping in and out as he talked.
Can’t a girl just off herself in peace?
Or the girl could not kill herself at all.
Shut up! Now is not the time for second thought’s.
“What do you wanna talk about?” I ask even though I could care less.
“You’re status as the ex—queen of this school & where you stand now.” Runt says his voice more sinister then usual even with the ridiculously fake jersey accent.
“Uhhhh what about it?” I sigh still not believing the ridiculousness of this short little vermin.
Yeah! crush this little shit and his muscly bodyguard.
No! No! Don’t think like that.
Why do I always think like that?
*SNAP* *SNAP* “YO SUNSET ya alright?” Runt asks snapping he’s fingers as he speaks and in turn snapping me out of my own self punishing thoughts.
“Fine. I-I-I just n-need to go.” I stammer trying to rush past Big Boy toward’s the bridge so I can stop the pain.
Big Boys huge arm stretched out and blocked me as his other arm set down Runt off his shoulder with a quick plop.
“Before ya run away and off ya self…. …..i need something from ya.” Runt declares as Big Boy gets his whole body between me and the bridge.
How’d he know what I was going to do?
“How’d you know what i was going to do?” I ask genuinely interested in this conversation for the first time tonight.
Runt looked right at me both eyebrows raised and asks “really?” With his arms now crossed he sighs and continues to stare at me.
Dropping the fake accent and instead looking as annoyed as he can he say’s “I’ve been watching you at school and outside of it for week’s and the signs are all their.”
As I look down at the small boy I think how could this complete stranger who I barely know notice all that when my friends didn’t.
Pretending to be offended I exclaim “YOU’VE BEEN WATCHING ME!” My facing contorting into a look of “anger”
Runt simply sighs and says “look I don’t wanna be here and you don’t want me & my friend here stopping you from killing yourself.” Gesturing you Big Boy as he speaks.
“So I’ll ask you my questions straight up & then I’ll let you go off and end you’re life” he exclaims as he pull’s out a piece of paper that appeared to have a list scribbled on it.
Why bother with this little asshole? Just ditch him and his ogre of a bodyguard.
Why don’t we avoid confrontation for once?
As much as I dislike “my shoulder angel” she’s right….
……Why start a conflict when you can just answer a few questions & be done with it?
The answer was clear just answer his questions honestly and quickly.
Runt sniffled and wiped away some wayward snot as he began his questions “You have blackmail and info on everyone at school correct?”
I nodded while muttering “Obviously.”
Sniffle’s again “do you still have the info on everyone?” He says his eyes unflinchingly watching my every move.
Why does he want know?
He looks up from his piece of paper and say’s “well?”
Won’t matter to me if I’m dead I guess..
I look him in the eyes and say ”yes! Of course I do never get rid of anything useful.” My voice slightly cracks as I say that quietly with tears in my eye’s.
Even when I have my awesome friends I can’t get rid of my safety net.
Without skipping a beat Runt moved on to the next question “where do you keep you’re info on the rest of the school?”
My pocket
I instinctively touch my jacket pocket where my smartphone is currently residing. My fingers lightly caressing the case as I pull it out from the small area it’d kept it in all day.
“Here!” I respond just above a whisper as I show my phone to the boy stand across from me.
Runt pulls out his phone and say’s “ahh of course great minds think alike.”
“So Sunset why don’t you airdrop me the info and I’ll let you go do you’re thing.” Runt says coughing as he says thing.
His coughing getting gradually louder and louder until Big Boy rushes over pulling an inhaler out of his jeans and handing it to the smaller boy.
I watch as Runt grabs the inhaler and with a shaky hand pushes one end in his mouth and pressing the button on top as he gasps for air.
I genuinely felt bad for the small boy. Constantly carrying something that you could need at any moment something so important that if it failed you could die gasping or coughing for air.
No matter how bad I felt for him could I just send him all that power?
He’ll probably just use it to protect himself & maybe even other’s. “my shoulder angel” suggests
“My shoulder demon” blows a raspberry and in my mind: We all know that just like you were the queen of school…..
…..you’ll be crowning him the new king!
Quietly I press all of the 6 numbers to unlock my phone 1 at a time: 6 9 1 4 0 {brief pause} 6
You’ll be hurting more people If you do this…. “Shoulder angel” mutters.
Including you’re “friends” “Shoulder demon” thinks.
I already deleted all the stuff about my friends & you know it.
As I was debating what to do Runt’s voice cut through the cold winter night “If you’re worried what I’m going to do don’t be……”
{silence}
“…… I don’t plan on blackmailing or even running the school…….”
“…….After all I’m no king” Runt finally finishes with a small nod. Big Boy nodding vigorously behind him with a large thumb’s up.
As much as I don’t believe him…..
……I could care less if anyone at that school gets they’re secrets spilled or their social status ruined.
And with one touch of my screen I had Airdropped everything on everyone at the school straight to Runt. & to be honest I could care less.
15 MINUTES LATER:
I’d been walking 5 minutes after finishing my talk with Runt and now I was at the edge of the bridge.
Finally I’ve made it.
I slowly begin walking to the middle of the abandoned bridge slowly pulling off my hoodie and dropping it and my phone in a pile on the bridge.
Then I sat neatly untying my boot’s and then pulling them off & then setting them down next to my pile of clothes.
And slowly but surely I walked over to the edge gently pulling myself over the large metal bar between me and my peace.
The water looked as calm as a river could be my only concern being that would mean I’d die slow….
….but hey at least I’ll die!
You don’t have to do this Sunset. my “shoulder angel” softly told my subconscious.
Sniffling I respond to the voice in my head out-loud “yes I do.” And on that note I let go of the railing and fell towards the ice cold relief of the water.
Right before I hit the water I could’ve sworn I heard something it almost sounded like someone calling my name.
I reveled in the water looking around at the icy black nothing around me as the bubble’s from my breathing float past my eye’s.
Their’s something so peaceful yet so violent about this I thought as I slowly but surely blacked out letting the gentle stillness of sleep consume me for the last time.
Sunset Shimmer Later?:
Where am I? I thought as my eyes began to flutter open.
My eye’s open only to be greeted with the bright glare of fluorescent lights that temporarily blind me.
“What?” I say out loud.
“Sunset you’re awake!” A familiar voice to the right of me say’s out-loud happily.
AFTER SUNSET RAN OUT OF THE BOWLING ALLEY Rarity POV:
“Gosh dang-it!” Applejack shouted throwing her hat onto the ground angrily her cheek’s turning red.
Applejack is positively adorable when she’s frustrated
No Rarity! Now is not the time for this it’d be unladylike to admire Applejack’s physique when Sunset has run off.
“Where could that girl have gone?” Applejack wonders aloud looking off in the direction the girls had last seen Sunset going.
Applejack sighs heavily with a groan rubbing her nose with her thumb and pointer finger. “Alright girls we best split up & look for her.” She exclaims finally opening her eye’s and lowering her hand from her face/nose.
After a momentary pause Applejack points at me, Fluttershy & Pinkie Pie saying “ y’all should head into town in case she doubled back and see if she is at any of our hangouts.”
“I’ll head onto the backroad’s in the woods to see if she’s still heading t’at way. Dash will head yo the suburbs and look around for her.” Applejack continues.
Suddenly Luna & Celestia ran up from behind us startling me and Fluttershy. They’d been with us when Sunset had her meltdown but they weren’t as fast as us so it makes sense they’d just caught up.
Celestia having obviously heard the plan walks next to Applejack and ask’s “How can we help?”
I zoned out of the conversation my gaze stuck on the horrendous Hawaiian themed bowling shirt she and Vice Principal Luna wore.
Well I suppose with a few moderations those bowling shirts could be grand….
…..Some sleeve extensions to make them cover more of the forearm, a few shiny silver buttons in place of the current brown one’s, widen the front to accommodate for Celestia’s awe inspiring bust size, maybe put some summer skirts with them so they—
“RARITY ARE YOU COMING?” Pinkie shouted interrupting my newly inspired design.
It took me a moment to look around only to realize everyone had already taken off while I was thinking of my new design & the only ones left were Pinkie & Fluttershy who were already in Pinkie’s bright pink van the engine revving and the plastic cupcake on top bouncing.
“Oh my goodness darling’s I’m so sorry I wasn’t paying much attention.” I respond curtly as I dash over to the door for the seat behind Fluttershy’s/the passenger seat.
The moment I closed the door behind me Pinkie’s foot was on the gas and we were already swerving out of the bowling alley parking lot. And by the time I had latched in my seatbelt we were on the highway back into midtown.
Why’d I get paired up with Pinkie? Her driving always scare’s me half to death no matter how many times I’ve experienced it
10 MINUTES LATER:
Me and Fluttershy slowly climbed out of the car our legs still shaking from the ride as we stood up. Pinkie however bounds out of the car perfectly fine.
By the time I’d regained my balance Pinkie was already across the parking lot and opening Sugarcube corners doors holding them open for me and Fluttershy.
We slowly walk over to Pinkie who is practically jumping up & down with impatience at our slow speed.
As we entered Sugarcube corner we were greeted by Mrs. Cake “Welcome girls what can I do you for?”
Fluttershy looked up her hair falling back and began to whisper “have y-you s-se-seen Sun—“
She was interrupted by Pinkie who flung herself into the counter and yelled “HAVE YOU SEEN SUNSET SHIMMER MRS. CAKE?” Pinkie’s face mere inches from the shop owner who seemed unfazed by her part time employee’s outburst.
“Calm down hun! Sunset ain’t here.” Mrs. Cake says politely pushing Pinkie away from her and off the counter.
Pinkie’s hair goes slightly down like a limp balloon as she says “Oh.” And walk over to the display case for the cakes.
Where else does Sunset hang out?
Sweet-Apple acres probably not there since she ran from us.
school is closed so she wouldn’t be there….
…..and she’s not here or at the bowling alley.
I look over at Pinkie Pie & Fluttershy and ask “other then here, Sweet-Apple acres, school, and the bowling alley where does Sunset spend her time?”
They both stare into space for about a minute until Pinkie respond’s “I don’t know.” Her hair deflating even more as she say’s that.
Fluttershy’s response is much more productive “H-her ho-house i sup-suppose.”
Of course why didn’t I think of that?
Wait where is Sunset’s abode?
I look Fluttershy in the eye’s a little embarrassed I don’t know where Sunset live’s and ask “where is her house?”’
“Uhmm I don’t know.” Fluttershy states shrugging lightly. I then glance at Pinkie who likewise shrugs.
We must’ve been at her house at some point……
……..Right?? I thought as I sat on one of the counter seat’s trying to think of Sunset’s house. Fluttershy’ & Pinkie Pie likewise sat down deep in thought.
20ISH MINUTES LATER:
The bell on the door of the bakery ringing finally made me look up from my thoughts.
Sunset? I thought hopefully looking at the door only to be disappointed by the site of a small boy wearing ghastly flannel and a very old black beanie on his head.
He was followed by a boy who was the exact opposite of him a giant who stood about 6 foot 11 And had muscles on his arms bigger then my head.
“Welcome dears. What can I do you for?” Mrs. Cake greets as usual while nodding.
The short boy barely peeks over the counter & say’s “I’ll have a banana nut loaf with a cup of black tea.”
Mrs. Cake jots down the order and then glances at the bigger boy “you’re order deary?”
The huge boy briefly glances at me as I stare at him and his shorter friend. His orange eyes seemingly looking into me.
I quickly look away worried he noticed my unladylike staring. He simply grunt’s and turn’s away from me towards mrs. Cake who’s still waiting for the order with her pen and pad.
“He’ll have a cup of earl gray if you have it.” The smaller boy answers for his companion.
Mrs. Cake looks at the huge boy a questioning look that said she wanted to make sure that was his order. The behemoth simply nods grunting again.
Mrs. Cake rushes into the back to make the tea and prepare they’re order while the strange duo sits down at the table behind us. The smaller boy momentarily struggling to get onto the really tall chairs & the larger one causing his entire chair to creak when he sit’s.
The smaller boy sit’s their kicking his knee’s out as if impatient about something while the bigger guy sits in complete stillness.
After a few minutes of this silence & kicking Mrs. Cake rushes out with their order on her serving tray as she places it all in front of the pair of boys.
Do they go to Canterlot High? I thought glance at them over my shoulder again.
The short boy looks up at me as I glance at them. Noticing his eyes staring at mine I quickly flip around and face Pinkie Pie who has been strangely quiet.
I hear the short boy sip his coffee only to cough as soon as he swallows it his body rocking back and forth.
Mrs. Cake worried about customer satisfaction runs over and ask “is everything alright dear?”
To which the smaller of the 2 who coughed up some coffee replies “yeah I’m fine just a little hotter then expected.”
Before Mrs. Cake can respond he holds up his hand and says “no problem with that though. I’ll just have a strawberry milkshake to go along with it.”
Mrs. Cake hurriedly runs to grab him his shake while runt just sits back pushing his coffee away from him.
Those two are quite strange and what’s with the little guy being so bossy? I thought to myself as I once again glance at them unsure why I found them so fascinating.
The bigger of the two grunts again louder this time. To which the smaller replies “I know I said I’d lay off the sugar but it’s just one milkshake.”
“Humph!” The bigger boy grunts again shifting in his seat causing a loud creak behind me.
“No. One will not become 2 or 3 a week I’m stronger then that.” He replies annoyed by the bigger boy.
But he just grunted why is he talking like their having a conversation/going back and forth.
I turn around to get one later look at the pair as Mrs. Cake brings the milkshake for the short boy.
“I’m drinking this whether YOU like it or NOT.” He states as he grabs the milkshake emphasizing the YOU & the NOT.
Suddenly the shorter boy turns towards me a glare on his face as he asks “can I help you with something Rarity?”
Shit! he saw me staring again.
Ugh stop it Rarity you must own up to you’re mistakes. And a lady must never swear not even in her own thought’s.
“Well….. I uhh.” I started unsure how to defend myself from this other then confess I was staring and on top of that they obviously know me but I don’t remember them…. …….or their name’s.
Both of them were now staring annoyed almost angry at me as both Pinkie and Fluttershy look at them and at me watching the tension filled situation.
Suddenly the younger boy scoff’s as a smile spreads over his mouth and he says “we were being loud weren’t we. I do apologize if we were bothering you.”
Their I something off-putting almost sinister about his smile. In fact I know that smile it’s the same one the rich put on to be diplomatic and to fool reporters and other people.
I myself have done that very smile at events.
“Oh no darlings of course it’s fine.” I respond to the boy hoping I don’t sound too strange.
He flashes the same fake smile as before and says “it’s all good Raaarity.” His voice prolongs the arrr sound of my name as he finishes speaking.
And on that note he wink’s at me and turns back to his milkshake as if nothing happened.
What I’m the heaven’s was that? and who are they?
As if answering my thought’s Pinkie loudly exclaims “nice talking to you Runt.” He hair finally re-inflating after their failure to find Sunset.
I turned to the girls deciding we should set out to find the other or look for Sunset on the street’s my last thought about Runt & his huge friend being: That Runt fellow would look dashing in a fedora.
*BRINGGG* *RINGGGGG* Pinkies phone buzzes starling me and Fluttershy half to death.
We must Pinkie always have her ringer up to full volume.
“Yello!” Pinkie exclaims loudly not even trying to hide she’s on the phone.
“Oh hey Applejack did you find Sun—“ her question suddenly stops as her jaw drops & her hair begins to deflate.
I have bad feeling about this
“I-I-I understand we’ll be their s-so-soon.” Pinkie stammers her hair completely deflated now as she put’s her phone back into her pants pocket.
I stand up and put my hand on the distraught Pinkie’s shoulder. “Pinkie dear whatever is the matter?” I ask.
She look’s up into my eyes her pupil’s filling with tears as she says “Rainbow Dash & Sunset are In the hospital.” After saying that she stops talking.
There’s more I can tell…..
….I just hope it’s not to bad.
“Pinkie what else?” Fluttershy asks her voice surprisingly loud compared to her usual quiet & shy demeanor.
Before Pinkie could speak Fluttershy goes to her other side and gives her a comforting hug’s. As Pinkie calms down Fluttershy pulls away and once again ask’s “What else Pinkie?”
Before I knew what had happened, my phone slid out of my hand and down to the floor of my car as Luna looked at me just as stunned as I was.
Why would Sunset…. I questioned running through all my encounters with her for the last month my brain having trouble even processing the idea she could try to take her own life.
Tears even threatened to fall from my eyes as I continued to drive to nowhere in particular.
NO! now is not the time to breakdown. I-I have to stay strong so I can be there for Sunset when she wakes up.
“Sh-shall we he-head to the hospital sister?” Luna asks turning her head so she’s looking at me. I didn’t reply or even look over at her my eyes just remaining on the road as we drove in silence.
Sunset, Sunset, Sunset, just keep thinking about how much she’s gonna need me and I’m going to help her. I thought to myself over and over as I drove towards the hospital.
After about twenty minutes of just repeating my new Sunset centric mantra in my head as we enter the hospital parking lot.
Slowly I drive the my Mini Cooper into a small parking spot, which wasn’t hard to find considering it was already past midnight.
As put the gear shift into park Luna asks, “Sister are they sure she really tried to kill herself?”
They might not be sure but I know it’s true. I don’t even know how I know but it’s true.
“Yes sister, they’re sure.” I reply simply finally looking at her for the first time since we got the call from the hospital.
I was shocked to see tears streaming down Luna’s face. Luna was usually so detached from the students, especially troublemakers like Sunset, but here she was silently crying in a hospital parking lot.
“It-It’s m-my fault dear sister!” Luna suddenly exclaims thrusting herself over the empty cup holders separating us and hugging me tightly.
“No Luna it isn’t you’re fault it’s mine.” Despite my efforts to keep the tears back I finally break down and wrap my own arms around Luna hugging her back just as tightly if not more.
Now I’ve hurt my sister and failed to protect one of my students I really am a screw up of a sister and a principal!
“You’re not the one who….” Luna starts to say only to stop and squeeze onto me tighter her sobbing growing louder every minute.
Who what? I mentally question.
But I didn’t ask Luna what she had done, or what had happened, instead I just continued to let her hug me for dear life.
And the hugging and the sobbing just continued for another half an hour until Luna finally calmed down and slid back into her seat.
Luna wipes away what’s left of her tears and calmly says “We should head in and figure out how Sunset is right?”
I look at her and nod using my left hand to open my car door.
We both open are doors and step out of the car into the brightly lit parking lot of the hospital and begin to walk towards the front doors of the hospital.
Luna was slicking her hair back into a ponytail pulling the scrunchie she always kept under her shirt sleeve and pulled it into the hair on her hair.
Luna even wiped her eyes as I pushed the front doors open. *Sigh* Luna trying to look strict and orderly again before we she Canterlot high students.
She is always so tough when we’re at work, but she’s so caring and kind when we’re alone. I just don’t understand how she’s able to switch so easily.
When we walked into the waiting room I realized just how serious the situation was. Pinkie Pie was sitting in a corner her usually poofy hair flat and hanging down.
Across the way from her was Fluttershy sitting and sobbing into her hands. Rarity was also crying but not nearly as violently as Fluttershy and instead of her hands she was crying into Applejack’s shoulder.
Speaking of Applejack she was the only one who didn’t look distraught in fact she looked down right pissed off. But she seemed distracted holding the crying fashionista in her arms.
Wait where’s Rainbow Dash? I wondered glancing around the room for the rainbow haired athlete. Only to see she wasn’t anywhere to be found.
Who should I talk to? I wonder looking around at my students. But before I can decide Luna walks straight up to Applejack and asks “What is the situation Ms. Applejack?”
Applejack immediately looks up at Luna and begins to speak gently putting Rarity down into one of the waiting room chair.
“We-well Sunset uhh….” Applejack suddenly stops speaking her eyes darting around at her distraught friends.
“Since she did you know what has been in the emergency room and we haven’t been able to see her because we ain’t family apparently.” Applejack’s getting angrier and angrier as she speaks her country accent getting stronger the more heated she got.
I watch as Luna continues to interrogate Applejack their voices fading into background noise as my brain kicks into overdrive.
What if Sunset dies? What if she’s reverts back to her old ways at school? What if Sunset becomes catatonic because she wanted to die?
I feel my panic rising as a scream begins to bubble up in my throat only to be halted by Luna angrily yelling, “What do you mean Ms. Dash is in surgery?”
Suddenly Applejack’s and Luna’s voices reappear no longer background noise in my head as Applejack says “She saw Sunset jump and she dove in after her.”
As soon as Applejack says “Sunset jump” Rarity and Fluttershy’s sobbing gets louder and more violent while Pinkie Pie seems to become a liquid and melts further into the corner.
“Look I appreciate y’all’s concern but ya just making this worse by asking so many questions.” Applejack says sternly talking down to Luna.
Luna looks at Applejack very offended and loudly yells in her “GAMER VOICE” as she calls it at home. “WELL I’M SORRY FOR CARING MS. JACK!”
As soon as Luna yells at Applejack she turns around and rushes out the doors of the hospital very agitated.
“I’m sorry for my sister Applejack she isn’t feeling like herself today.” I say turning to face Applejack as I speak.
Applejack looks up at me and replies “It’s fine principal Celestia, I don’t think none of us are feeling like ourselves right now.”
Is their anything I can do to help Sunset?
“Is their anything I can do to help out?” I ask trying to sound calm and concise but clearly sounding more frazzled and anxious by Applejack’s look of concern immediately after I asked.
Applejack grabs my arm comfortingly and in a surprisingly calm tone reply’s “Ain’t nothing ya or any of us can do but pray they make it.”
Suddenly my eyes flutter open as I gasp for air. Sitting up and looking around only to see nothing but an empty darkness.
Wait! Where am I? I think to myself excepting my “shoulder Angel and Demon”/subconscious to respond but there was nothing but silence.
Suddenly a thought comes to my brain despite a constant banging pain on my temple. Am I dead?
Is this what comes after we die? Am I really in some kind of afterlife?
Really? It’s just nothingness just an endless void of dark shadows where you can think for all eternity. Thought hell would look worse!
YOU THINK YOUR DEAD? DON’T BE SO NAIVE TO THINK FATE WOULD LET YOU COP OUT ON YOUR SUFFERING! an all too familiar voice calls from above me
I turn knowing all too well who would be flying above me and coming for my back as always. And much to my chagrin and fear there she was my demon flying above me was the one I had turned into on the night of the fall formal.
”YOU’RE NOT WORTHY OF DEATH OR EVEN FORGIVENESS FROM ANYONE.” the demon yells laughing in my face.
I look away from the monster that was who I was in shame surely I’m dead. Right?
HAHAHA! CAN’T EVEN ACCEPT THAT YOUR A FAILURE IN EVERYTHING TO THE POINT YOU CAN’T EVEN OFF YOURSELF RIGHT!!! My demon form chuckled even louder causing the whole black void around us to suddenly shake.
Gulping I turn back around to face the demon and ask it where I was if not dead. “So where are we then….
……Bitch?” I add on letting my demon self know just how much distain I had for her and a touch of my bitchyiness come out.
”Well! Well! Aren’t you a fiesty little girl? The demon responds looking down at her painted nails/claws.
“Huuuuhhh.” I sigh deeply while looking at this awful creature who did nothing but manipulate and lie in order to ruin the lives of everyone so much so that she couldn’t stop long enough to give me a straight answers.
And the worst part of it all was that this was just part of me. Not just some A-hole but who I was underneath the friendship persona I put up for the girls whenever we did something together.
I stood down my demon self who continued to ignore me while muttering something about “Magenta being a better color on her then this light Aqua!” She was apparently wearing on her claws.
“Look! I just want to know where are I am and how to leave so I don’t have to deal with all this crap anymore.” I shout at the demon my hand gesturing to her as I say “crap anymore”.
The demon briefly glances up from her nails to give me a look of annoyance. ”Why?”She mutters under her breath looking back at her painted claws.
“What was that?” I say unsure if I’d imagined her murmuring under her breath.
The demon final let’s her hand fall to her side looking straight into my eyes. ”I asked why?”She says repeating what she had murmured.
“Why what?” I respond. She glowered at me as if I’d just asked the most stupid question in the universe. Her wings flapping as she flew. No! Teleported down to my level her meaty right hand grabbing my face as her thumb claw dug into my cheek.
Her hand twisting so that my entire face was facing hers only inches away as I looked up into her eyes. ”Why should I help you? First you lock me away in you’re tiny brain and call me useless.
”And then you try to kill us without consulting me! And on top of all that you want me to help you figure out and or guide you despite me not being “necessary” The demon shouts with a huff shoving my face away from hers with a twist of her wrist so volatile that I land backwards on my ass.
The demon snickers looking up at the dark nothingness above us and saying “Guess I’ll see you again once you fall asleep.”
Asleep? I question looking at the spot where the demons looking only for my entire body to jerk upwards as I wake up in a cold sweat.
Where am I? I think to myself as I glance around the room unsure where I was or why I wasn’t dead.
My glances being greeted by the bright glare of fluorescent lights reflecting off every surface reflective in the room. My body doubling back as my eyes are blinded by the bright lights invading my vision.
“What?” I say out loud.
“Sunset you’re awake!” A familiar voice to the right of me say’s out-loud obviously happy to see me.
Before I could even look to confirm who was in the room with me I was put into a hug that could crush a grizzly bear.
Definitely Pinkie judging from the hair and the rib cracking hug that was now enveloping me. I think to myself starting to struggle due to lack of oxygen.
“Pinkie let me go! I can’t…… …..Breath.” I say barely able to get out the words between the gasps for air.
Pinkie didn’t let go immediately in fact her grip got tighter as I gasped her entire body clenching the death grip harder when I said her name.
Whoa! That would be some way to die you survive suicide only to be suffocated by a Pinkie hug. My shoulder demon snarks laughing at my troubles.
To which my shoulder Angel quietly reply’s: She wouldn’t hug us to death she’d probably stop once we pass out……
……At least I sure hope she would.
I sigh…. ….well at least as much as one can while being hugged this long by Pinkie “the bear” Pie
I was glad I only had to deal with the voice’s of my shy inner self and my bitchy self and not the red monster that haunted my nightmares whenever I managed to doze off at night.
“Pinkie please let go.” I say trying to push her off of me as she continued her death grip.
After about a minute of pushing Pinkie finally released me plopping down at my feet. Finally able to look around I glance around the room.
the hospital?
Oh Shit! If I’m in a hospital and Pinkie is here…. …..then her hug a second was because she knows I tried too… My thoughts were interrupted by Pinkie suddenly asking “Why did you do it?” In a low but audible tone.
I glanced back at the pink girl unsure how to respond to her question only to see a girl who looked like, sounded like and definitely hugged like Pinkie but most definitely didn’t act like her.
In front of me sat a girl with tears in her eyes and a look that was so sleep deprived and depressed that I couldn’t tell where the tired began and the tear lines ended.
In fact she looked so sad that her hair wasn’t it’s poofy cotton candy self anymore it was long, stringy and so flat it could maybe even be described as deflated.
Again Pinkie repeated the question looking me directly in the eyes her voice much more loud and steady as she practically screams.
“Why? Would you do that?”
Her cries and tears getting louder and louder as her tears begin to rain like a waterfall almost the same as the crying emoji (😭) I had in my phone.
Her sobbing continued for what felt like hours but was probably just a few minutes that felt longer then they were.
Eventually once the crying was starting to subside she gave me a glance wiping away her tears and in a soft almost pleading tone began to speak.
“Wait! Dashy must’ve seen it wrong or maybe Applejack misunderstood what’s Dashy said. You’d never jump right?” Her eyes basically pleading with me to say something like: “no no I was watching the river from the railing and I slipped on the ice. Hehehe silly me!!
Lying will only make it worse and looking at Pinkie now it can’t get much worse then it already appears to be.
Eh lie dealing with a crying Pinkie Pie ain’t ever fun. Just call her later and say “I lied to you I tried to kill myself.” And hang up so you can avoid the crying. my shoulder demon whispers in my head.
Nooo! Don’t do that we’ve evolved more then to do that.That’s something old us would do and we should help her feel better now. my shoulder Angel argues loudly enough that it would burst my ear drums I’d it was real and not one of my delusions.
Deciding not to lie I grab Pinkie’s hand and say “No Pinkie I did try to—“ immediately as I begin to say it she launches herself at my once again hugging me harder then should be possible.
Why was Pinkie so devastated? I was only her fake friend…
