I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW

I am SO unbelievably angry!

I wasn't going to mention this, but I finally, after a year of waiting following an apathetical nurse appointment, went to hospital for a long-awaited procedure called an endoscopy. I waited patiently for this since I knew the pressure was on with the NHS due to the pandemic, but everyone was so nice and patient and actually listened to me. They walked me through the procedure and it went smoothly, if you discount the gagging from having a camera tube shoved all the way through my body.

I felt pretty ill after the procedure despite not taking any form of sedation, instead using anaesthetic, and the nurse who discharged me was very nice. I was told I should get a call from that apathetic sorry excuse of a nurse who spoke to me like dog shit and barely listened to a word I said, telling me my prescription is ready. I was told it would take 5 days at the most, and guess how long it's been? almost THREE F-ING WEEKS.

I desperately need those meds. I waited for the week to pass, still got no answer. I figured with the pandemic, even though it's calmed down a bit now, has halted things slightly, so I waited few days longer. I called the doctor's office near my house where I saw the nurse. The phone picked up, but nobody said hello or anything. So I hung up after waiting for ages for them to respond. I was annoyed and went into the office in-person and asked about it, even bringing along my discharge papers.

You want to know what they told me first when I asked? They told me about a prescription I got last year. You know, as in, the one that I already had and wasn't the one I requested? The receptionist apologised and forced herself to not be snappy, which was plainly obvious. I explained all about it and despite it being well over a week and more into the second week of no response from my gp about the meds I need and was told ''maybe the bank holiday Monday slowed it down''...like...what?!

Last time I checked, I don't think hospitals or GP surgeries shut down for a day. I highly doubt they do. Perhaps some of the smaller offices do shut if maybe it's a community type office, but ones like this one are ones I doubt do that. It sounded more like an excuse to me.

I need it, for two reasons - one) the longer I spend without them, the worse my condition gets. two) I'm required to get it for employment purposes due to my illness which require me to legally have a 'sick note', otherwise from the perspective of the job centre, all I say sounds more like an excuse to not do the work search. In short, I could get sued for suspected fraud because my GP failed to come through for me and help me like they should have weeks ago.

I understand where they're coming from and I'm doing all I can, but what else can I do when the doctor's office I go to don't give a shit, don't listen, talk down to you like a sub-human animal and constantly demean you by saying stuff like, ''oh, I get that too'', ''I'm sure it's not that bad'', etc, etc. So excuse me if I'm a little bit fucking angry and impatient right now, I'm only worried for my personal health for an issue that they have done nothing but neglect do absolute buggery for almost a decade, not listening to a word I say and treating me like a hypochondriac, where it's ''all in my head''.

I contacted the hospital I went to a few days ago and they're sorting something out for me after I explained the situation in full. I'm now waiting for what we agreed upon and also trying to scout out a new GP office because I'm frankly fucking done with the one I currently go to. Where the hell do certain practices get off on treating people like that?! They were like this well before the pandemic hit, and they have been responsible for a lot of medical negligence in the past. I'm so annoyed and bemused by their apathy that I might take legal action against this, and I'd be well within my rights to do so, too! Fun fact: they were responsible for almost killing one of my grandmother's friends by prescribing her the wrong meds. They didn't even apologise. Typical.

I was going to go in only moments ago but stopped. With how angry I am, I wasn't about to burst in there and lose my temper in front of other patients. I'm not going to do that, and it took my willpower and better judgement not to lash out in that way. I understand what stress is, but I've waited for almost a fucking DECADE to find out what's wrong with me, only to get somewhere THIS YEAR with it. I think I am entitled to be a bit angry, annoyed and upset after all that time waiting and suffering because nobody cared enough to help me, despite me making numerous visits through the years and they STILL refused to listen to me.

*Angry huffing noises* Holy shit, I swear fucking down, be glad you can't see me right now. I am fucking SEETHING with boiling rage! I can't an ounce of help. The only people who have been useful and advisory with actual helpfulness are the hospital I had the procedure done in. And yes, what they found, one of two of those things discovered in my body could potentially become fatal if it gets left, so that's more than enough for me to worry. I'm done waiting around.

So, yeah, I'm trying to deal with that right now. I have a lot of stuff to get through with my own personal health and finding a GP office that actually want to help me while also suffering through emotional turmoil due to the events of this week. Something needs to be done, or I doubt I'll be around to see the next decade. I'm trying my best and trying to be as calm as I can.

I'm going to try and chill. I can't handle things when I'm angry like this, and I don't want to unintentionally lash at those who don't deserve that amount of harshness. So, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to probably swear a lot and try to vent.

and can I just say: fuck Zephyr Breeze. Fuck him all the way to Fuck-That-Ville and stop being such a yoga boy creep and leave Rainbow Dash alone, you stalking, snivelling, manipulative, lazy, pathetic little dweeb #Gildathegriffon. PS: It's ZephyrDay! (Zephyr Breeze Hate Day, which is every Friday, all day!)

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[Gyro Pony]

Welcome to hospitals.

That’s how my grandmother died.

They gave her a “high resolution” CAT scan that had the power turned up so high that her lips, gums and throat were bleeding and her brain lost its temperature regulation. Yes, that can happen when you give an elderly person a radiation dosage that high - that area of the brain is more susceptible to damage.

Oh, this was for a broken forearm.

Yes. A max power CAT scan on her head for a broken forearm.

You can see why the Police needed to extract the medical papers by force. This is one of the reasons why the hospital refused to hand over the papers to the coroner when her death in hospital was investigated.

What happened was this:
The hospital was new and not yet ready for patients, but she was sent there anyway.
They were commissioning the equipment.
They needed testers.

So the doctor sent my nanna for an extended session in the CAT machine at high power.
The technician even delayed the procedure to double check - this is documented.
He was uncertain about using the machine on a radiation output that high on a lady in her 80’s.

EDIT: This was a scan on her brain.
Her broken forearm was never x-rayed or scanned.
And the bones wouldn’t be set until we demanded they do something about the actual injury she was brought in for.
They needed a guinea pig for machine testing on the brain. That is why they hid the papers from the Police Investigation.

Hospitals man.
Watch them like a hawk.
And that is from someone who has two Registered Nurses in his family.

Yes, that includes chasing them up.
They should not have you waiting that long.

Like. A. Hawk.

And chill when you can.
Venting is fine, but a constant state of angst is not good. I have that problem too some days, it’s hard to wind down.

[Ribe_FireRain]

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That...I have no response. That specific type of negligence can easily lead to death, whether or not the place is new and the machines getting installed require testing before full use on a daily basis. Somebody in that age range getting exposed to that much controlled radiation is horrendous and they should feel ashamed for allowing that to happen, man! For a broken forearm though? Like, wtf? Wouldn't a regular x-ray have sufficed for that?

This wasn't a hospital I went to see the nurse in. The place I went to first to see the nurse about me vomiting and coughing blood almost on a daily basis was a general practitioner's office, as in, a very small doctor's building. It has only a few rooms and a reception area. That is it. They are a terrible team of apathetic, soulless, incompetent morons and they shut be shut down. They don't care at all. They neglect everybody.

The hospital I went to was better. It's a large-scale hospital with many sectors and at least when I went there for an endoscopy, it was smooth and everyone was nice. I had to actually get a person to show me where to go because it's such a confusing place with tightly-spaced buildings. At least I tested negative for Covid during my pre-assessment, so that's good.

I had calmed down a bit but now I'm back to almost ragingly angry because I just bashed my head against a rock-solid amplifier while trying to pull out the plug. I'm very fed up and pissed off. I can't calm down.

I need to go back to that bloody doctor's office and waste a lot more of my time trying to get an answer out of them, because I'm not standing for this type of negligent shite any longer. I NEED those meds, non-negotiable. This isn't up for debate. I needed them almost three weeks ago when I got discharged.

So believe me, man: I'm going to keep trying what I can. I need that prescription and then I'm going to change GPs because I am BEYOND done with those pathetic pricks over at that tiny office who don't give a fuck about their jobs or anybody at all. I can't stress that enough how little they care. If they so much as dare try and pretend they don't know, then I can't promise they won't witness my most potent wrath if they test me upon it.

I don't wanna have to resort to that, but I have little time and tolerance for the type of people they are. To say they are 'lousy' is an understatement.