Changeling Theory's first act is almost done · 7:33am Jun 3rd, 2021
I'm mostly posting this blog because it's late at night, and I'm in the mood for posting something, so why not this. I'm going to try to conclude Changeling Theory's first act in the next chapter. Be ready, because it's going to be wild. Also, apparently, this is the first fic that I update consistently. So, good thing. Yay! Let's see if I can finish this one.
And I haven't said it, but I really do appreciate everyone who is reading it. The fic actually went through several phases before it ended up in the state that it's in now. Last year I was battling severe depression induced by several factors in my life. Changeling Theory was almost entirely different in concept around this time. I would get a few paragraphs into a new idea before scraping it completely and convincing myself to give up writing. Then, I got so frustrated at one point that I finally said, "Fuck it all. If it comes out shit, at least it will be written."
The first two chapters were painful to write. Especially the first chapter. My writer's block was so bad that I could barely form a proper sentence without questioning every decision I've made as a writer. It didn't matter that I won a writing contest or that two of my stories made it onto EQD. It was a simple acknowledgment that my writing may have gone stale, and the paranoia invoked from that idea made things worse.
Writing chapter one was the first step. I wrote a few paragraphs and after at least five I stopped to send it to an editor. They said it looked good, so I continued writing from there. Anytime I doubted the story, I would stop again and send it their way. It's an unorthodox way of writing a story, but it helped to convince me that what I was writing wasn't as bad as it seemed.
Eventually, the first two chapters were written and I began to understand what I wanted to do with the story. Although the fic was planned to be a horror/thriller from the beginning, I didn't expect the entire setting to be mystery-based. That's good because it means the story is progressing naturally!
I write okay now. I wrote a shitpost not that long ago and hosted a writing contest. I hope to make more consistent writing updates. These days, all I know is work, work, and work. As much as I love watching movies in my free time, gaming, and hanging out with friends, I've always been the creative type. Who knows, it might help me mentally. Writing this blog, which I know is mostly rambles, has helped.
Anyways, I've been meaning to do something like this. Did you know that I'm really passionate about movies? I've had it in mind for a while to recommend the films I've seen, but couldn't think where to begin with a blog such as that. I do, however, have some a few essay ideas I want to to write.
Has anybody seen Bo Burnham's newest special? That's one of the things I plan on writing about. Bo Burnham's Inside is one of the few things in a long time that have made me cry. Which is weird, because I'm practically emotionless. I've always been a be fan of Bo's work. He is the whole reason why I bother to continue writing, and his newest special is nothing short of inspiring. Not just in terms of its creativity, because most of the issues talked about in the special I related to so much. To keep this short, last year was a very difficult year for me. I was suicidal, and the pandemic played a big part in that. Bo was able to simplify what I felt during that time in a way that made sense.
This blog has been mostly rambling. If you haven't seen Bo Burnham's newest special Inside, go see it. It's available on Netflix. I might do another blog on it soon. If you haven't read Changeling Theory, go read it. It's not on Netflix.
Hey man, just glad to see you still kicking and working at it.