I'm trying to come up with a bonus chapter. Already written out another morning. Wish me luck that I get something out.

Sorry It's been awhile since I've done anything.

Schizotypy, Double Depression, college, and loneliness don't mix well.
It's so hard to make myself get out and talk to people. And I know people aren't going to just waltz up to me and socialize...
Just talking with professors is confusing given how often we're talking about different things in the same subject at the same time, leading to miscommunication.

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I've been feeling worse than usual lately. Possibly boredom.
I'm going to Summer orientation for college tomorrow. Mom and Dad asked me for information about it.
Trying to keep track of appointments and the college process stresses me more than is rational. Like, suicidal stress. My mood has fallen terribly, and I doubt I'll be able to have a healthy night.

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writers
animators
voice
actors
all
got
shit
done
awesome.

Happy 100th Episode. Love this community.

I don't know what I keep doing wrong. I can't write, and I can't find an editor who will give me the time. I'm just going to go back to lurking and practicing bad calligraphy.

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Chapter 25 Brainstorming.

So the ponies find the human attractive. Not interesting. Must be addressed.
There's a reason that they find him attractive. Will require ret-con to make sense. Won't be interesting. Must be addressed.
Must involve magic? Lack of magic? I delayed answering the question because I don't know what I'm doing.

There are still Gryphons out there. Might be interesting. Might want to address.
Boss, the boss, and egalitarian

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Okay, yeah, I'm not sorry. I had to delete it.

If anypony didn't know of this already, I had finished this 5,000 word one-shot clop-fic-- which I turned into this creepy, kinky clusterfu that made me wonder what the fu I was doing.

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I wanna die so badly. But I know that won't end my torment. What will killing myself do but earn me a free 1-way to hell? I'm already in hell, and I don't want to hurt my parents. I'm about to graduate and I've already caused them enough grief.

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I have dysthymia and schizotypy. As a diagnosis.

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My prayers feel blocked. My happiness choked. If my throat isn't dry and clogged with mucus, then I'm constantly having to pee. My improvised music all sounds the same. My head is empty yet my mind is a hurricane. Food is bland. The sound of people annoys me. Months of physical therapy haven't done anything for my neck. I keep trying to tell myself, It's okay. A few more weeks. It'll be over and I'll be out of school. But really, will it? Every time they say it will only get better, it doesn't.

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