My Dear Caramel,
The first thing that I want you to know is that this was not your fault at all. I made this decision by myself, so don't you even for a second think that I chose this path because of you. In fact, you've been one of the few good things to ever happen to me, and I will always be grateful for that.
Before I met you, my life was unbearably dull. All I did day in and day out was grow apples, buck apples, gather apples, cook with apples. From Golden Delicious Ranch to Appleoosa Orchard my life was filled with nothing but apple trees. It was the only life I had ever really known, so I didn't question it. However, I could not escape the belief that I was destined for something better. That I was meant to be something more than just an apple bucker.
I tried everything I could in my job to try and make my feeling a reality. I climbed the ranks of the Apploosa Orchard company and even helped to found the town. Having become the manager of the Orchard, I had hoped that my life would be complete. But no matter how hard I tried nothing ever seemed to make my life complete. I needed something else, something new to make my life actually have a purpose. Make it actually have a meaning. And then you came along.
As you know I'd had my fair share of flings and one night stands with the girls in the town, but not one of them seeme right for me I never could see myself settling down with Carrot Top or Derpy Doo or any of the other girls. I had never considered that perhaps I had been looking for companionship in the wrong place. When you came to town, everything else seemed so insignificant. I know it sounds corny, but I honestly do believe that I fell in love with you the moment I saw you.
I can still remember our first date. That's a memory that I will definitely be taking with me. You took me out to see a show in that big theatre down in Red Creek. You never did tell me how you managed to get such amazing tickets to that, but I suppose it doesn't really matter any more.
We were trying to hide that night, unwilling to let anyone see what was really happening between us. I wonder, if we had kept our love a secret, would I still need to do this? Would I still need to leave you? I just want you to know that I love you, and all of those nights that we spent together were some of the most beautiful moments of my life. When we loved, the world stood still and I felt completely safe. But that feeling was regrettably short lived.
I think that I started to consider this option right back when our love was first discovered by the people of Appleoosa. I should have known that it was foolish to try and kiss you in public like that, but I didn't want us to have to go around in secret any more. I had hoped that our friends would understand. But once we were found out, I lost my job, ponies started insulting me as I walked past them, ponies spat on me and kicked dust in my face. They spray painted "COLT CUDDLING CLOPPERS" on our front door and broke our windows.
Why do they hate us so much? Lots of the people in this town have known us for years and never had any complaints about us. Even the Sheriff used to call on you and me for help from time to time. But once we came out, everypony just shunned us. Even my own family refused to speak to me any more, I was so much of a disgrace to their name. But I had you, and for a while that was all that mattered.
I never meant to hurt you at all, you mean too much to me for me to ever be able to intentionally harm you. But when those ponies in white hoods tried to burn down our house, I knew that I had to do something. If they wanted to hate us for our love then I would let them hate me as much as they liked.
But I couldn't fight them. I was just one colt against at least ten of them, and some of them looked incredibly powerful. So instead I have chosen to give you back your life. Without me in the picture, maybe life will be able to return to normal for you. But I can't run the risk of ruining everything by coming back one day, so I am taking my last journey down the one road that I definitely can't come back from.
My rope is ready and as I write this, three words keep buzzing around my head like angry bees desperate to escape:
I Love You, I Love You, I Love You.
Truly I do.
Goodbye Caramel.
Yours forever,
Braeburn.
PS: May I ask of you one favour? Could you bury me next to the tree that Cousin Applejack gave me? I just want to be near my family again, even if it is only in death. Thank you, Caramel.
Oh my God, that was so touching! +1
Of course, the way I'd have wanted to see this end would be with Caramel showing up at the last minute and giving poor Braeburn a reason to live.
But it didn't happen that way. And dammit, there have been too many cases where it didn't happen that way for humans, either.
Strongest possible +1.
Oh god, two of the only things that actually touch my heart of stone: homophobia and suicide.
~ALL OF MY SADNESS~ ~OH GOD~
The homosexuality hits close to home and so does a person (or pony, in this case) killing themselves because of homophobia...
that was so sad
I can relate to this. I remember when people made fun of me for being gay. I really hope this gets peoples attention on bullying
As a man who condemns homophobia to the hilt, this gave me many many feels. It's the fact that this sort of thing really happens. It sends me into despair and rage at the same time. Well done on a good story.
Ok now that I calm down I can write this
I've seen this things happened , even worst things. And I try to figure out... Why they do such things? I mean, do they really enjoy the others pain? Or ruin lives just because you are different? What's the point of that?
Three year ago one of my friends came out and all his world came down... just like Brae, his family reject him... high school was hell for him. He throw himself to a highway.
Since that time that I've been afraid as well. I just came out like 6 months ago and I can't say it's been easy but I have a suporttive family and friends behind me, holding me.
The reason why I cried so much has I read this is because it remember me so much of him... And that I didn't do anything to help, just because I was afraid . I try to convince him that everything would be alright, but he couldn't take it anymore
...
Ok now I'm getting crazy now
Well done story, really touching. Now I understand why this was in LGTB group
My parents are homophobic, and they always wanted me to hate gay people. I just don't understand, if two people are happy together, why does it matter if they are both guys or both girls? I'm too young to think about sappy-romance stuff but if you ask me, if two people are in love, let them be together!
that was sad.
WHY DO I CONTINUE TO PUNCH MY HEART IN THE BALLS?????
I know this has happened in the real world several times, but why?! Why do people think that bisexual and transgender people are cast out from others. It's just like saying blacks are different from whites because their skins different! Why would people attack others, just because of who they are?! Why will people drive them to death, just because they love someone?! This really confuses me, that someone can treat someone else like they are lower than them. Anyway, my little rant there is over....
*sobs quietly*
3573953 People are stupid and ignorant. Originally I was going to say why the whole gay prejudice thing started, but, I'm not sure. The closest I got was there were a few secret lesbians a bit after the Victorian Times, but nobody gave a shit. This was literally sprung from people fearing what is different.
Need an example of how stupid people are? Well, while many have heard about the pastor who claimed god helped him find his car keys, not enough have heard of the women who claimed PLAYING SOCCER WAS A SIN.
Want to know one of her points?
"Want does soccer start with? S. What does Satan start with? S. Soccer is against God, people!"
I probably wouldn't be as anti-homophobic (Is that a thing? What do you even call that.) if there was ACTUALLY A GOOD REASON.
This broadcast brought to you by insomnia and philosophical thoughts mixed with getting a weird disconnection from the universe caused from overdosing on Earthbound.