Disappointing Birthday (and Depression) · 12:56pm Dec 17th, 2021
Preface: I apologise for being M.I.A for like 2 days, but I needed time to fully have the knowledge sink in.
Okay so, 2 days ago was our birthday. We turned 24/24/24/29/13 years old on Wednesday. Outwardly we were calm and honestly a little uninterested. Inwardly, we were a mix of: Excitement (Vivianna), Fear (Christina), Annoyance (Daniella), Stressed (Eren) and Exhausted (Ivory). Yet that all gave way to the cloud of depression that had been lowering closer and closer since the beginning of November. It's now mid-December and I can say it got to the point where last night we panicked when the levels were so high, they were borderline suicidal. Blessedly host body was asleep when we realized this, but still...scary stuff! Every attempt takes a good year off our life, I swear! We haven't attempted in over 7 years...that's good...hallucinations aside. We've been very busy and the one day we could potentially relax, we're disappointed that hardly anyone remembered to contact us and wish a happy birthday! Sure there were Facebook messages and like 2 phone calls and a video call, but that's it. I hardly received anything for the birthday (see picture below) and received no physical money (like I do every year and kinda needed bc I'm a little bit broke right now and yes, I did ask for money). I can't complain too much though, I mean I got 1 out of the 3 things I asked for the birthday (Just Dance 2022). Wasn't expecting Doom: Eternal or the $25 gift cards. Yet I'm pleased with what I did get. Besides...it's only about a week til Christmas. I should just hold out some form of hope for a warmer reception on that. People keep saying that I'll likely have a reason to celebrate next year us turning 25/25/25/30/14. It's the "milestone" birthday. We'll have (mostly) been alive 1/4 of standard living age. Yet I feel indifferent. It's just another age. I'm one year closer to death....yay?
Sorry for the rant. Aging sucks and I'm depressed and my medicine only works half the time. Have somethings funny:
Give tight hug
Just remember to never forget the limitless that Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, has given you through Him saving us from the penalty of Sin.
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Yeah ok (would it make much of a difference if I said, I no longer follow the teachings of Christianity).