an update that no one really asked for (a life blog) · 2:40am Sep 7th, 2022
Howdy y’all.
So I know nobody asked, but I figure I wanna say something somewhere, and this place doesn’t have a 140-character limit. Might as well put it here.
Today was my first day back in college. I’m now a second-year animation student, and it’s our first year being in person thanks to the pandemic. It was... awesome. I had three classes today, two required classes (classical animation and 3d animation) and an elective. Well, I dropped the elective literally like 3 minutes into the class bc I had a panic attack about introductions. Yup. Anyway, so now I’m doing a different elective.
This past weekend, I saw My Chemical Romance live in Toronto both nights (the great Canadian emo migration). It was, as you could imagine, amazing. We got the best setlist of the tour on both nights, but especially night two, and it was just... so good. My throat is fucked rn, I sound so goofy when I talk. That’ll heal.
Post-concert depression. Y’all ever heard of that? It’s what they call the crash after a great concert. The longing, the sadness. Monday night was the biggest high I’ve ever had (and I had 5 edibles the night before, so that’s saying something) and it was amazing. Pure ecstasy. Serotonin. And then it ended, and I had to run to go catch an 11:30 pm bus to get back to my college city at 7 am because I had classes at 8. As you could imagine, I didn’t sleep well, I didn’t eat well. I was still riding that high, that buzz.
I haven’t eaten anything since yesterday. Well, I have eaten. I had an iced capp, a third of a croissant, and like... four fries. I’m feeling very nauseous right now, and I could solve it simply by eating. But I just can’t. I could say that it’s the PCD (post-concert depression), and it’d be half true. Right now, I can’t listen to anything because it just makes me wish I was back at the concert. I tried to watch Rainbow Roadtrip, but not even ponies were hitting it for me today. Maybe it is, in part, the fact that I just got back from the best night of my life, but I just... I feel horrible. It’s not like it happened all of a sudden, though. No, it’s not just the PCD, though it certainly doesn’t help.
I will be keeping with my “at least once a month upload except for June, apparently” schedule. I swear. I have, like, five stories that are all half written. I just need to pick one and write it. I know I’m going to be getting stressed because of college. I know I’m going to spiral again and crash, but hopefully, it won’t be as bad as it was last year. I made it out then, there’s nothing stopping me now.
For those of you who follow me on Twitter or Tumblr for art, I would just like to apologize in advance because I will not be making art as frequently, or at least nothing worthwhile. Maybe doodles. Rough drawings. Stuff like that. For those of you who read Reins, I plan on getting a chapter up this month. Sorry for the delay, I just can’t seem to find the right combination of words. I have stories I want to write this year, stories that I need to finish so I can publish them when I plan to. I don’t know if that’s going to happen, and for that I’m sorry. I know my stories and just general content as of late has been kind of... shitty, low effort. That’s all I can really give right now. But I’ve got things in the works I’m excited for. I just need to break out of this slump.
Thanks for reading this,
applejackofalltrades
Yeah!! I'm so glad you're having wonderful experiences! I'm sorry about that one class, but hopefully the new elective will be better for you!
Take your time with your stories- can't rush perfection, after all!
I hope you have a wonderful day, and thank you for letting us folks know what's going on!
Apart from the post concert depression, it's cool to hear you've been having fun as of late. But really, I hope you feel better and climb out of the depression.
And don't worry about the stories we'll understand.
eyy, college buddies! Rooting for ya, and if you need a study buddy or writing buddy, lmk!
5684533
Yeah! Surprisingly this summer hasn’t been terrible. Has its ups and downs but the ups were pretty good. And thanks! I hope the class will be better too lol.
Thanks for the kind words :)
5684545
The PCD sucks but I’m just depressed in general lol. I wont lie, though. This particular post concert experience has been super weird. Intense. And thanks for understanding! Still gonna try and not let anyone down
5684551
Heck yea!!! And thanks! All of my classes except for the elective are mainly just assignment based, but hey we’ll see. :)
Best of luck with college!
5684676
Thanks very much!
Glad you enjoyed the concert, but sorry that the post concert depression hit so hard. Don't worry about not getting as much art/stories done, sounds like you've got a lot going on, and college is no joke. As always, let me know if I can help in any way!
5684770
Hey thanks that means a lot :)
yeah, checks out 👍