Hi. Never done this, but I felt I should. · 10:12pm Jul 21st, 2021
Hi.
This is the first time I've written in a personal blog on this site. I usually communicate through DMs or by creating or commenting on forum posts on different groups.
But this time I just wanted to communicate something personal, and inform people who might expect updates or artwork or something from me, and wondering why I'm not producing anything.
My father just died a few days ago. He was found floating in a river, and from the information we have, it is apparent it was an accident. We, my family and I, are waiting for the results from the investigation to know the cause.
Soooooo obviously I'm going through a thing here.
So I don't know when I'll draw. I don't know when I'll write. I don't know when my heart starts beating again.
I'm sorry if I'm being brutal or ugly in some way. This is all I can do right now. And I for some reason wanted to tell you this. (Edit. I know why. I want people to know I'm in pain. It's human nature. Don't feel obligated to empathize though, if you haven't experienced personal loss you can't know what it is, so I don't expect people to "know what I'm going through" or anything.)
Sorry if I put a damper on your day. (Edit. If I'm making your emotional state truly worse, I am sorry. That was not my intention. But I think ultimately the knowledge that you are not the only one who has experienced loss and hard situations will be more helpful than harmful in the long run.)
I'm so terribly sorry. I can barely imagine your pain. I lost my grandfather to cancer s few years ago, so I kinda know your pain, but to lose a loved one in such a tragic way, I can only imagine. I'm so sorry for your loss. Have a hug or two.
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Thank you. Sorry about your grandfather. I lost my mother to cancer years ago, so I’ve been through that.
Have a hug back.
Oh crap. I am so sorry man. Take all the time you need.
I feel sorry for what has happened in your life, Pastafarian. Back in 2016, I lost my grandmother, and her death was something me nor my family saw coming. It still bothers me even to this day.
My condolences to you and your family, and I hope that you'll get better soon.
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Thank you. I'm sorry about your grandmother. It's a terrible feeling when it comes out of nowhere. You thought you had more time together, and then it's just... gone.
We all have a lot of grieving and tears to get through, but knowing my father he wouldn't be happy if we crumbled for good. So we are soldiering on.
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It's not just that, but my biggest regret is I didn't spend as much time with her. During my teenage and pre-adult years, I slowly didn't want to be around my grandmother. Even though I still have memories of trying to help her around the house, it was nowhere near the extent to what my mom and dad had to do for her. I was 19 when she died, and I still think even to this day if I could've done something more for her even when she was 85.
And I do agree with you. We will soldier on.