Where am I, what happened, why does everything hurt?
Where am I, what happened, why does everything hurt?
A story about how sometimes when we hurt others we also hurt ourselves. Because physical pain isn't the only kind there is. For the life of me I've been trying to figure out how to improve this description but can't.
Message from the author
This is the first fanfiction I ever actually wrote and as such I sort of holds a little place in my heart. When I first wrote and posted this story is was very rough. (A first draft with little to no editing) Though to my surprise it met with a good reception. As such I decided to put more time into this story to truly make it shine as well as I can. Going back and fixing my mistakes, polishing out the rough bits, and some general revisions to help the story flow better. I do hope you enjoy this story and the work I put into it.
As of 12/01/2014 every chapter has been revised and edited to a new and (hopefully improved) version! Even one scene from the first chapter has been cut out and moved to its own separate chapter. I hope you enjoy this story as much as I did creating it.
I'd like to think my editors; sbloom85 and Kraken Hatchling for their help with this. You guys are awesome. An additional thanks to Leoshi for also pointing out and helping me fix errs that were missed.
Everything is dark. Where am I? Am I in my bed? No… My bed isn’t hard… I open my eyes The light stings my eyes and all I see is a blurred mesh of gray and brown. I blink and everything slowly gets a little clearer. I blink again and I see rocks and dirt. Beyond that is all a blur of colors and shapes. I’m lying on the ground? Why am I lying on the ground? Where am I? I slowly try to move… IT HURTS …It hurts… my entire body hurts! Why do I hurt so much? I stare at the rocks and dirt in front of me as they quickly fade back into the blur, now feeling only the pain, everything hurts.
I hear something, a pony? Somepony screaming? Who’s screaming and why does it hurt so much!?
It’s me… I’m screaming. I’m screaming from the pain. I can’t stop, it just keeps coming and it just keeps hurting. It hurts so much my eyes are burning… I’m crying… I can feel the tears streaming down my face.
I just keep screaming and screaming. I don't know how long I scream but soon my lungs ache and my throat feels like it's on fire.
Another noise, it's somepony sobbing? It’s me again. I’m crying to myself, it hurts. I can’t stop even though every sob and moan of pain hurts me even more then the last. I can’t stop and it hurts. I wish I could stop... I wish the pain would just stop...
I see something moving, it’s hard to see anything though the tears so I try to blink them away; it’s still hard to see. But I can tell it’s a hoof… a pony. Somepony came to help me. Please… help me…
I watch the hoof as it reaches out and touches me… IT HURTS I cry out in pain and the hoof quickly pulls away.
I hear noises… voices? They’re saying something. Are they talking to me? I can hear them but I can’t understand them… It sounds like they’re talking though a wall, everything is muffled.
I try to say something but it hurts too much so all I can manage is a moan.
Another hoof reaches out to me and tries to slide under me. IT HURTS They’re trying to help me and IT HURTS More talking, can’t understand them… ears ringing.
Another blur gets close to me, it’s a face, and I can almost make it out. A voice says something then the blur starts to move away... No... Please don't go. I don't want to be alone. Gone... The blurred pony is gone...
Silence, pain, and rocks are my entire world once more. How long have I been here? The pain makes it hard to think. I see something red in the corner of my vision. I slowly -IT HURTS- turn my -IT HURTS- head to try to see. I see the red… It’s… it’s my blood? It’s creeping away from me slowly. I see something floating in it… A feather; it’s floating on the blood, stained red. It’s mine. I keep -IT HURTS- turning my -IT HURTS- head slowly towards my body. I see my legs and one of my wings.
One of my wings hangs limply over my body, several broken feathers sticking out at random angles. It hurts; I don’t dare try to move it. I don't think I even can.
My front left leg is the only one I can really make out right now... It’s stained with blood. There are several cuts that are still bleeding. Something is sticking out. It looks white and it’s covered in blood and some other stuff. It’s a bone… my bone is broken and it’s sticking out of me. I can see parts of myself that I shouldn’t be able to see. I feel sick.
I feel sick, the pain is making me sick, the sight of my leg is making me sick. I can’t stop my self from vomiting. It hurts so much.
My body keeps heaving as it tries to throw up whatever was in my stomach.Nothing else is coming up after the first time and each attempt hurts more and more. Eventually I stop. But the pain doesn’t go away. I feel strange… Colors are starting to meld together and everything feels so light. How long have I been here? I feel tired. I want to sleep but everything hurts so much.
Suddenly I hear the muffled voices again and I see the colored blurs moving in front of me. Another pony?
One of the blurs gets close to me and says something… The voice sounds soothing… I feel sleepy… I close… my… IT HURTS My body is being moved. IT HURTS SO MUCH I’m being lifted up by the blurred pony. IT HURTS PLEASE PUT ME BACK DOWN IT HURTS I’m crying in pain but they’re still lifting me up. MAKE IT STOP I feel myself press against something tightly as a hoof holds me in place. I’m crying in pain. I wish I could tell them to stop but all I can do is cry and scream.
It feels like we’re flying now, each beat of the pony’s wing hurts me. I’ve stopped screaming now… It still hurts but I don’t have the strength to cry anymore. I feel so weak... So sleepy... Everything is getting darker...
Where am I? Why can’t I move? Why is everything numb?
I open my eyes.
The light stings my eyes are all I see is a blur many colors.
I’m lying on a bed.
A blue blur fills my vision and I hear a muffled voice.
I blink to try to clear the blurs from my eyes.
Everything is still a bit blurred but now I can see a sky blue pegasus with a rainbow mane standing next to the bed I’m on looking down at me. Rainbow Dash? Where am I? The fog in my head starts to clear and I’m slowly able to make out what she’s saying.
“-ctor Stable, she’s waking up!” she calls to somepony I can’t see. She sounds happy and relieved at the same time. She turns back to me, “Scootaloo, you’re going to be okay.”
She reaches a hoof and gently moves some of my mane out of my face. I try to speak but she cuts me off. “Shhhh, don’t speak, okay?" You fell… You… You almost died. But you’re safe now.”
Another pony walks into my view, a stallion tan stallion with a brown mane wearing a doctor’s coat, his cutie mark one of those heart beeping things like the one I’m actually hooked up to right now.
“Scootaloo, do you understand me? Just nod if you do, you’re very weak right now,” he says.
I nod, slowly showing that I understand. It’s hard to nod; my whole body feels stiff and numb.
“Good,” he continues, “You’ve been out for about a day now.”
A day? It’s been a day since… since all of the pain? Rainbow said I fell. Where did I fall? How did I fall? I can’t remember anything.
“Ms. Dash, I think it would be for the best if we leave her to rest.”
“What? No way! She JUST woke up and I want to stay with her.”
Doctor Stable sighs, “Fine, fine… Just don’t try to move her or anything, okay?” Stable walks out of the room after that and I hear a door close.
I take a glance around my room, or at least the parts of it I can actually see. It’s mostly just a plain hospital room, except for flowers and cards sitting on the end table. A lot of get well cards and one that says ‘I’m sorry’ which I don’t understand.
Dash’s voice draws me eyes back to her, “Hay Squirt, you doing okay? You need anything?” she says, concern leaking into her normally confident voice.
For the first time since I woke up I notice how dry my throat and mouth are. I slowly try to speak but my voice is dry and raspy and hard to get out, “Th-thir-”
“You’re thirsty?” she finishes for me; all I can do is nod as she quickly disappears.
Less than ten seconds later she comes back with a paper cup full of water and carefully holds it up to my mouth to let me drink. I slowly sip the water to help my dry throat, it makes me cough once but I keep drinking, the soothing cool water helping my dry aching throat. “Th-thank you,” I manage to say in a hushed voice.
Rainbow stays with me for hours to keep me company, even reading a few chapters from a Daring Do book to me. Sweetie Belle and Apple Bloom stop by with their sisters to spend some time with me. I don’t talk that much, it’s still hard. Soon I’m the only one left in my room, even Dash left soon after everypony else.
Time slowly ticks by, and the only other ponies that came into my room was a few nurses to check on me and to help turn me over to face the windows. Soon I can feel myself drifting off to sleep again.
Right before I fall to sleep there’s a knock on the door and one of the nurses peeks her head in. “Scootaloo?” she says, “You have some more visitors.”
Another visitor? Who could it be? Everypony I really care about has already been here… I hear two sets of hooves walking into the room and around to the side of the bed I’m facing. Two ponies I never dreamed would be visiting me in the hospital.
It was an average Friday afternoon in Ponyville; blue skies, bright sun, and just enough clouds to look nice but not gloom up the place. All in all a nice day. School had let out a few hours ago and Silver Spoon and I were walking down one of the nature trails near Ponyville.
Something that I find myself doing a lot when I want to think or just to talk to Silver without any pony else bothering us. This is the one I normally enjoy the most, it being actually one of the longest as it runs past the Ghastly Gorge, as it leads to a nice spot where we like to hang out. But today I couldn’t enjoy the walk. Silver Spoon and I were walking and talking about our plans for the weekend… Well Silver was; I was still silently fuming over what happened during recess today at school.
I had gotten into a fight with that stupid orange chicken Scootaloo and her friends… They won. It wasn’t anything physical, I’d never get away with that in school anyway, it was just the standard I call her a ‘blank flank’ and make fun of her and her talent-less friends thing. I actually don’t have a problem with not having a cutie mark… I mean not long ago I didn’t have one either. But that fact of having one was just one thing I could lord over those stupid fillies and make them upset.
But this time was different, they actually had managed to make a few, I admit, good comebacks. But it was the last thing Scootaloo had said that actually stung the most. I was going though the usual insults, making fun of her flightlessness, calling her dumb and such when she said, ‘At least I have more friends than you do, seriously, the only pony I ever see you with is Silver Spoon. Maybe if you were nicer you’d actually have more friends!’
Stupid Scootaloo, I can be nice if I want. It’s not like I bully them just for the enjoyment of it. I know it isn’t nice to bully others, I should know because I’ve been bullied myself, me and Silver both. I quickly found out that the best way to make sure other kids don’t bully you is to be a bigger bully then they are. The other bullies tend to not pick on somepony they think can fight back… the cowards… If I wasn’t putting up a-
“Hay Diamond!” Silver Spoon half shouted while poking me in the side, “Diamond, I asked you a question.”
“Oh, sorry Silver I was sort of, yeah… sorry what did you say?”
“Are you, like, still hung up on that Scootaloo said during school?”
I sigh and nod my head before scowling and kicking a small rock down the road, watching with little enjoyment as it skips across the ground and bumps into a larger rock. Silver just gives a sigh before continuing.
“Like, don’t get so hung up on what she said, it’s not like it matte-“
“IT DOES MATTER!” I yell at her, my silent fuming now becoming open anger, “I’m supposed to be the strong one, not her! She made me look stupid in front of the others! You saw how the others laughed at us, right?” She nods and opens her mouth to speak but I cut her off, “Stupid Scootaloo, stupid crusaders, stupid everything!”
“Diamond please, you need to calm down,” she says in a shaky voice, “you know I don’t like it when you get like this.”
I don’t respond, I just look down at the ground and keep walking, all the while Silver tries to calm me down… Eventually I start feeling a little better… Silver has always been good at keeping me calm. I remember that stupid joke her mom sometimes says about her being born with a silver tongue in her mouth or something… Silver hates that joke.
“Come on Diamond,” she says, now sounding happier, “there’s nothing you can do about it now. It’s best if we just drop it and move on. We have, like, the whole weekend ahead of us, just you and me,” she finishes with a smile.
“Yeah… I guess you’re right. There’s noth-” I look up, my words cutting themselves off when I see her… Scootaloo.
I’m not sure how long we've been walking, I lost track while I was in my thoughts, but we were coming to the edge of the Ghastly Gorge. Silver and I come to this spot on the shallower side of the gorge a lot and just sit and talk; it’s quiet and almost no one ever comes out here. Except now there she was, Scootaloo, sitting in OUR spot looking out over the gorge.
Next thing I know I’m storming up to her with Silver trailing behind me trying to stop me from starting another fight.
“HAY, BLANK FLANK!” I yell to her, Scootaloo quickly turning her head around to look at me, her face turning from surprise to anger the second she saw me.
“What do you want Diamond!?” she angrily spits out.
“You’re in our spot, blank flank.”
“I don’t see your names on it!”
“Yeah, well it’s still our spot so get lost!”
“I was here first!” she takes a step towards me.
“Yeah, well what are you even doing out here in the first place? Shouldn’t you be with your stupid friends in your stupid clubhouse doing whatever is that you do?” I say while also taking a step towards her, not letting her get one up one me.
“What’s it to you! It’s not like it’s a crime to take some alone time!”
“What, did you and your baby friends have a fight or something?”
“No, I just wanted to be by myself and think!”
“About what… Oh, let me guess, how to get your cutie mark right?” I say with sarcasm dripping off every word.
“No! I was thinking about flying, okay!”
“Oh like a chicken like you could ever hope to fly… Wait… you know what. I guess you’re not a chicken. I remember that today in class Ms. Cheerilee told us that wild chickens can actually sort of fly, right? So I guess that makes you less then a chicken, you’re a dodo bird instead!” I laugh while I watch her face go from anger to confusion to anger again.
“SHUT UP!” she yells right in my face before shoving me, making me take a few steps back.
She shoved me? SHE SHOVED ME! HOW DARE SHE EVEN TOUCH ME! I'm so mad about everything that happened today, so furious at this stupid idiot blank flank for everything she’s made me go though that I shoved her back… hard… very hard…
I watch as she stumbles back, and back, and then she wasn’t there anymore. It’s like time suddenly stopped as I took in what had just happened.
I just pushed Scootaloo over the edge of the cliff.
I was in shock; I couldn’t believe what I had just seen. I kept repeating it over and over again in my head. Scootaloo and Diamond got into a fight. Diamond pushes Scootaloo over a cliff.
I can still see the look on her face as she disappeared over the edge, a mix of shock and confusion. She didn’t even try to stop her fall in any way, she didn’t even scream. It was as if her mind couldn’t process what was happening to her. I felt the same way as I watched it happen. I still can’t believe what I had just seen. I just continued to stare at the spot where she once was for a while. Has it a few seconds or was it minutes, I’m not sure. Time feels like it’s standing still.
Suddenly I felt myself moving towards Diamond Tiara, and the cliff. My whole body is shaking and I have a sick feeling in my stomach. I just stared at the edge the whole time I’m walking towards it… where she disappeared.
“D-Diamond…” I forced myself to speak, “y-you… you… that…” I couldn’t think of anything to say, I tried to but it kept getting jumbled together.
Diamond doesn’t say anything. I turn to look at her, she has the same face that Scootaloo had as she fell, eyes wide open and pupils shrunk to pinpricks. Her mouth was moving as if she was trying to speak but no sounds came out.
“Diamond… Look at me Diamond!” I yelled, while grabbing her and shaking trying to snap her out of her shock. Her head snapped to look at me, the look of shock still in her eyes.
“S-Silver? I didn’t… I never meant… I… I…” she said while slowly turning her head back towards the cliff, I also turned to look.
We both made our way closer to the edge; it was like some sort of sick compulsion that I had to obey. I couldn’t stop myself no matter how much I wanted to. Neither could Diamond Tiara. Slowly we crept closer to the edge, slowly my stomach started churning at the thought of what I was going to see next as we both look over the cliff at the same time seeing what we wished we didn’t know to be true.
At the bottom of the gorge was Scootaloo, looking like a tiny doll from the height we were at… a tiny broken doll. That’s when it hit me, Diamond Tiara just killed Scootaloo and I watched it happen. I feel the tears threatening to well up in my eyes. And judging from the quivering breaths coming form Diamond, she wasn’t faring any better with what we are seeing than I was.
I looked back over at her, reaching my hoof up to her chin to turn her head to face me. Her eyes are filled with tears while she kept saying “I didn’t mean to...” under her breath over and over again.
“D-Diamond, we need to… to tell som-” I’m cut short when a noise pierces though all my thoughts like a knife. Screaming, somepony screaming. It isn’t me, and it isn’t Diamond. We both are quickly drawn back to the edge looking down at Scootaloo.
She was screaming… Scootaloo was screaming in pain. SHE WAS ALIVE! I’ve never felt so relieved and terrified before in my life. Relieved that she isn’t dead, but terrified at the noise she was making.
I’ve heard ponies scream before, in fear, in anger, but never in pain. It is the single most horrific sound I have ever heard, piercing me to my very soul. I feel sick just listening to it. The visuals accompanying it didn’t help.
Suddenly both I and Diamond are running along the edge of the cliff, completely on impulse. We came here often and we knew there was a place where the gorge got shallower making it safe to enter, that’s where we’re running towards. All I can think of is Scootaloo in pain, and that we had to help her. It didn’t matter if we didn’t like her, no that stopped mattering the moment we heard her crying in pain. It was like that screaming was compelling us to get to her as fast as possible.
As soon as we reached the safe path into the gorge, the echoes of her screaming were fading. The screaming terrified me, but the sound of it getting weaker and weaker was far worse. We ran faster, it felt like forever until we finally reached her.
When we reached her, I could see what had happened clearly. From what I could tell by looking at her, she had hit a pile of rocks and other stuff that seemed to be piled up against the wall of the gorge. I didn’t have to look at her to tell that, there were spatters of blood and some of her feathers on the pile where she hit and rolled to where she was now.
I can feel my stomach turning just by looking at her. Little orange feathers fluttered a crossed the dirt in a light breeze. Scootaloo is laying covered in dirt and blood that was seeping form several gashes and scrapes across her body. One of her wings is draped over her and the other is laying limp next to her on the ground. I see something sticking out of one of her front legs; I quickly look away from it.
She’s sobbing, with a pained look on her face, tears streaming down from her eyes mixing with blood coming from her nose. Her eyes were open but even though she is looking in our directing I’m wonder if she can even see us.
Diamond stands still, a look of worry on her face. I have to force myself just to make a move towards Scootaloo.
“H-hay…” I say as calmly as I can to her as I leaned down next to her. Being this close I can actually smell the blood; it’s making me feel even sicker then I am. “Scootaloo, c-can you hear me?”
She didn’t respond, just continued the same pained sobbing she’s been doing since we arrived. Her eyes are looking at me but they look like she’s trying to see something behind me. I gently reach out and touch her…
Her high pitched scream of pain causes me to pull back quickly and cover my ears to attempt to drown out the horrifying noise.
“SILVER WHAT DID YOU DO!?” Diamond yells at me as she quickly closes the distance between us, Scootaloo’s screaming having snapped her out of her stupor.
“I just touched her and she started to scream!” I say as she looks down at Scootaloo and held her hoof up to her mouth. I can hear her choking back the urge to throw up.
“I-I did this… I did this…” she began repeating as she stared at Scootaloo.
I shook her, looking her right in the eyes, “Listen Diamond, w-we need to help her okay?” Diamond nods to what I’m saying. “We’re going to have to carry her… H-help me okay?” Another nod from Diamond. “S-so… Help me lift her on my back… yeah, my back. Okay?”
“…okay…”
Diamond gently tried to slide her hoof under Scootaloo’s body. Immediately she began screaming in pain and Diamond quickly pulled away, squeezing her eyes shut. This isn’t going to work; we can’t even pick her up without causing her pain. We need to do something else.
“W-what are we going to do Silver?” Diamond sobbed. “What are we going to do?”
“W-we… we get help!” I don’t know why I didn’t think of that before. All of the panic must have been keeping me from thinking straight or something. “Diamond, you go tell somepony what happened a-and I’ll stay here with Scootaloo.”
“Y-yeah...” She replied before slowly backing away, turning around, and quickly sprinting away.
I watched as she got farther away and I suddenly feel something wet against my hoof. I looked down… blood. It’s blood. Scootaloo’s blood... There’s a pool of blood forming around her. I slowly back away from her, and turn away. I can’t bear to look at her anymore.
“Please… hurry.” I said before the tears started falling from my eyes. I couldn’t hold them back anymore. I can’t stop crying. All I can think of is Scootaloo right now. This shouldn’t have ever happened. Why did this have to happen?
I hear more pained moans from Scootaloo. I turn to watch her. She looks like she’s trying to move! “N-no, don’t move,” I say, though I don’t know if she can hear me. She continues to move, it looks like she’s trying to curl into a ball or something. Maybe I should stop her… no touching her only hurts her more.
Suddenly she makes a jerky movement and a retching sound… Oh Celestia, she’s throwing up. I have to look away and cover my ears, I don’t want to hear this I don’t want to hear this! It’s too horrible.
The smell… Blood and vomit. It’s too much for me to take. I can feel my stomach trying to, to… I can’t stop my self. I throw up on the ground in front of me.
Please Diamond… Please hurry…
I close my eyes; all I can do now is cry and hope.
It is a beautiful day; the skies (which I cleared up by the way) are perfect, the sun is shining, and the perfect breeze for flying drafting up from the clearing below. It was the perfect day for a lazy flight. Though I wasn't doing any ‘lazy flying’ NOPE! I’m doing my totally cool and awesome flying!
I can’t help but smile as I pull out of my latest and greatest awesomely executed trick, a double loop corkscrew! And it only took me one whole try to get it right! …well okay, maybe it took more than once but I still managed to pull it off! If only somepony was out here to see it, but the main reason I come out here to practice was to keep anypony seeing me from making mistakes. Having ponies see me mess up is totally uncool. It takes a lot of time and practice to be as cool as I am, but now it’s just the right time to rest.
I swoop over the clearing and do a loop, landing perfectly on a cloud that I had set aside for a very important purpose… napping. I sigh as I lightly lay down on its fluff, closing my eyes and letting my self drif- Somepony is yelling?
I peak over my cloud and see some filly below me in the clearing, waving her hooves frantically trying to get my attention. She looks familiar, one of Scootaloo’s friends?
‘Maybe she saw me doing tricks and wants an autograph.’ I think to myself. But… wait… She looks panicked about something? Is she in trouble?
I quickly dive from my perch in the sky and land in front of her. Closer now I recognize her now, it’s Diamond Tiara; she was Filthy Rich’s kid I think. Scootaloo talked about her sometimes, she bullied her and her friends all the time apparently. What could she want?
“Hay kid,” I started, not really caring “what’s going on?” Whatever she wanted, it had better be important and not something stupid like having her kite stuck in a tree or something.
“R-rainbow, Sco- gorge hel-“ she gasped, her words coming out in starts and stops. That’s when I finally took notice, something was really wrong. Diamond Tiara was crying. Her face was full of not only panic as I had first seen, but fear and hurt.
“Whoa, slow down and tell me what’s wrong” I say, trying to calm her. Whatever was wrong it was definitely big. She wasn’t hurt, at least from what I could see, but the way some was acting clearly pointed at something being very, very wrong.
“S-Scootaloo” she finally managed to stammer out between her sobs.
“What about Scootaloo? What happened?” I couldn’t help but say with some panic.
“T-the Ghastly Gorge… she… she…” she couldn’t finish before she was over taken again by sobs. But I’ve heard enough to know where I needed to be.
It was only a second before I was in the air again, flying as fast I can towards the Gorge. Something had happened to Scootaloo, and she needed me!
It only took me a quarter of a minute to reach the gorge at the speed I was going. I slow down and glide above the chasm while looking for any signs of another pony. It only took a few seconds to pick out an off color on the floor of the gorge. A small splash of gray near an orange one… Scootaloo.
I glide down as quickly I could. I can tell something is wrong instantly. Scootaloo is laying on the ground, there’s a puddle of something red around… blood, she’s laying in a puddle of blood! My heart is pounding and my mind racing. Scootaloo is hurt, badly. My hooves hit the ground running.
The silver filly looked at me as I landed. I could tell she had been crying but that didn’t matter. Only Scootaloo mattered right now.
The closer I got the stronger the smell of blood and vomit in the air got. The sickening smell only added to the stomach turning sight of her tiny body laying there… broken. It’s hard to tell exactly how badly she is hurt just by looking at her, but it didn’t look good. Her front left leg has a compound fracture, the bone clearly piercing though the skin. One of her rear legs was also bent at the wrong angle and had a cracked hoof. One of her wings was laying awkwardly over her, dislocated most likely. She was bleeding from several gashes across her body.
I took all this in but most of all I was drawn to her face. Her eyes are open; blood shot and looking very weakly ahead of her in a thousand yard stare. She was still breathing, but only faintly. I need to hurry, she was hurt, in pain, and I need to help her!
“Scootaloo” I say softly “It’s me, Rainbow Dash” I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I’m not going to cry, now isn’t the time to crying, I need to be strong. “Scootaloo, can you hear me?” I try again but still get no response. I have to get her to the hospital NOW! “You’re going to be okay… You’re going to be okay…” I keep repeating over and over again, more to myself then to her as I reach over to lift her up.
As I touch her she starts screaming. It hurts my heart to hear her scream like that when I touch her. I’m trying to help her, but I’m causing her more pain at the same time. Now the other filly is yelling at me to stop touching her. I can’t, I have to get her to the hospital. I know it hurts her but it’s for her own good!
I manage to get my hooves around her body and pull her close to my chest. She keeps screaming and weakly writhing in my hold. I know it hurts her but I have to do it. I can feel tears falling from my eyes. I need to be strong…
I flap my wings, slowly rising up into the air holding my precious cargo… precious cargo, Scootaloo… Scootaloo have to get Scootaloo to the hospital. Tears are falling from my eyes as I listen to her scream, as a feel her writhe in pain in my hold. I can feel her blood on my fur. I have to move fast.
I’m flying… I’m flying faster… I need to go faster! SCOOTALOO NEEDS HELP NOW!
I fly towards Ponyville, towards the hospital, all while holding Scootaloo. Her screaming is getting weaker. That only makes me move faster.
All I hear now is the wind rushing by me and nothing else… Scootaloo has stopped screaming. Her entire body going limp. No no no no no!
I land in front of the hospital building, running as fast as I could on three legs while the third holds Scootaloo’s limp body to my chest. I kick the doors open as had as I can and right to the front desk. Nurse Redheart quickly looked up at the noise I caused and sees me… but more importantly she sees Scootaloo.
…I’ve been sitting here for a while now. The nurse having called for help as soon as she saw Scootaloo. They quickly took her away to the emergency room.
Scootaloo’s blood stains my coat where I held her to my chest, I don’t try to clean it off… I just feel so tired now as I sit here on a hard waiting room bench, praying that Scootaloo will be alright.
I hear some ponies come into the room. It’s Diamond Tiara and the gray one, Silver Spoon was her name I think. They’re the ones who were with Scootaloo… They’re the ones who told me where she was. They’re the ones who would know what happened! I stare straight at them, they stare right back at me.
“What happened” I say to them, neither of them responding. They only continue to stare at me… no… not at me. They’re looking at the blood staining my fur. I get up and walk towards them, stopping when I’m only a few feet away. “What. Happened.” I say more sternly. Still no response… “WHAT HAPPENED!” I yell and they both snap to look up at me in fear.
Diamond looks down at her hooves and tears me everything, tears falling from her eyes the whole time...
I fell into Ghastly Gorge. That’s what the doctors told me, what Rainbow Dash told me, what everypony told me. But the one thing they didn’t tell me is how I fell. But now I know, all because of Diamond Tiara, crying her eyes out begging for forgiveness after she and Silver Spoon told me everything that happened that day. To say I never expected this would be an understatement. But, here we are. Me, Diamond, and Silver all in one room together and Diamond apologizing to me. Diamond Tiara apologizing and meaning it, the one thing in my whole life I thought I’d never seen.
When Diamond and Silver first came in I didn’t know what to expect. But when they started talking about yesterday, when I fell. What I could remember from that day was me and Diamond getting into a verbal fight during school; then I went to the gorge after school to spend some time alone, spread my wings and feel the updrafts coming up from the gorge, just wishing I could fly like the other pegasi my age. Everything after that is blank, until Diamond and Silver filled in the blanks that is.
Diamond told me that she and Silver went to the same spot at the gorge that I did that day. I was expecting her to tell me that they found me hurt there, that I had somehow managed to do something stupid and fall in by myself. But the truth was far from what I expected. She told me that we fought, that she pushed me... Diamond Tiara pushed me over the edge.
She pushed me over the edge, she could have killed me! But… She didn’t mean to, it was an accident. They both ran down into the gorge to make sure I was alright... They got help, they saved me. But the only reason they had to save me was because of what Diamond did to me in the first place!
I didn’t know what to think. My body was numb from the painkillers, and now so was my mind after listening to what they said. I just stare at them. Silver Spoon is standing next to my bed, trying to force a stoic look and avoiding looking at me but I could see the tears in her eyes. Diamond is sitting on the ground next to Silver, looking down at the floor, openly sobbing and saying “I’m sorry” over and over again in a quiet whisper.
She had hurt me, but she was sorry. She caused me so much pain, but she tried to help me. I feel numb. I want to hate her but… What do I do, what do I say? She pushed me over a cliff! But if it wasn’t for her I’d be dead. But she was the one who hurt me in the first place! But she is crying over what she did. She is crying for me to forgive her. She is sorry for what she did. Diamond Tiara is crying over what she did to me.
I feel tears coming from my own eyes now. I really don’t know what to say, I don’t think there’s anything I can really say now. I reach out my hoof to Diamond slowly, it’s hard because my whole body doesn’t really want to move but I still do it. I lay my good hoof on her shoulder, as I do she looks up at me for the first time since she came into the room. Her eyes are bloodshot and tears continue to stream down her face.
“Diamond…” I start, “I’m… I’m not sure if I can forgive yo-“ I can’t even finish before she removes my hoof from her shoulder and stands back up, staring at the ground.
“I understand… I’m a bad pony and you don’t want anything to do with me…” she says as she starts to turn and walk away… I can hear her choking back sobs as she begins to walk away.
“Wait!” I cry out to her, “let me finish… please.” Diamond stops, and turns her head to face me, “I don’t think I can f-forgive you…” Diamond flinches at my words, “not yet. I still don’t know what to really think about… this… B-but when I get out of here… maybe we can… talk some more?”
“T-talk?”
“Y-yeah… like at school, like… during lunch or on the playground.”
“Like… F-friends?”
Friends? She wanted to be friends? I’d never even given that possibility a thought before… I’ve always seen her as a spoiled rotten brat who bullies everypony she thinks below her… But now, with what she told me during her story about how she and Silver were bullied… and why they bully me and my friends now. Because they wanted to be viewed as the strong ones so that others wouldn’t try to bully them…
Could we be friends? After everything she did to me and my friends...
“I’m not sure we could be friends... at least not yet. But maybe we could be… maybe…”
I’ll remember what happened next forever. Diamond slowly came closer to me… she wrapped her legs around me… Diamond Tiara was hugging me while slowly sobbing into my neck… I wrap my one good front leg around her and return the hug. I don’t think I need to say it anymore, I’m sure my action speaks for itself. That I forgive her for what she did. Though I’m still not sure about being friends but maybe, just maybe, we could be.
We didn’t speak after that; there was nothing left to say. The nurse came in soon after and ushered them out of the room saying that visiting hours were over. We said our good byes and they left.
As I lay in the bed, in my dark room, I started to think about everything that had happened… I was hurt by someone I hated, but then they helped me and now I’ve forgiven them. Maybe all that happened to me is actually good. There was so much I’ve learned, so much that everyone involved learned. Sure, I’ve felt pain and anguish but my pain isn’t important anymore; it’s numbed away and in the past.