It's not in my nature to be contentious or offensive, even with myself. I'm a coward and a follower. But today I find myself going around and around in circles on life's big picture, trapped in a shortcircuit. In order to escape, I must challenge the fundamental assumptions because the thought has no end, and if I try to concentrate on it I end up back where I started with less time left to think. This is worth writing down, of that I'm certain, not because it is a discovery or a great idea,

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In the dying years of the republic, everyone could sense it coming. Those that couldn't accept that things would change buried their heads in the sand and kept on living as if tomorrow would come, but the winds of change would not blow. Those that felt the winds of change waited, patience is a virtue and surviving a change in the world order requires careful observation. Those that pushed for the change waited the moment to strike, it's not an easy thing to topple a way of life, especially one

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Recently I've hit a slight life hurdle, and I'm going to blog about it because I've got nothing better to do at 3am and this song is gorgeous.

I have no idea how Flutterdash works. That's the truth, a sneaking suspicion that's crept up on me from the moment I landed feet first here. I don't know what the attraction is. The spark. The crucial element.

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So heads up to anybody I haven't already broken the news to, I was in a car crash today.

I'm fine, it could have been much worse (although the car had just been serviced).

Having ticked that off the list of things I wanted never to happen to me but now have, I can say that I seriously hope it never happens again.

Drive safe out there.

I've spent the past hour trying to write a blogpost that whines about how society's out to get me and I don't have a place in it.

But that isn't true, and I've realised the issue is far simpler.

There are a set of rules in my head that are set out in such a way as to make out that I can't win. Some of them are actual rules and some of them are not. These are hollow notions, false notions, hastily constructed shortcuts or mere tape over whole avenues of thought and action.

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If you'd got me at some other point today, this probably would have been more in line with my usual style. But right now, I'm truly, wholly, completely happy. And because I am happy, this blog post is a heck of a lot shorter.

It's my birthday and today was just awesome.

Thank you, all of you. It's wonderful just to be alive and have the privilege of knowing you all.

Have a good day.

As you read this, feel free to listen to either of the two following songs, as I feel like they set the mood for what I'm about to say nicely.

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Do you dream?

Can you put yourself in a world that is not the one we inhabit because in that other world you've reached some logical extension of your personal journey?

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I've just signed away my right to kill myself. It's a funny thing really, who's going to come to collect the fine if I do? But it's enough to stop me if I get close.

I think it goes without saying that this is the worst the depression's ever been. I've got about 3 or 4 blogposts saying that now and it's as true now as it was then.

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It's now 3:00 am on the morning of my 21st birthday.

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