Half Breed

by ChaosDragon

Ch 3: A Light In The Darkness

The distant shouts grew closer as I cried, turning from unintelligible noise into distinct voices raised in agitation and anger. I looked up through puffy eyes toward the direction of the commotion. My ears, though nothing but two holes in my head, could hear very well and I was able to make out fragments of the shouting, but what I heard made me tremble and start to back away. ‘...have to get rid of it...’ ‘...dangerous...’ ‘...hurt our children...’ ‘...may have to kill it...’ I began to shake uncontrollably, crouching down and making myself small as I backed away, tears still glistening on my face, but the sorrow now replaced with fear.

Comments

[New Spark]

I don't care how long you take or even if you finish this at all. Thank you so much for the piece that you just wrote. As a shy, socially awkward teenager who never hurt anyone but has never been accepted as a friend, I can say that this helps me a lot. Throughout elementary school I was downright bullied and in middle school no-one accepted me as a friend either. I've honestly been so socially beaten down that I'm now really fuckin' scared to just talk to people or approach them. The only people who truly love and accept me are my family. As a teenager, I am beginning to see the hopelessness of the world and the bleakness of my future and how unfair it all is. I'm finding out that my parents both have serious problems and the world is honestly really fucking unfair and there is no place in it for scared, lost children like me. I just miss the simpleness and the naivety and the comfort and the warmth and protection of childhood and the love of home, all of which I've lost. My family loves me, yes, but I can't feel safe anywhere when I know that there's an entire monster of a world out there just waiting to tear me to shreds. I'm sorry if I may sound like an emo, over-priveledged teen finding it fashionable to whine about her perfect life. I sometimes think that's what I am. But... you'd honestly have to get inside my head to figure me out.

[ChaosDragon]

4985045 Really? Because it sounds like you are already in mine. Seriously, it's like looking at a transcript of my early life.

Let me offer some advise from my personal experience.
1) It gets a lot more tolerable when you finally make the decision to be completely alright with who you are. Forget the world, because concentrating on public opinion, what others think, and dwelling on what awaits you is just going to make you more depressed.
2) Find one good friend. So long as you have at least a single good friend, you'll be fine.
3) Find a way to channel the stress and fear into something you enjoy. Playing video games, writing, reading, drawing, etc.. It can be anything and it helps immensely. Personally, I channeled the stress of freshman year at college into this story.
4) Try to hang on. I can promise you things get a LOT better after high school.

[New Spark]

4986194 Thank you for the advise, and for the story. I'll try doing that but it's hard sometimes to not get depressed when the people around you are being total assholes. Thank you. You give me hope. Are you still a loner or did you make some friends in college?

[ChaosDragon]

4987630 I was fortunate enough to find the other oddballs at my school and made two or three good friends in middle school who I still hang out with today. One of them is my roommate actually. Even so, I'm still a bit of a loner. It's probably a little easier for me since I'm a perfect example of an introvert. I'm very comfortable being alone. I actually prefer it sometimes.

[New Spark]

4991063 I also prefer being alone a lot if times, and an also quite introverted. I'm glad that toy made such good friends in middle school. I HAVE one good friends and nobody else, But lately the two if us are beginning more distant since he's in college now and doesn't have a lot if time for me.

[ChaosDragon]

4991840 Yeah, that tends to happen as life moves on. You just have to do your best and be yourself and everything will work out in the end.

[New Spark]

4991921 True. I'm actually a lot more comfortable in my own skin than I was a few months ago so that's good. You know, you really helped me. Thank you.

[New Spark]

P.S maybe a different cover picture would be good.

[ChaosDragon]

4996814 Trust me, I know how the rest of the story goes, it's perfect. Think of it as a representation of his inner turmoil and it will make more sense.

And I'm glad I could help.

[New Spark]

5003385 Okay. You know the story better than I do. And thanks again.

[ChaosDragon]

5003422 The story gets a bit darker as he grows up and life grinds him down further, and lets just say his inner nightmares bare there fangs to the world before the story is done.

[New Spark]

5003480 Okay. I'm looking foreward to more, but still, no pressure.