So very tired · 7:46pm Aug 15th, 2021
One of the reasons I don't write more news like this than I do is that the latest blog post is going to be on my profile's front page and the latest news about my writing for quite a while, but I still felt like I should write something. Because... well, there seems to be some people who genuinely want to read what I write, weird as that feels to say out loud. I mean, there are a few writers whose blog and profiles I check pretty regularly just to make sure they're still around, hoping that they're gonna update their stories, so I guess I can relate, it's just hard to imagine myself being the target of that concern and interest.
Anyway, the reason for the general low activity lately is many-fold, but one reason is that I'm really, really overworked. That's okay though, mostly. It's part of the plan. I have a seasonal job that requires around 12 hours and 30 minutes from me per day. I have my days off, of course, but I'm also switching between working night and working day, so that I get around 45 hours to completely turn my circadian around all the way, 2-3 times per week.
Like I said, this is all according to plan, and it's seasonal, I'm only gonna do this for about... one more month, maybe more, so it's not like I've gotten myself trapped in a job-situation I have no way to get out of. But what it means is that I get around, hmm... 30 to 36 hours every other week, not including actually sleeping during those, where I have enough energy to feel almost normal, and that's just not enough time to get any writing done. Once this is over, I'm planning on taking a few weeks recovering, and hopefully, during that time, work up the enthusiasm to write again. So, right now, if anyone wonders if I'm gonna write, I have several answers:
Do I wanna continue on my stories?: Oh f*ck no!
Do I wanna continue on my stories?: By Celestia yes I do.
That was rant-y, but I was starting to feel guilty for the lack of activity and enthusiasm lately, and wanted to say that this is temporary.
I was also gonna talk about mlaabq in some blogpost, and how a want to continue that story has been stirring in me lately, but that'll have to wait. It's getting late... for someone with these work hours.
Gonna respond to comments on this blog, it's just that answers will have to wait... about a day, at least.
Good heavens man, please, take care of yourself first and foremost. I'd love to see more from you, but not at the cost of stressing you unduly.
Get some rest, get some sleep, do what needs doing, I at least am quite willing to wait.
As long as you're not dead, I'm happy.
It's good to hear that you're doing okay
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Thank you. That's nice to hear. Although... yeah, I'm trying to get some rest, it's just that with shifts these long, I don't have time to calm down and de-stress in order to sleep properly. But like I said, that's okay, this is temporary. I just gotta hold out for a few more weeks, almost certainly less than two months. After all this though, yeah I'm gonna take a real breather.
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Thank you
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Not doing okay right now, but I will later. I get what you mean though
Would love to see more MLaaBQ: Noble Goals when you do get to writing. Take it easy though!
may the omnimessiah bless you with working equipment
Glad you're still alive. And if the timer on the waiting is less than infinity - that's even better. Do what you have to, we'll be here for you when you return :3
Wow, hours like that would literally kill me. Stay safe!
You take care of yourself, we can wait.
How are you not dead yet??
Just take it easy and do your thing, quality work takes time an starting to force something never ends well.
Glad to see you're... not quite dead, from the sounds of it. Hopefully you escape Limbo in one piece. For as much as I enjoy your horse words, I would enjoy the knowledge of you not working yourself into an early grave to a far greater degree.
Do take care of yourself.
Thank you, everyone, for your words. It's very nice to get confirmation that you're understanding and don't stamp your feet in frustration every time I sit down and fail to write anything good.
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Yeah, me too. More cyberpones.
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That blessing clearly didn't extend to my workplace. Things are just falling apart there. First it was the moisture measurer, then it was one of the the infra-scanners, and just today it was one of the germination measurers, and best of all was when the connector plate between the telescope and the collector on the sampler arm was busted, twisted like a pretzel
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Thank you. So, it's a little ways off, but I do plan on continuing writing.
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It would kill me too if I didn't already know that it'll end eventually
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Thank you
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It's my animal vitality. *looks down on self*.
I take that back. It's sheer force of will.
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Thank you. I'm planning on living forever though.
No idea how to make it happen, but I figure it out, I will.
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I'd tell you the secret to it, but I am uncertain what the secret is. Best of luck!
Please don't die of work. The LD50 is much lower than people who sign paychecks seem to think.
If you do get around to writing more on things, I'm sure I'll read it.
Heh, I feel you) I too have to work a lot of one-and-a-half or double night shifts this summer.
Stay strong, and get back to writing when you're not so overworked)
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Thank you
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Don't worry, I'm not gonna work there for long, but thank you for your concern, and your enthusaism
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Yeah, they're bad. Especially when you switch between day and night shifts. And yes, I'm gonna get back to writing soon after my contract is finished I hope
5570410 Nahhhh! China has found that only 30% of people die if they're forced to work 16 hours a day, 6 days a week! 70% survival is acceptable FOR THE GREATER GOOD OF THE CCP!!! (coming to a sweatshop near you)