Unable to think straight after talking to Twilight, I decided to gather myself out on the balcony from Celestia's room. The sun was almost completely out, the Eastern half of the sky shone a bright orange, while the sky to the west held a mixture of blue, stars and black. Right above me was the Twilight itself, that wonderful concoction of violet sky that streamed across between the North and South. I'd seen countless mornings like this one, yet I never had the chance to fully appreciate them, at least not in the way that I could now. The scene was enough to bring tears to my eyes. The action caused me to question why it was so. The only reason I should have watery eyes is because...
I squeezed my eyes shut and tried my best to make as little noise as I could. No matter how much time passed, I could never completely forget what I did. And like the others, I could never forgive myself. I loved them, all of them. Yet I abandoned them when they truly needed me and one of them... Shaiya... had died as a result. How she died escaped me, but she died nonetheless.
Alas, it seemed not even muffled cries went unheard. The gentle hoof step from the doorway behind me reached my ears and I knew Celestia had woken up. "You stayed?" she asked, sitting beside me, looking over the railing at her Empire.
"Twilight had questions." I replied, not bothering to hide my shame. There was a calm and slightly strangulating silence between us. Neither of us looked at each other. She looked out at Canterlot while I seemed to enjoy watching the worm I discovered dig holes in the little flower pot in front of me.
"We all used to think that a thousand years was nothing more than pocket money to us, didn't we?" she asked. I remembered when we each commented on the subject together. We had forever together, and a thousand years would not stop us from being the best of friends, a family of friends.
"Looks like we spared pain and sorrow some of our coin." I said flatly, blinking slowly.
"What are you looking for, Shiro? What drives you to try and make amends in the strangest of ways?" she asked. An odd question for me to answer.
"I'm looking for a way to join Shaiya. I want to die." I replied.
"You want to forget?" she asked. Her question confused me. I raised an ear to her and looked at her to see she was giving me a sad look as if my answer was not the one she wanted to hear.
"What do you mean?" I asked her.
"Do you still remember when we were young? Our little group was just getting off it's paws and hooves, and I asked you; 'What happens when we die'?" I did remember that. That day was what could have been considered the clincher in my friendship with Celestia. "And you said-."
"You forget everything." I said, both then and now...
...Three hundred-million years ago...
..."Even you?" she asked. She lowered her ears as she contemplated the idea of forgetting her friends, her life, her past, who we were.
"Yes. Even me." I replied, smiling sweetly to show her that it was alright. Sadly, it didn't obtain the reaction I wanted from her.
Celestia began to cry. "I don't want to die... I don't want to forget everything that we have!" she cried out...
...Present...
"The remains of what we had, I still hold dear to my heart. I wouldn't give that up for everything. I only remembered that conversation after I saw you in the vault." Celestia said, looking into my eyes as she spoke to me.
"I don't want to forget, either... I just want to forget the suffering we went through all those years ago, the insanity I endured for five thousand years. Seeing the ghost of someone I couldn't remember and crying myself to sleep because that ghost disappeared and I knew I was somehow responsible. I want to forget this horrible aching in my heart that I feel every second of every day. But I never ever want to forget our lives together. I'd suffer a thousand-fold to keep that in my memories." I said. Celestia smiled sweetly, the same smile I gave her all those years ago.
"I'm glad, Shiro. Maybe you do deserve to claim your old name again." she said. I smiled back at her and leaned towards her, burying my head in her side. She shifted a bit before taking me into a loving embrace. "I forgive you, Shiroyami. Memory or not, you must have had a good reason for doing what you did. You were always arrogant, slightly pompous and loved to show off, but you never did anything to bring harm to the family. I guess, even if you choked facing that thing, I can understand. All of us did in the end, we just weren't fast enough to get away." she told me. I held her closer, digging my claws into her back, but she didn't seem to mind.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I cried, squeezing my eyes shut.
"It's okay... I forgive you. You can stay with me, my best friend." she said. Those words broke me. I sucked in air and yelled into her fur, soaking it with my tears. I felt her hold on me tighten and I welcomed it like a child would welcome their parent after they found out they'd been lost over enemy territory.
Celestia had done three things for me at once. She'd helped me recover a memory I'd forgotten, she forgave me for doing something that wasn't in my nature to do, which caused her and the others to suffer greatly, and finally she told me I could stay. I could stay here with her; I had a home... I was home.
No offense, but three hundred million years? Don't you think thats a little bit too much? I would understand 1 or 2 million years but hundred-millions? That seems a little bit too old, and even Equestria or rather the planet on that equestria lies had to start sometimes. As I said no offense, the story is still pretty good and I love Shiro so far, thats only a little thing that kinda irritated me.
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well, if you think about it: in some of the early chapters it says something about them all having lived through the reign of man, and the reign of the animal kingdom. Humans are already 3.6 million years old, and we only went from little ape-things to what we are now. I'm just going to think, that the immortals were the creation of man, some million years A.C. A species that can do such a thing wouldn't disappear in less than another million. from there, it would probably take another few million years for another sentient race to appear, and replace humanity. On that thought, two or three million years seems a little...too small of a number. And there was no talk about there only having been one dominating race until ponies. I think there was something about wolves having been the dominating species at some point? Three-hundred-million years seems more likely now. Doesn't it?
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Wait if you say the Immortals are creation of man, in other words, of human, than shouldn't they be around 4 million years old? Not three-hundred-million. Three hundred million, wow that would be if you say this takes place on our earth somewhere at the time of Carboniferous, which was about 120 million years before the Dinosaurs.
Or you say this goes into the future AFTER the humanity was extinct. But still, I'm not saying it makes the story unbelievable or something like that, I think for myself, in MY opinion three-hundred-million is just a little bit too much. I don't think its a negative for the story, it's just an opinion
3168516>>3168600 considering there's roughly one-hundred and fifty million years difference between humanity and the dinosaurs, if the Immortals were created somewhere around a thousand or so years from the present day, give it another couple million years for humanity to either move on from Earth entirely or bring about their own destruction. that would leave another hundred and fifty million years for them to wait around for evolution to take effect. Then there's the dark ages where history isn't recorded, this would be where the immortals begin to shape and direct the evolutionary process. All in all, I may be off by a couple hundred-thousand years.
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Okay, fine with me
That's all I wanted, an explanation how you can get to such an amount of time.
Because sometimes there are authors who just smash out such a number without thinking about it, without having such an explanation at hand.
They just bring them up to make their story better. I hate that.
If you write a GOOD fanfiction you should atleast have some good explanations for all the things that happen inside your story.
And apparently you have.
Going to read the story later. The wolf in the image really reminds me of an Arrancar or a hollow from bleach.
3168696 well that was what I was looking for on google when I found him.
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I knew it.
The picture of inside Shiro is really cute. There I said. Also, great chapter. I really enjoyed reading it.
Too... cute.... overload... in.... PROGRESS!!!!!!!!!!!! 10010001001100000011101001 "A critical error has occurred, Please restart your Dr. House and try again"
This is a sad story to read, but it is very good as well. Though I wished all of them came back together, especially Shaiya too.
I still want to read more of this story.
3193416 It'll slowly escalate into awesome as it goes.
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I seriously can't wait bro, because this just got me a little sad though most of all hyped up.
3194111 I wish the shaiya image wasn't broke
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Me too
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Fixed
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thankz meine Freund
Inside, Shiro is just a distressed tinypic mascot
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lol, changed it.