Especially mismatch between external facade and core. Because making appealing facade is simpler than having matching core.

This probably also explains why I'm afraid to be {stereotypically, showy} happy , or have people around who are visibly happy. Because too much of it was just show, unfortunately. Oh no, they were happy for real, extremely not willing to look what exactly was at foundation of their happiness. And this made me very, very sad. And angry.

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I am so fucking angry right now I can't think straight! Ok I had appendicitis back in December luckily they caught it before it ruptured and I even went home the next day. Yay right?

NO!

I just found a letter from my insurance that got lost among stuff that was never opened and I can't think straight. My insurance WILL NOT pay for my stay because it was not "Medically Necessary"

...Really? REALLY was I just supposed to waltz out after having an organ removed?

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