Uh... Hi. · 12:31am Apr 24th, 2021

Hello.
Yeah, I'm uh... I'm still alive.

Soooooo.... Yeeeeah... I've been gone from the fic game for about... 1, 2 years now? And I'm really sorry for that. Who knows if any of you guys even remember me, or if any of you guys who even watch me remember me. But if you do, or if you don't, let me catch you guys up.

So I really have no real reason to have been gone for so long other than the last year, 2020, beat me down. Mentally. Really hard. At the time the virus started, I was trying finishing school. I had sent-to-home work. My senior project that I had spent so much time and actual tears on and was actually confident in presenting was cancelled at the very last second, a literal week before I was to present. And worst of all, my final drama show (drama and acting being one of the things I'm extremely passionate about, and that drama department meaning so much for me and my personal growth), which I had a lead in, was cancelled last second. Also a week before our first ever performances. And then there was the presidential debates, and then a bunch more political stuff (and I absolutely despise politics btw), and then the Jan 6. 2021 events here in America, and just not being the best mentally.
I had fics I was working on, trust me. Well, more ideas for fics. I wasn't able to juggle everything during 2020s events. So my drive just stopped dead. I'd get a fic idea, open up Docs, write a few paragraphs, and then just... Stop. And this situation really hasn't been solved since. I've tried to force myself and much more, I really have. But my drive for fics has just... Vanished.

But I haven't stopped thinking about fics. Truly I haven't. Hell, I had a comment on Fizzle Popped Berrytwist just a bit ago and I had thought of that fic just yesterday, at the time I'm making this blog. So I haven't stopped thinking about fics, I still am just opening up Docs, writing paragraphs, and just stopping with certain ideas. It's just the drive, I need to find the drive again, the force, the urge, the ability, again. And hopefully, with some help from a couple of friends, I'll relearn and get back into fic making, hopefully this year but no promises.

I want to get back into writing, truly I do. So, for those of you who are still waiting on me to come back, if any of you even exist, I know it's selfish of me to say but please sit tight until then. I can't give a specific date, but I want to try. I'm sorry I haven't informed you guys, I'm sorry I've been so silent. That was wrong on my part. But until I find my drive again, whenever that is, I hope you all can stick with me a little longer.

If you read this far, thank you. And if you've waited this long to hear even a word from me, thank you even more. I'm sorry I haven't met your expectations, but I'm going to try my best. At least I hope.
Until then, I'll still try to at least comment on anything you guys comment to me. It's the least I can do for vanishing for so long.
Again, thank you. And I hope you all understand