I just got a call from my friend... I've been friends with him for a while and he told me his grandmother died.... his grandmother did a lot for me and... it just hurts.... it hurts to hear of her passing... I might be off here for a couple days to collect my thoughts and be there for my friend... My friend and his grandmother were always taking me out for food, letting me come over stay for a while... they've taken me to the beach out in Coronado and we tried to plan many other things....

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I get asked to do something and something will be revealed to me yet what isn't told to me is what I would be doing and what would be revealed. Curious I ask why and what for. They say nothing and EVERYONE get's pissed off at me!

Got surgery today for my kidney stones, got a stint in place and... I HAVE to keep my wits about me not thinking about sex until I get this thing out of my urethra. not to mention the pain when I urinate.

my fear was triggered again and it made me puke.... I'm scared to die... Someone please talk with me and help me get away from this bullshit....

I'm having major writers block atm. I've been working on a number of fics and somehow theyre only going so far until I swap to another fic.

Is there any way I can fix it so I can get my ideas back?

Ben (AKA my lil sachums, Sachie, Icarus, Sa'charin) is just the best. I love him to death. He basically helped me come out of my shell and open myself up to being bi. My love for him is stronger than the previous relationships I've had.

I sneezed and got fucking hot coffee AAAAALLLLLLL down my arm...My sister cant understand you cant have your eyes open when you sneeze. I couldn't see where my step dad was and I ran right into the coffee mug having it jam into my arm as coffee got all over me. It's like that one commercial about mucinex or something. The guys sneezing while getting coffee and ended up smashing into the window/door spilling his coffee

I had a nightmare that scared the living daylights out of me... I haven't slept right for weeks... Stress of kidney stones, bad thoughts and stupid coincidences scaring me I cant really sleep without fearing a nightmare or tossing my cookies. Is there any way someone could help me find a way to sleep soundly?

I feel as if I am going insane because so many things are freaking me out causing me to fear puke (that and the heat + Kidney stone pain) and... Well my mind keeps going back to it making me worry... Family says don't think about it, friends sat don't think about it but that doesn't help. When I was younger my mom kept saying don't do all this bullshit because someone could kill you, kidnap you, etc. and I was scared shitless. Why else do I stay inside doing nothing but playing video games and

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I'm having BIG time writers block because of a kidney stone I'm passing (hopefully) and it hurts like hell... I was up at 4 in the morning and went back to sleep almost an hour later because of the pain meds I had to take.