A Choice · 3:51pm Aug 31st, 2022
The window lingers.
A simple phrase, with only two answers sitting on it.
[Continue?]
[Yes] ◇[No]
The icon flashes, waiting for confirmation.
My eyes unfocus from it, allowing the circling darkness to frame my sight in inky nothingness.
I've been... trying.
Despite me getting a new job, beginning to play games again, even streaming and spending time with my wife now more than ever...
Its hard.
I'm so used to taking care of my sister, helping her succeed and thrive, and now... I'm alone. My twin sister is gone. Her stories, her clothing, her stuffed animals, her save files, everything of hers was left to me to sort out.
I have her notes, the memories of our discussions of what she wants for Illua, for Frustaz, for characters not even seen yet, the hours of writing and rewriting and prewriting theoretical situations.
But I need to know... should I continue?
Should I keep writing her stories? Should I try and finish them, based on the countless notes she's left me? Or should I leave them as is?...
The window lingers.
Do as you see fits. Mayhap you see it as something you do for your sister to continue it or let it rest thinking you should only let her be the author.
Honestly, there's really no advice I can give you on this. On the one hand, as a reader, I naturally want the stories to go on. On the other hand, however, I can't imagine what it does to you to face the prospect of basically immersing yourself in something that was so closely tied to her. Not just continuing from whatever notes she had already in place regarding her work, but continuing beyond those into uncharted territory and always wondering if this is what (and how) she would have done.
Regardless of what you decide, I hope it brings you some measure of peace.
You have the only right. No matter what happens, I will stand by your decision. If you decide to focus on your wife, your streaming, I have every confidence you'll thrive. If you decide to continue her work on here, I have every confidence you will thrive as well. Either option grants something only you can decide and find. I will stand by either.
This is your life. You have the power. You make the options, no matter what others say. Fate is only set in stone when you chisel your destiny into it.