I hate my luck *Updated July 22nd* · 9:46am Jul 21st, 2021
Thanks to the weekend I thought my luck was turning but no. It had a massive hammer instead.
Couple of good things, some frustrating things, and one down right devastating thing.
Good:
- Kept an eye on changes to the vaccine rollout in my area and got my shot shifted from September to the Monday just passed, so...
- Spent much of the weekend in a nervocited state while preparing things in case I had a rare adverse reaction (incredibly unlikely but outliers can occur), and, as a result...
- I have had my first COVID shot. Pfizer, so yay!
- I have also been working on more of the next chapter of A John Deer Named. Also yay!
Frustrating:
- Dishwasher repair more than a week away at the moment thanks in part to the next thing (eh, am doing fine without it).
- COVID Delta strain has hit my state and we are suddenly in lock down. So, stressed but not much I can do about it. Just have to do my part, follow the directives, and only go out for the few things I am allowed to do. Scary part is it has hit pretty close to where I live. But, again, just going to do my part so we can all get through it.
Devastating:
I really hate this bit of news. It came in just after I had been making good progress on the next chapter and was on a break. The fact this is the second time this has happened this month and for the same reason is starting to make me feel this chapter may be cursed.
The dog who had surgery... because of the lump's location, there is no guarantee they were able to get all of it plus safe clearance. We knew that going in. Heading into the early evening today, the test results came in: Malignant Melanoma.
I'm shattered. Had to report it to my mother who is the actual owner of that dog. She's shattered. This will be the second dog of this breed we have had to likely be taken by cancer. She was adopted after the previous one died from cancer.
I just... Tests can be done to see if it is spread but likely not much which can be done to treat if so. Won't know more until some time tomorrow.
*Update July 22nd* Estimate average for survival is six months. There are always outliers and that is all we can really hope for. Going to give her the best life, as we had been doing, for as long as she still has. When she is ready, she will let us know, as other dogs we've had with cancer in the past have done.
Just writing this update has been soul destroying. Going to need some time. *End of Update*
Still trying to push my way forward, but I could really do with life not kicking my so much right.
Tael.
damn dude
i think i'll be prayin for ya
stay strong dude
Stay strong we are here for you.
Stay strong